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Cliff at first thinks his decision to rejoin the ranks is mostly borne of the desire not to hurt his new friends. But soon time tells that the punishment is not lessened but enhance by his continued inclusion in the group. Thorne uses Cliff as a wedge to drive between the group. Hammering that wedge over and over, trying to break the Fredricksmires apart. Cliff, of course, can't catch a break.
Thorne hammers down on everyone else, especially Jaden gets extra hammered because Thorne labels him “sympathizer” due to his verbal support of Cliff. Thorne calls them both out together and commands them to “GET DOWN AND START PUSHING!(pushing=pushups) YOU’LL STOP PUSHING WHEN I GET TIRED!” many times. Like the scene from Firefly when Mal was keeping Wash’s spirits up while being tortured Jaden gives Cliff a wink or makes a humorous remark in the middle of mind and body crushing PT punishment. Cliff laughs, falls face first in the muck and they both have to suffer through additional punishment, but it happens with a sense of camaraderie. Thorne secretly smiles.
Alessa’s company at meals is an uncertain thing to Cliff. At first he thinks that somehow she is just as unpopular as he is, what with her bald head and tattoos, and they sit together out of need. But he slowly realizes that she is actually quite sought after. Her stable, almost serene countenance seems to draw people in a way he barely begins to understand. Though he never follows her on any of her meditations he secretly admires her and feels warmth in his heart that she CHOOSES to sit with him at meal time. It makes many of the difficulties he endures melt away. He thinks "Once we get some stinking leave, I'm going to get Alessa something nice. Damn, but what would SHE want? Flowers? No. Candies? Hell no. Egad man, cant you do anything right?"
Cliff hated the middle of the night watch, on the coldest, most unprotected part of the “stupid” compound. Thorne saw to it that that watch was his, even though it was supposed to be a random drawing. Cliff loves his sleep, and he rarely got any of it. These were the nights that the darkest of his thoughts worked in his mind. How miserable it was, how everyone hated him, how this mission from his parents must have been because they didn’t think he was worthy of more. This particular watch on week 5 was it. It would be easy enough to die of overexposure, Cliff thought. He took off his heavy gloves, started to un-do the clasps of his extreme cold weather jacket. Then, out of the freezing mist, Avarte emerges with a steaming flagon of spiced wine. Cliff had had his ration for wine cut off weeks ago. He knew she didn’t have watch this shift. She was so mysterious, who knew what she was actually thinking. Embarrassed, Cliff buttoned up his coat. She pretended not to notice and offered him a hot cup of mulled wine. Not much was said that night, or the several others like it, but Cliff would never forget the lifesaver Avarte was that night. Maybe she knew, but she never displayed it.
Scarlet was a different matter entirely. That woman scared him. When Thorne let the platoon have it, Scarlet was there to remind him that he owed her "another one" whatever that meant. Thorne was an asshole. The enemy. The bad guy. Scarlet was a wolf in sheep's clothing. She was his friend, spine tinglingly creepy friend whom he now owed many favors to. Cliff knew he could leave Throne behind and just get out of this training, but Scarlet, he cant escape her. She reminded him of that. She never told him what "favors" she would require of him later but she never let him think about quitting the training again. For the suffering he would cause her she said no matter where he went, she would find him for a reckoning.
Clifford relished the few class time, time in a sheltered class room. You all know Cliff is a bit of a screw up when it comes to discipline and physical extremes. But here was his realm. He absorbed the lore, the data, the facts and times and written orders. Somehow Thorne turned that into a weakness as well. He threw Cliff into a stereotype of nerd and geek. “First casualty on the battlefield” he said. Many of the non-Fredricksmire family laughed. Cliff, holding up his perfect paper in pride at the end of the test would slowly sit back down, crumpling it in front of him, sometimes ungraded.
One time the speaker was none other than the Mighty Amaterasu Wisperock. Cliff was inspired by the stories and the heroism he talked of. Cliff again aced the paper afterwards with ease and when he was done, as you were supposed to do, he put down his quill and stood up, holding his paper high for inspection. Thorne began angling towards him in a menacing fashion but Amaterasu interceded and looked to the paper himself. Amaterasu simply gave a nod and a pat on the back to Cliff and looked him in the eyes. You are not sure what else happened but even several minutes later you could still see Cliff, standing there as he was supposed to, as you all worked on your papers. From the moment Amaterasu left Cliff till everyone was done, tears were streaming down his face. Something in Amaterasu’s look to DS Throne kept him from saying anything about it. Nobody said a word about it afterwards.
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