I finally went to a psychologist or psychiatrist yesterday. Not sure which one. The one that doesn't prescribe meds. Very disappointed for that reason alone, I know I really could us the meds. But I feel better, I made the first step. He says both are beneficial. One for the meds and the other to work out the problem and underlying problems as well. Apparently the one that prescribes the meds isn't the one that actually helps with the therapy part of it. Whichever, I know both are definitely needed. Part of the reason I believe my problem keeps reoccurring, because I had it twice before and it went away both times. It was a moment of insecurity that did leave. This time I believe people are spreading this, that I'm some kind of a weirdo or whatever to put it nicely and the moment I suspect that someone knows,..THERE IT IS!! When you go up to someone that it has never happened to before and their covering themselves? Then yeah, It's there, and it's stuck, and being around them or anyone that knows them just fuels the anxiety. I mean what do you do? You can't really blame them. It's just very hard. Already this has effected so much of my life and who I am. I am a good person and a huge heart, bigger than what it really should be in some cases. I used to be way more outgoing, didn't really ever meet a stranger. Now I feel I am the stranger. Somebody mentioned a deserted island, I'm game!!!!