God Knows Your Story 上帝都知道
Dexu Xia
Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Psalm 139:23
As I drove home after lunch with my best friend, I thanked God out loud for her. She knows me and loves me in spite of things I don’t love about myself. She’s one of a small circle of people who accept me as I am—my quirks, habits, and screw-ups. Still, there are parts of my story I resist sharing even with her and others that I love—times where I’ve clearly not been the hero, times I’ve been judgmental or unkind or unloving.
But God does know my whole story. He’s the One I can freely talk to even if I’m reluctant to talk with others.
The familiar words of Psalm 139 describe the intimacy we enjoy with our Sovereign King. He knows us completely! (v. 1). He’s “familiar with all [our] ways” (v. 3). He invites us to come to Him with our confusion, our anxious thoughts, and our struggles with temptation. When we’re willing to yield completely to Him, He reaches out to restore and rewrite the parts of our story that make us sad because we’ve wandered from Him.
God knows us better than anyone else ever can, and still . . . He loves us! When we daily surrender ourselves to Him and seek to know Him more fully, He can change our story for His glory. He’s the Author who’s continuing to write it.
What assurance do you have that God will always love you unconditionally? How can you make yielding to Him a daily practice?
Precious Father, thank You for loving me as Your child despite the times I’ve disappointed You. Help me to yield all of myself to You in full assurance that You’re faithfully walking beside me.
上帝啊，求祢鉴察我，知道我的心思；试炼我，知道我的意念。—诗篇139篇23节
我与最要好的朋友共进午餐后就开车回家。我边开车边大声感谢上帝，让我拥有这位懂我、爱我的好朋友，甚至还能包容连我自己都不喜欢的地方。其实，她是少数能全然接纳我的朋友之一，毫不嫌弃我的怪癖、习惯和犯错。即便如此，当我做了一些不光彩的事，批评论断别人，对人心存恶意或冷漠无情，我还是不太敢向她或我所爱的人分享。
但上帝知道我的一切。即使有些事我不愿意告诉别人，但还是能坦然地向上帝诉说。
诗篇139篇有几节大家耳熟能详的经文，阐述我们与这位至高的君王之间的亲密关系。祂完全了解我们（1节），也“深知[我们]一切所行的”（3节）。祂邀请我们带着我们的困惑、焦虑的想法、对诱惑的挣扎，来到祂面前。当我们愿意完全顺服上帝，祂就会伸手将我们生命的篇章中，先前因远离祂而导致的伤心段落，加以修复、重写。
上帝比任何人都认识我们，但仍然深爱着我们！当我们每日都降服于祂，更加热切地寻求、认识祂，祂就能将我们生命的篇章转化成祂的荣耀。上帝是那位不断地撰写你我生命篇章的作者！
你如何确信上帝会永远无条件地爱你？
你要怎么天天练习降服于上帝呢？
慈爱的天父，尽管有时我让祢失望，
但仍感谢祢像爱儿女一般地爱我。
请帮助我，愿意把自己完全交托给祢，
而且全然相信祢正信实地在我身旁、与我同行。