Thank you for sharing that intimate paper with us. It brought to my mind Jung's theory of synchronicity, i.e. in your analysis you outlined how events combined in various ways that were potent and meaningful. Perhaps we are tapping into a universal consciousness of which we all partake (but as individuals who form the stream), such that when I am thinking of some x, then a few days later one meets Mary or Michael etc., that one was thinking about. I remember Prof. William Desmond give a talk on 'God-sends', when you are researching something and you need to find a way to bring a paper together or whatever you might put your hand on a book that is exactly fit-for-the-purpose of your study.
Also, the colours you mentioned are interesting, green and gold, are of course the Meath colours, makes one realise that there are probably 'more things in heaven and earth, [...] than are dreamt of in [...] philosophy'.
Existence is quite fascinating and shocking at the same time, I think Edith traveled in search of the meaning of existence in the early papers as was mentioned in the postings by Linda and she seems already to have had 'an idea' or an openness to the ultimate source of meaning in 'On Empathy' which she arrived at via her own rational approach. These small snippets from an atheist philosopher towards the ultimate origins (which lie outside of the phenomenological inquiry at that stage of her research) certainly meant she was opened up to something beyond via her rational investigations. Such that her last work really explored the ultimate source of meaning - 'Finite and Eternal Being'. For me, it is quite amazing, to think of God as Pure Act, never created, just simply 'is', even if this everlasting existence is the universe itself, the self-existence of 'something' never being a nothing is a mystery to the human intellect, yet it can be conceived of given our finite limitations. We can still think infinity and that itself is another amazing aspect of the psycho-physical individual's ability.
I hope that the writings of Edith and other synchronic events will provide much strength to you especially at this time,