UPDATES!!! Uhm. I scored a second interview with the publishing house for next Wednesday -- they sent me a manuscript & I have to do a small assignment on it, due Friday, which sounds like it's the ~final hurdle~ for helping them decide who to hire. I finished reading the ms on Monday & have been letting it percolate, but will sit down tomorrow and finally hammer out my assignment.
Yesterday, I was experiencing a weird mental glitch in which like. Part of me was so afraid of failure at this ~final hurdle~ that I was tempted to be like "no no it's okay, never mind, FORGET I TRIED, WITHDRAWING MYSELF FROM CONSIDERATION, I'M GOING TO GO BACK TO THE SAFE EMBRACE OF INTERNSHIPS, FORGET ABOUT ME PLEASE!!!" I am so nerve-wracked at the thought of making it this far but then somehow fucking it up now, ugh. I'm unused to job interviews actually requiring me to display some sort of skill o m g.