August 31, 2011
Living Beyond the Shadow of My Doubts
Renee Swope
"You are a chosen [woman], a royal [priest], a holy [daughter], God's
special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called
you out of the darkness into his wonderful light." 1 Peter 2:9 (NIV)
I stood in front of my bathroom mirror getting ready for a large event
while begging God to zap me with confidence, or send Jesus back before
it was time for me to speak. I had been struggling with paralyzing
self-doubt that week, and it was making me question everything.
Although I was honored when the event leader called months before, now
I questioned why I'd accepted the invitation. And my internal dialogue
was relentless...What if I forget what I'm going to say? What if my
points aren't that powerful? What if they don't connect with my
stories or laugh at my humor? What if...?
When I turned around to put something in my suitcase behind me, I
noticed a huge nine-foot shadow on the wall. I was surprised how big
the shadow was and how much it distorted the image of my five-foot,
two-inch frame.
All of a sudden, I realized my uncertainty had also created a huge
shadow—a shadow of doubt. It was distorting my thoughts and
overpowering my emotions.
As I stood there looking at the humongous shadow, I sensed God
whispering to my heart: Renee, you can only see the shadow because you
have turned away from the light. Turn back toward the light.
Slowly I turned back toward the lights above the mirror, and realized
I was no longer standing in the shadow. And, I also realized I had
created the shadow by blocking the light.
Shadows are created all around us when something blocks light. And so
it is with the shadow of doubt. When we focus on ourselves and how
inadequate we feel, or what others are thinking about us, we cast a
shadow of doubt in our minds and block the light of God's Truth in our
hearts.
Yet, we were not designed to block the light or to be the light.
We were created to live in the Light, by focusing on what God thinks
about us instead. I love how John the Baptist is described as "a
witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all
might believe. He himself was not the light; he came only as a witness
to the light." (John 1:7-8, NIV)
The same is true for us. Jesus said, "I am the light of the world.
Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the
light of life." (John 8:12b, NIV) When we follow Jesus closely in our
thoughts, we find our confidence in Him.
As we shift the focus from our feelings of inadequacy to His promises
of all-sufficiency, we can exchange our lack of self-confidence with
lasting God-confidence. And in doing so, our lives become a witness,
testifying of the One who called us out of darkness into His wonderful
light (1 Peter 2:9, NIV).
Are you ready to become a more Jesus-dependent, God-confident woman
whose assurance is found in Him alone? If so, when you find yourself
standing in the shadow of self-doubt, instead of wishing for more self-
confidence, pray for lasting God-confidence! Then turn towards the
Light so your heart can focus on and live in the security of His
promises:
• When you feel inadequate, remember God says: You are CHOSEN.
"'You are my witnesses,' declares the Lord, 'and my servant whom I
have chosen, so that you may know and believe me and understand that I
am he.'" (Isa. 43:10a, NIV)
• When you feel unable or unstable, God says: You are ABLE.
"The Sovereign Lord is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of
a deer, he enables me to tread on the heights." (Hab. 3:19, NIV)
• When you feel unworthy, remember God says: You are LOVED.
"You are precious and honored in my sight, and...I love you." (Isa.
43:4a, NIV)
Lord, Your Word says I am a chosen woman, a royal priest, a holy
daughter, a woman belonging to You. Help me remember that You have
called me out of the shadows of my doubts to tell others about the
Light and hope I've found in You. In Jesus' Name, Amen.
Related Resources:
You can download a list of more powerful promises from Renee's blog
where she's also giving away a series of Confident Heart conference
calls. Click here to find out more and enter to win!
We're celebrating the release of Renee's new book, A Confident Heart:
How to Stop Doubting Yourself & Live in the Security of God's
Promises. To find out more about this life-changing message or order a
copy, click here.
Join Melissa Taylor's FREE Confident Heart online Bible study based on
Renee's book, A Confident Heart. It starts September 19th! Sign up
here.
When you purchase resources through Proverbs 31 Ministries, you
support the many areas of hope-giving ministry we provide at no cost.
Thank you for each and every purchase you make with us!
Application Steps:
What are your most common thoughts of self-doubt and how do they make
you feel? (inadequate, uncertain, indecisive, etc.) Click here for a
list of powerful promises to replace them.
Reflections:
"When we focus our attention on ourselves, we turn our attention away
from God. We leave no room in our thoughts to listen to what God is
thinking about us, because we have given that place away to be
occupied by other people's opinions." — from A Confident Heart
Power Verses:
Luke 24:38, "Why are you frightened?" [Jesus] asked. "Why are your
hearts filled with doubt?" (NLT)
Romans 8:6, "The mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on
the Spirit is life and peace." (NASB)
© 2011 by Renee Swope. All rights reserved.