Another day of tension and shame & depression...

[tobenormalagain]

Well, I had another day of tension, shame & depression.  I'm sick of this and tomorrow its back to work and more tension, etc. Geeze, I guess I'll cope somehow, like I've been doing.  

It's not anything that anyone is accepting and brushing aside in my life.  It's a lot of whispering, and mumbled Good Mornings from co-workers! Sigh!!! I don't think I'm going to bother anymore doesn't seem like anyone wants to wish me a good morning anyway!

And at home, it's talking about me without or with the knowledge or thought that I can hear and not caring if I end up on the streets homeless one minute and loving on me the next!  Talk about depressing!

So, I am spending more & more time alone, ashamed, & depressed and wishing for the sweet relief of my own apartment and a job online!

Feel lucky if the people in your life are accepting of you and you are able to live a fairly normal life.

I have my photography to keep me occupied on the weekends, that's helping!

I hope by all of us being together here sharing will help us find answers to this persistent problem.

To better days ahead!!!