John Steinbeck [East of Eden]: the free, roving mind is being pursued, roped, blunted, drugged : targeted as a community pariah and outcast into the streets into homelessness and into death.
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James M. Driskill
Dec 28, 2006, 10:13:17 PM12/28/06
to Howard Newsom - Phd, Kym Coppage-CaseMgr, Local-HIV-Comm...@googlegroups.com, bi...@alrp.org, Monica Espiratu-CaseMgr, Marty Kahn
By disparagement, by starvation, by repressions, forced direction,
and the stunning hammerblows of conditioning, the free, roving mind is being
pursued, roped, blunted, drugged.
John Steinbeck
from East of Eden
from East of Eden
Viking Press in September 1952,
pursued, roped, blunted,
drugged = targeted as a community pariah and
outcast into the streets into homelessness and
into death.
Any new readers here? These are serious "life and death" and "health and
wellness" issues
--- which command a PLEA : SE to your duty attention of humanity
in these matters!
I am here in begging a PLEA one last time. I am no drama queen!
PLEA :
SE --- read and offer me a DIRECT
HUMAN RESPONSE REPLY that you actually have taken a
consideration of time and actually have taken a humanity care to read
my thoughts and the conditions of "the life experience" in these matters
herein....
There is much much more of other linking
and continued thoughts outside of these if you cannot quite understand the
needs of my begging PLEA.
I am placing this item as "return receipt
requested".
I will be forwarding all received receipts into the
public group forum for world public view.
And any non-received status of these receipts will
be also noted.
Thank you.
Go fix some weighty truth;
Chain down some passion; do some good;
Teach ignorance to see or grief to smile;
Correct thy friend; befriend thy greatest foe;
Be just in all things; make amends
For follies past, and, with warm heart,
Forgive, and be forgiven. Let work not words
Thy virtue prove. Go act as well as prate,
And then thy counsels will be strong,
Thy reprimands avail.— ANON.
Chain down some passion; do some good;
Teach ignorance to see or grief to smile;
Correct thy friend; befriend thy greatest foe;
Be just in all things; make amends
For follies past, and, with warm heart,
Forgive, and be forgiven. Let work not words
Thy virtue prove. Go act as well as prate,
And then thy counsels will be strong,
Thy reprimands avail.— ANON.
Doctor Howard: [ Foothill Aids Project
Mental Health
Director ]
[ A Person
of managerial
and authoritative capabilities of "client centered"
Mental Health assessments of this individual person "of client
care status" that is writing here outwardly to the public address and the public
world view of humanity concerns ]
I missed you for the celebration party over the
holidays.
You know that I informed you by email only on
that "scheduled party" day -- I was a bit confused it
would seem.
I was not thinking "party" as I said that I would
see you at "group meeting" tomorrow... out of the wackyness of holiday cheers
and the holiday realities.
--- I just didn't feel inside like
a "holiday" or of a "celebrating" mood.
Why.... and you were given a passing inference
to this....
Having to close off open unresolved of issues
that I could not allow to remain in the lack of accountability
factors in a long standing friendship of 12+ years. The lack of these
accountability factors are just so obviously present and continuously
marking themselves as bad emotional influences in my life and mental
wellness.
The attempted resolve of these issues over many
many months has only offered me dismissed discourse that turns in on itself
to my disdain over the influential reasons why....I cannot continue to bond with these sources. It is fatal to me to remain so.
It is killing me --- and in terms of
these influential reasons why -- it is killing us by "forced
direction" one by one in our communities.
So I have had other "priority" work to do this
holiday --- as you can see -- I have been busy.
Everything of this work this holiday was given to
you "piece by piece" in the real time of things for your understanding
[ mental assessment ] of the staging of my mental abilities and
process [client centered] that I am employing here.
This is to stand for my dignity as a
human being -- not of a having any person status of belonging anywhere
but in a default in "forced direction" is where I stand --- the place where
I GRUW UP.
Great Reasons Urbans Will Unite Peace
The duty of unity and the duty of community calls
me forth time and time again to these issues....
I cannot continue to be
broken.
I have tears once more as I
write --- I have no sense of shame --- in anything that am doing in these
matters!
AND I HAVE NO TIME TO BE NICE!
NICE DOESN'T CUT THROUGH THE EVILS I CONTINUE TO
RECEIVE!
Someone has to step forward to mend what has been
broken of me in all of this situation.
I tell you I HURT! I tell you I have
been mentally abused in this process!! I still feel like trash &
dirt but to much less of a degree that I wrote out to the plaintiff's
attorney:
HUMAN WITHOUT A TONGUE in LOCAL HIV COMMUNITY OA.. to Mr. Alan Horwitz using a newly assigned . . Driskill To
: Alan Horwitz Sent
: Tuesday
, April .
