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Hey guys,
I apologize I didn’t write sooner, I am sick with the stomach flu and it’s horrible. I’ve had it for two weeks now! Amy, I love your music video project! I can’t wait to see the finished product! I am inspired by how you are able to be involved with this creative project and still have a full-time job. This points to my dilemma at the moment…I am tinkering with the idea that my job is killing me and I need to find a new, more sustainable job the moment this school year ends. To make a long story short…I am in my second year teaching with TFA and I’ve never been more sick, tired, rundown, etc. than I have been since starting TFA.
Last year, the stress of working at my school literally caused me to be so ill that I had to apply for a medical extension for my TFA licensure work because I literally was too sick to teach and keep up with my assignments. I also developed a severe food allergy to gluten, which hindered my ability to digest my food, leaving me weak and prone to infections. This has been a very humbling experience for me, because I have never really failed to complete something before. I think it hurt my pride to have to admit that I couldn’t do my TFA work and serve my students. There was an instructional coach at my school last year because the majority of us were new teachers and she lovingly told me that she thought that teaching wasn’t for me because it was literally making me sick. At first I dismissed the idea of a job causing me physical illness because I thought it was more of a big picture thing – like a culmination of a lot of stresses which I will elaborate on, but now I think she may be right – I can’t handle being a teacher (even though I love teaching my students).
Before joining TFA I was working in South Africa on TB/HIV co-infection research and was having a terrible time. I wasn’t safe and had to travel alone everywhere. Plus, the company that hired me failed to pay me for 3 months straight. After 3 months , my savings were depleted and I quit and flew back to the United States, then I started TFA institute (which I found draining and intensive), then I took in my elderly father and moved him in with me in Denver (basically I moved cross country 3 times in less than year). We mistakenly moved to an unsafe neighborhood and the stress of living there, taking care of my father, and then starting an entirely new profession with little training teaching hard-to-serve teens at a brand new school with no structure, and doing all the TFA work, caused me so much stress, lack of sleep, etc. that I was literally sick my entire first year as a teacher. This year, has been a little better – I am not sick anymore (except for this terrible stomach flu I am recovering from) but I am still exhausted and have no balance. I literally need a nap after work everyday and have no time to express my Jane-ness!
I am not alone in this boat, most of my coworkers are miserable at my school and are planning to quit at the end of the year. The thing that worries me is that they aren’t getting sick or feeling as rundown as I am. I am tinkering with the idea of a total health make-over. I want to talk to a nutritionist to find out how to eat everything I need to be healthy now that I’ve cut gluten out of my diet. I want to start exercising regularly by either swimming or doing yoga. I also want to reflect on what type of job will be challenging and fulfilling but won’t make me physically drained.
A big question I am grappling with is, “Is teaching a bad fit for me or is it my school?” I love my students, I love teaching, but I hate my job…this is something I need to figure out.
I definitely need to follow in Jesse’s footsteps and plan my leisure time purposefully and I now that I’ve bought a house I need to learn from Nicole on how to create a budget (I want to buy everything for my house right now!) I also, want to start to celebrate Shabbat regularly like Jess. I am usually too tired once I get out of work on Friday, but I want to start going to temple for Shabbat services.
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