PULL through.
ankit govil
Pull.
Try, come on try harder. I felt my toe quiver. Yes, that’s it. Come on a little more. I’m trying my best here.
Come on you can do it. How I wish I could shut him voice up. Leave me alone, I’m happy in this slumber.
Oh no you don’t, you have been lying like this for ages now. Time to get up.
I don’t want to. It’s nice and peaceful, what do I have to live for on the other side?
You have everything. The world is yours to live by.
Here I live by my own rules, who cares about the world it didn’t care for me.
Yes it does. You know it does. Maybe not the whole world but those close to you care for you. Come on, you know it. Try, try for them.
I’m trying. It’s a lot better now, I can feel my toe.
Ha! Are you happy with that? Just your toe?
Well, for now I am.
That’s not enough boy. Come on, push yourself you can do it.
I cannot, I have been trying and you know it.
You tried and see now your toe is alive. Try harder and you will walk again. You want to be fed the rest of your life through tubes and injections?
Don’t have an answer now, do you? Remember the taste of food? Or has the cloud of nonchalance clotted your taste buds too?
I remember. Vaguely.
Exactly. You want all your memories to turn to dust? Remember the happy times you had? Your first bicycle ride, your first A+, your child? All of them will turn to dust if you don’t try.
Urgh…!! I pushed myself further.
Come on boy, look within yourself. Pull that feeling from your toe. Make it travel to your heart.
It’s too far.
It’s closer than you think. Hold on to the little string hanging beneath it. And now PULL.
It’s not moving.
Pull harder. Pull it north.
AAAggghhh…!! The effort tired me, I could feel the sweat dripping off my arms. Wait, I could feel it?
It is working.
Yes it is, pull it harder.
Let me breathe a minute.
No, you snooze you lose. Come on.
Man, you bark orders like a mad colonel.
Attention…!! Men assume stance. Get ready to pull life force. Direction North. One, two, three, PULL.!
Aye sir. Now he had a sense of humor.
The light of life is there buried deep. See it? It’s dim but it is still shining. Look for its shadows and twinkles.
I can’t see it.
Open your eyes.
I can’t.
Yes you can. OPEN THEM. Find the light.
AAArgh…!!
My eyes popped open, the lamp overhead was too bright they shut again. My breath quickened.
You did it boy. Hold on to that light.
“Doctor? DOCTOR?” I heard a voice shout. Who was she?
Relax, one thing at a time. It will come back to you in time. Good work Soldier. Now sleep. Tomorrow will be a new day.
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