He was not sure whether he was totally in control. He felt for others. Some people got what they didn't deserve, even the lotto, some other people, even good people, just suffered in many ways, ways without a reason, ways beyond understanding, ways beyond power.
As he aged, one thing became clear, that under his belt there were enough things to worry and care about with his limited power. So, he started ticking them off, slowly, one by one, and the results of them started to be visible and invisible. The visible results reassured his will, the invisible ones reinforced his faith. Faith? Is it not under faith that we wish the best to others, faith in better health, trust in our deep feelings for every other, hope in tomorrow?
That morning, just after a dream, it all burst on his life as an UN-control-able smile, tears around. He could not hold on to those thoughts that stopped him to fulfill certain goals we are all challenged, invisibly, to achieve. He realised that there was a immeasurable power acting all around, as every "coincidence" since his birth started to form a pattern that, added to his choices and others around him, became his path.
A spiritual feeling beyond explanations, reasons, arguments and struggles disrupted all of his "theories", to welcome a calmed acceptance and understanding of the Love that has been poured on him, Love that overwhelmed every corner of his being: He was set free. He did not try to control any more, but to follow a path, to discover, to enjoy, to fulfill, to network with the Big Power: God. He was not more himself, but a part of something infinite, unstoppable, unlimited.
"Merry Christmas!"- said his little nephew. Then his mind was filled with grace as he replied back: "Merry CHRISTmas, Bobby".
(Note: Sorry about the early greetings :) )
Merry CHRISTmas!
Ramon Araujo