. and fell like trash
, junk and dirt
. I
Real Up Human [.net] - 11 messages - View in Gmail - May 28
It might be of particular note that
this message is being also directed to a public accessible forum
and persons of managerial and authoritative capabilities that are involved.
I have no problems signing releases to engage
in a collective shared effort in any resolve of issues and matters
here!
If no
one stands forth out of their humanity, out of their
compassion, out of their sympathy, out of their disinterestedness ---
YOU ARE ALL EVIL!
It is against God's and
Goddess's COMMANDMENTS YOU ALL --- I HAVE TOLD YOU....
You must be of evil --- you have no sense of
accountability, no sense of responsibility and sense
of duty!
I cannot ignore or silence my own
expressions that are publicly placed long time ago before becoming HIV positive
and/or
diagnosed with AIDS in
1999.
These are my principles of my own life
being --- IT IS JUST NOT
POSSIBLE TO BE QUIET AND SUCK THE FUCK UP!
These addresses of mine will continue
until I break apart at the seams of life you all -- at the seams of
life.
And for that --- it will be your doing and your
responsibly of such event happenings --- it is because of
your continuing to have misdirected reverence to "follow the easy and familiar paths of personal ambition" that has
been told that you ought to disembark from in this long time ago address.
"For the fortunate among us, there is the temptation to follow the easy and familiar paths of personal ambition and financial success so grandly spread before those who enjoy the privilege of education. But that is not the road history has marked out for us. Like it or not, we live in times of danger and uncertainty. But they are also more open to the creative energy of men than any other time in history. All of us will ultimately be judged, and as the years pass we will surely judge ourselves on the effort we have contributed to building a new world society and the extent to which our ideals and goals have shaped that event."Day of Affirmation Address :
Robert F. Kennedy
Capetown, South Africa June 6, 1966Funeral Train - Washingtonpost.com
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And
again I tell now, so now what are you waiting for ? More death? More
suffering?
Out of my personal disdain of
expressions of your misdirected reference this path are of
murderous factors, one by one, that is killing us in this
community.....
I would rather be totally lost and broken down in
public view and to DIE FIRST of in these murderous
paths that you persist a presence all of what I have
been though and have experienced directly for the past two years --- it remains
to instills us into conditions of "forced direction" in this
community.
John Steinbeck
from East of Eden
[excerpt]And now the forces mashaled around the concept of the group have declared a war of extermination on that preciousness, the mind of man. By disparagement, by starvation, by repressions, forced direction, and the stunning hammerblows of conditioning, the free, roving mind is being pursued, roped, blunted, drugged. It is a sad suicidal course our species seems to have taken.
And this I believe: that the free, exploring mind of the individual human is the most valuable thing in the world. And this I would fight for: the freedom of the mind to take any direction it wishes, undirected. And this I must fight against: any idea, religion, or government which limits or destroys the individual. This is what I am and what I am about. I can understand why a system built on a pattern must try to destroy the free mind, for that is the one thing which can by inspection destroy such a system. Surely I can understand this, and I hate it and I will fight against it to preserve the one thing that separates us from the uncreative beasts. If the glory can be killed, we are lost.
pursued, roped, blunted, drugged = outcast me as a pariah into the
streets of homelessness to death.
TEARS AGAIN YOU ALL ----- TEARS FLOWING DOWN MY
FACE....
I will be contacting several places for a new
address of your evil minded allowance of these matters --
Such as this very introductory list from the
sources of the above:
Washingtonpost.com
Paul
Fusco
And it is not of my doing --- a massive detail of
an unlawful eviction case ---
where my rights of due process have been violated
continuously throughout the entire case.
Its pretty much has been placed of this holiday
priority work of mine to the judgements of "public option"....
--- which it definitely shows every miss-placed
"forced direction" in all of your efforts against me to be
able
to defend myself from an desperate act
of civil legal necessity.
That placement alters what is your "force
direction" to some other "direction" that you must choose to return to
me
--- and also to sort our your duty to
community and your duty to humanity.
Is it your
responsibility "COLLECTIVELY" to make right!
I know what is wrong --- and I know what is
right!
You absolutely wrong and I am absolutely
right!
--- Do have you any guilt?
--- Do have you any shame?
Beyond that:
--- Do you have any fortitude to even
minimize your damages in this case that is just over your horizon and will
be bearing down on you?
Search [ partial_thoughts
]:
Are you working from a complete separation of
sense --- in denial?
Your the ones who are mentally impaired --- not
me!
A little crazy --- you might think --- but
NOT!
