Fwd: <m-mail> PA Number 3

[Tadeusz Majewski]

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From: Abhidevananda Avadhuta <abhide...@sarkarverse.org>
Date: Wed, Oct 26, 2016 at 12:32 PM
Subject: <m-mail> PA Number 3
To: MargiiMail <margi...@googlegroups.com>, Ananda Marga <anand...@googlegroups.com>, Prabhat Samgiita <prabhat...@googlegroups.com>


BABA

Namaskar all,

Re: PA Number 3

This year over the MP week, Baba graced me with an interesting
realization... and so now at the close of the week, I offer that
personal realization to all. Like most Baba stories that I've heard,
this one has so much ego interwoven that I hesitate to share it. But
maybe some will be able to see through my vanity to the glory of
Parama Purusa.

Back in late January of 2007, I wrote the following to MargiiMail:
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Bengali was clearly Baba's preferred language. Most of His Prabhat
Samgiita were given in Bengali. Many books and many darshans were also
given in Bengali. To be a native Bengali speaker is thus a great
blessing for a margii, and I regret deeply that my own knowledge of
the Bengali language is rather poor.

To give you a deeper appreciation of the pivotal importance of
Bengali, once when I had a deep desire to become Baba's PA (and no
other posting interested me), we had the following conversation.

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BABA: Abhidevananda, tonight I am speaking Bengali.

A: Yes, Baba, I know. I am also trying to learn Bengali.

BABA: That will be good. Then I can make you PA number 3.
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Unfortunately, I never managed to get beyond a beginner's level of
fluency in Bengali.
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Well, that discussion I mentioned with Baba - and its proximate
backstory - took place in early November of 1980.

On November 5, I entered a peculiar bhava in which I could only think
one thought... that I had no interest in any organizational posting
whatsoever... the only duty that interested me was to be Baba's
personal assistant. And so that afternoon I had gone from our office
in Jodhpur Park to Baba's house in Lake Gardens (a mere 5-10 minute
walk). And once I got there I spent the next hour or more just pacing
on the road outside His house... thinking that single thought... that
I was tired of and uninterested in organizational work... that my only
fascination was to be Baba's PA.

Prior to that, for a couple weeks I had been pondering whether I
should learn Hindi or Bengali. A day or two earlier, I had decided in
favor of Bengali. As Baba's personal preference for Bengali was clear,
my decision was almost a foregone conclusion. I have no excuse for the
prolonged debate in my mind.

That night Baba summoned me for fieldwalk. Many elements of the
fieldwalk were a bit strange, but I never gave that any thought. For
instance, Ac. Ramanandaji did not accompany us on the fieldwalk. It
was not entirely unusual for me to take Ramanandaji's place on
fieldwalk, but that had only happened before in Bangkok, never in
India. In any event, that night there were two young Bengali men who
sat in the front seat with Baba's driver. I sat in the back seat next
to Baba. And the whole time we were all in the car, Baba spoke
exclusively with the brothers in the front seat.

It had been drizzling a bit... not much rain but perhaps enough to not
only make the air clear but also to prevent Baba from actually walking
outdoors that night. In any event, when the car stopped and Baba would
have normally gotten out and walked, instead He merely sat at the open
door and placed His feet on the ground. Then Baba turned to me,
standing on the road opposite Him, and we had the conversation quoted
above. And that was all that Baba said to me while we were out that
night. Much more was said when we got back to Baba's house, but that's
another story.

As may be imagined, I always wondered what the duty of PA3 would have
entailed. Now that I am actually learning Bengali... and have long
been spared the rigors and tedium of any genuine posting... at last I
am getting a better grasp on that subject. Last Sunday, 2016 October
23, Baba finally gave me some insight into our mysterious conversation
from 36 years back... a conversation that I had long puzzled over and
ultimately (but wrongly) dismissed as a mere sop to my sentimentalism.
Of course, I cannot say now that I am Baba's PA3. But I can say that
in what remains of this life I think it highly unlikely that I will be
offered any attractive organizational posting.

--
Abhidevananda Avadhuta
Mail: abhide...@sarkarverse.org
Webs: www.onlyhis.name | www.amrevolution.org

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