I broke it off with my partner of 3 years last week because I had enough of not getting any emotion from him whatsoever. In the desperate quest to understand him and what happened I was searching the internet for ‘lack of emotion’ and stumbled across Alex and this site. I guess I would like some feedback about whether you think my ex might have Alex. His behaviour was a lot like what I have read about on this site – I had to teach him to hug, he never said I love you (learnt to say it back to me mechanically) or initiated affection, never paid compliments, was not fussed about birthdays or special occasions, had no interest in being physically intimate – I got a mechanical peck hello and goodnight, only wanted to talk facts/rational things, didn’t seem to ever miss me or have a burning desire to see me and was just content with ‘hanging out’. He never really got excited about anything and just seemed flat-line and numb a lot of the time. I know that some of our friends found him difficult to socialise with because he didn’t build up rapport with people over time and didn’t really share anything of himself other than factual things. Even when asked how he felt about something, he still stuck to what he thought about it. He was really jovial and loving with pets though which was hard to watch because that is what I wanted from him and I found myself getting jealous of my own dog!
One thing that he didn’t have as far as I know are the physical symptoms that Alex’s have – in fact he was physically very healthy. This seems to be a major factor in diagnosis. I read on another site that speech impediments are common with this, particularly in males, and he did have one when he was young.
The break up has been really tough because it’s like he can totally detach and I’m left exhausted and emotionally zapped, wondering why all my efforts got us nowhere. In the end he just thought I was a nagging, critical cow that was trying to change him and make him be more like me when he was fine just the way he was. I tried coaxing, begging pleading, reading books, reading websites, adapting my behaviour to try to bring out emotion in him and nothing was working, so after lots of pleading I got us to relationship counselling. After 4 months of it he was only going through the motions for an hour a fortnight and not trying to make any change in between and he just kept saying that we didn’t need to go to counselling. I realised then that I was fighting a losing battle.
After my long winded explanation, I would love to know your thoughts on whether you think my ex has Alex. Being able to identify the way he was as something specific would help to make me make some sense of all of this.
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