On Wednesday, April 6, 2022 at 3:20:34 AM UTC-7,
nikiti...@gmail.com wrote:
> An irreparable disaster has come to my family. My wife died yesterday. I loved her very much and suffered an irreparable loss. She created comfort in the house and enjoyed my hobbies with old software. During her illness, I couldn't do anything else. All my thoughts were only about her, Now she is gone and so far I still don't have the strength to do anything useful in this direction. I am very grateful to all the people from this community. I hope the result achieved by me thanks to your help will be in demand. I will try to find the strength and continue to live.
I am so sorry for your loss. Please hang in there and weather this new storm upon your life and soul.
My first wife died after an 8 year battle with breast cancer. I found that I lost the ability to care about anything; numb is the best word to use. But with not caring came being liberated from not doing or saying things I would have filtered before hand and this opened opportunities. I had also mourned not having any children as we couldn't and I was alone in the world. Eventually I met my second wife (while not looking) and she brought her 4 wonderful children into my life; I now have 5 grandchildren who I adore.
Why am I sharing this? Please hang in there. There is no correct way to mourn or to grieve and you have to do what feels right for you; only you will know or stumble upon what that is. Although she'll always be that ghost in your heart, someday when you randomly think of her you will find a fond memory that makes you smile vs what you are feeling today. I hope that day comes sooner to you than later...
Best,
-Mark