Hey all,
I first want to say that I love you all so very much. You've been an absolute joy to work with this past year and I've grown so much from playing with and watching all the very talented improvisers in this group. I can't say it enough how wonderfully amazing you all are.
Unfortunately, I will not be playing in tonight's show. I've thought really hard about this and I've constantly gone back and forth but ultimately, I won't be the best Caleb tonight. This is no reflection on you as a group. I loved playing with you all and every performance whether good or bad (by our standards), I found moments I loved and will cherish for forever. This has no reflection on iO. I'm not bitter or angry at all. I just know that mentally and emotionally, I'm not in a state to perform and the entire show I'll be in my head and will be a detriment to the team. Again, I love you all and my previous, wonderful shows are the shows I want to remember my experience by and not the mess of a man I'll be tonight.
I would love to come to dinner and celebrate and laugh and chat but if that would be too weird for the group, then I understand. I would love to schedule a hang out time with everyone without the pressure of a show sometime soon and go out with one big hurrah! But let me know everyone feels about me joining you all for dinner and then heading out after. I won't be offended if you think it'd be weird or strange and prefer I stay away. I'll understand.
Please don't take this as a slight on any of you or the Harold commission or iO. It's not. Everyone handles their problems in their own way and this is the healthiest way for me to do it. I love you all. SO much. You're all heroes in my eyes and I can't thank you enough for everything you've taught me over the year and half. Kill it tonight! I know you will.
With love,
Caleb