"Is it a way of mind dementia twisted in conflict of
many many many levels and dimensions of space that we are still learning and
exploring ourselves of anyway. One will never truly understand another ones
dementia this way --- but serves no dementia of illness but of dementia of
wellness." --- In The Mindway Skin
If you don't want to have a transfer of
understanding of anything from me --- this is the reality --- these are my
expressions of thoughts on meme:
Common misconceptions
Truly defined broadly over some form of individual examples given above -- single meme are indexes in the mechanics of the mind's process (Ego, Superego and Id) that represent partial_thoughts as best conceptually understood and thus sigilized to the recipient in the transfer.Incorporated with the initiation and termination period of human interactions of habit, continuously encountering these semi-familiar meme indexes begins to define a full realized meme complex -- call it "human habitation" between more than two humans. human evolution
This is the beginning constructs of culture, human bonding, unity, community, disunity, etc. What starts to appear is the human fear of what is externally observed as unfamiliar meme-complexes outside of experienced conceptions. Very basically defined as the traditional usage of queer.
Result: Cultural Wars begin. Understanding meme structures themselves overcomes the barrier of the unknown in the real time meme drift that occurs with unfamiliar ideals being expressed.
Just as this applies to Marlon Riggs:
I Shall Not Be Removed: The Life of Marlon Riggs (1996)
I shall not be lost: [ ORIGINAL MEME
PARTIAL_THOUGHT ]
-
Sabemos que existe hoy porque tan muchos de nosotros tienen personalmente experiencia él y hablamos sobre él con la cara a la lengua de la cara. La tenemos, pero tiene una característica inusual que no proporcione ningún medio de un chronicle histórico si se decae a las ruinas. Es silenciosa a nuestros oídos; ninguna grabación audio puede existir. Es invisable a nuestros ojos; ningunas fotografías pueden ser tomadas. No puede tocar la, ningún olor o gusto. Existe y qué existe alrededor de nuestro mundo sigue generalmente cualquier efectos naturales del decaimiento y de marchitar del tiempo lejos por actos accidentales u hostiles de la destrucción. Si desaparece será perdida.
It is up to you in duty response collectively by doing
the return accountability of the right thing back onto me for functional
"client centered" basic humans needs of life over death.
Doctor Robert C. Scott, the founder
of Allen Temple Manor is an associated principle "leader" in the LOCAL HIV
COMMUNITY OAKLAND CA USA
I continue to associate this "leaders" influential
powers against me and wholeheartedly believe this is
true.
[ As also this expression of mine is
disclosed in an email statement to the plaintiff's lawyer ]
The person of a longstanding 12+ year
friendship that I had to break ties of this holiday is a
direct patient of Doctor Scott.
Why exactly did I need to break off these
ties? [most important is detailed in the email below]
BUT ALSO CONFLICT OF COMMUNITY
INTEREST:
One might find confluence right here in this
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There is NO ACCOUNTABILITY returns all sources of
community, peers, and including my direct friends.
In terms of influence factors --- the
community is encapsulated by their own state of fear factors of
reprisals just being associated to me -- as just being one more victim to their
process that I have a merit of demonstration that is reality and not mere
speculation and definitely not from a mental state of delusion. I am not
the first victim of this process --- and if things remain -- will definitely not
be the last.
But this is where I break apart for a legal act of necessity to get the
fuck out of their direct line of fire against me!
For now:
Anyone who chooses to remain in these fear
factors over accountability -- including a long standing friendship
--- is no friend of mine.
For circumstances of discovery of "unlocked
status" of my "oakland storage unit" --- does not honor and fails true
friendship.
My father agrees.
When I was at FAP to deliver my honor of the
request CD of my music to you Doctor Howard, I spoke my case manager Kym in
causal conversation about these same troubling emotional recent events of
friendship.
I think Kym also finds a degree of
understanding to also then agree.
Anyone not having an accountability factors for community [conflict of
community interest] cannot remain bonded in my life
or be allowed to be a friend of mine.
And exactly what does it take to be or not to be a friend of mine:
Something much higher than ignorance and dismissal for this email below to
this same friend I terminated this holiday season:
HAPPY HOLIDAYS : HAPPY NEW YEAR!
And please read the details to what I attempt to empower in my life.... and
this is the person that remains broken.
Thank you for a consideration of concern.
Mr James M. Driskill
By following the same degrees of the "father biased filtering"
instructions below in an email of Sep 16 2005....
Anyone of public view reading this can find my phone number and call me
voice to offer a human response --- if so desired.
A voice response of from the sea of humanity would truly inspirational
and truly be nice.
And this email states back then --- "not friends."
Homeless now ---- so where should I find a calling of new home and of new
friends?
Thank you.
This email is not perfect... and is provided AS
IS:
 Emailing:
CollectiveIntelligence : and being a friend
From: James M. Driskill <jmdri...@post.com> |
Have I MADE ANY statment of RESOLVE in SHARING AND UNITIFING COMMUNITY?
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