Re: Same Old, Same Old

[Jase.]

desire2bnorm38.5 - You said the meds help, was wondering what are you
on? SSRI? if so which one? thanks

[desire2bnorm38.5]

Not struggling with the staring part so much since I got my meds. Just having a hard time dealing with all the daggers being thrown at me from everyone I work with. Just got a new position and everybody hates me. Made the mistake of looking at a co-worker who's son works in the same department. Mind you I still don't know if I really did LOOK, but I can only assume based on the way she reacted. Sometimes I don't know if I do or not. I just feel the anxiety. This was before the meds. But her son, husband and daughter-in-law all work with me. So the entire department HATES me. I LOVE the job but hate how people look at me and think of me. I don't ever have a sick thought go through my head...ever. I just look down. It's killing me. I have such a big heart, a positive attitude, would never harm or try to offend anyone. I can show this to others who don't know my problem. They see it. But those who do know my problem, I feel the daggers hitting me. I used to not be this way, so scared. God if I didn't have kids or a husband that loved me. It would be so easy.

[Nyah Molineaux]

I have the same problem at work.  People talk and mostly dont speak to me.  I ignore it. I am there to earn a paycheck not for friends at work. Although it does get lonely at times.

On Fri, Jan 13, 2012 at 1:01 PM, desire2bnorm38.5 <d.nor...@yahoo.com> wrote:

Not struggling with the staring part so much since I got my meds. Just having a hard time dealing with all the daggers being thrown at me from everyone I work with. Just got a new position and everybody hates me. Made the mistake of looking at a co-worker who's son works in the same department. Mind you I still don't know if I really did LOOK, but I can only assume based on the way she reacted. Sometimes I don't know if I do or not. I just feel the anxiety. This was before the meds. But her son, husband and daughter-in-law all work with me. So the entire department HATES me. I LOVE the job but hate how people look at me and think of me. I don't ever have a sick thought go through my head...ever. I just look down. It's killing me. I have such a big heart, a positive attitude, would never harm or try to offend anyone. I can show this to others who don't know my problem. They see it. But those who do know my problem, I feel the daggers hitting me. I used to not be this way, so scared. God if I didn't have kids or a husband that loved me. It would be so easy.

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Sincerely,
Nyah Molineaux, MPH
202-494-4022
levonem...@gmail.com

[Shais Anees (shais@hotmail.dk / www.OCDstarring.com)]

Hi,

I also suffer from OCD staring where I can't stop stare at all people
around me from outside the eye corners / peripheral. I have stopped
school and work due to this problem which is now even destroying my
family life. But I am getting help and awaiting help now.

Please let us write together as penpals and share experience, adwice
and all so we can help each other.

My mail is: sh...@hotmail.dk

You can add me at Facebook if you like: just search by my mail:
sh...@hotmail.dk

You are also welcome to visit my very new website: www.ocdstarring.com
where I have found some useful articles from some doctors about this
OCD starring issue.

And please join our Facebook group: https://www.facebook.com/#!/groups/OCDstarring/
- we are eight members right now and it's growing...

Hoping to hear from you and getting in contact with you as I suffer
from the same and understand you 100%

[J&J]

OMG desire2bnorm38.5 I so get that. Did I just look at them weird? And
all the mental chatter the follows. And where you say "God if I didn't
have kids or a husband that loved me. It would be so easy." I'm on the
other side of that coin saying if I only had someone that loved me it
would be so easy. Whatever the circumstance, I don't think it would be
easy for any of us, because it's not. But if you're dealing with this
thing, that means you are strong. It takes strength, right down to
your soul.

[desire2bnorm38.5]

J&J,

  Thanks for that it helps just hearing it, I try to tell myself that I keep waking up each day to all this, to all the things I hear day in and day out. So I gotta be pretty darn strong. I posted something to you on another discussion. Sometimes my posts don't post here. But I said I was gonna try that web site mentioned by Shais, I think that's right. Well I did, there's an online chat thing. Hope to see you there. This site usually isn't this active. GirlyGirl, myself, stevieu and now you have kind of been it. So try that site it looks like it could be of some use and the chat thing is what I like. I want to actually talk to other people and get this 'nightmare' out!!!

Hope to see you there,

Desire2bnorm

[desire2bnorm38.5]

Jase,

I did get your message...obviously. I take Zoloft 100.5mg a day for another week then I'll go to 200mg/day/2 100mg tabs a day plus what helps A LOT with anxiety is Zanex extended release I was taking 1mg then he increased it to 2mg. Not sure this is good for me though. I get a little dingy, takes longer for me to do the basic tasks of my job which really shouldn't require as much thought as it has been. Most of my anxiety mind you comes from co-workers comments and so on. My Dr. told me to just avoid them and fortunately I have a job where I don't have to socialize with them while working for the most part, and on breaks I go where no one really knows me or outside. So, that's helped a lot. It's better for them and me. But the Zanex you'll feel instantly better the first day if your anxiety is as high as mine. You feel ok the first day, not really happy and not sad or depressed, just ok. But once you get used to it. You'll start to feel a comfortable calm, making it easier to socialize with out the fear of looking or fear in general. It's helped a lot. The one thing that brings this thing back is continuously being around people that makes those back hand comments or their look of disgust they give you, it just reminds you of your problem. As if you could forget. So steering clear of that as much as possible has been helping me. And the Zanex extended release...the extended release is important. So hopefully this helps but mind you I've heard from others the meds (Zoloft) don't help them. So I don't want to get your hopes up. But I certainly wish you the best and pls keep me informed if this helps or if something else works better.

Lots of Luck,

D