My short fiction 'Letters from Nairobi' is Jaggery's pick of three, issue no. 8, Spring 2016. It is a homage to my childhood memories of Goa, many of the characters are real, although the story is fictionalised. It was originally entitled 'Black as a Crow'.
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Outside, the world felt
young and fresh, the earth smelt of decaying fruit and dung, and the trees
swished in the sky with leaves like shoals of fish swishing in the sea, swishing
this way and that, as if their swishing would go on for ever or at least till
the rains came and they fell silent and heavy. Old man Miguel, to the left of grandmother’s
house, waved to me. Tufts of white hair sprung from either side of his ears
making the shiny bald patch in the middle look like an abandoned field. Thin as
a reed he was, but strong. He roamed the river banks and the orchards, and at
night he roamed the darkness lit up by moons. He was always out there, barefoot,
clad in his faded short pants and sleeveless cotton vest, checking on the cows,
buffaloes and goats he kept tethered to the dome shaped haystack; the smell of
dry hay everywhere. Grandmother said,
you wouldn’t know it to look at him, but he was an important man. If ever there
was a dispute about water rights or marital discord, he’d be called upon to
arbitrate; the unofficial lawmaker of the village. But grandmother had quite a
few fights with him because his cows often wandered into her garden, munching
unperturbed on her bougainvillea. And because he was always insinuating secrets
and scandals about her dead husband.
At mid-day, when the shadows
had lengthened, I went in. Victoria the maid, had laid out lunch: a plateful of
unevenly heaped rice, deep fried semolina crusted fish and a fierce looking orangey-red
curry. There were jars of pickles lined on the side; mangos in brine, brinjals
in chilli and fish soaked in vinegar. Victoria, who had come to live with us as
a seven year old child, was twenty-seven, with at least three front teeth
missing, a taut bosom and thick thighs and ankles, which thanks to
grandmother’s sense of modesty were always covered in pleated dresses. But her
round, black eyes placed above rather fine cheekbones made her a comely girl
who doubled up as my childhood companion and grandmother’s caretaker.
My mother,
grandmother’s only child, had never married. She had paid for her folly of
fornication by being incarcerated at the Holy Spirit Convent all through her
adolescent years and had departed for Bombay at the first instance of freedom.
She left me in the care of these two women who were so disembowelled by their own
sadness that I became their only solace. They prayed feverishly at odd hours of
the day, fishing out of their pockets, pictures of martyred saints, wooden
crucifixes and rosaries, rubbing them furiously and breaking into incoherent
utterances, sometimes together but usually in solitude. When they weren’t
united in their quest for redemptive suffering, Victoria bore the brunt of
grandmother’s moods. Grandmother believed her menials were to be treated with
as much disdain as her conscience would allow but occasionally she would
surprise Victoria with some mouldy biscuits or fabric recycled from an old
curtain for a new dress. In those times, the orphan Victoria believed she was
loved, and grandmother felt assured of a place in heaven.
Best wishes,
selma