![]() Old age, I decided, is a
gift.
I am now, probably for the first time in my life, The person I have always
wanted to be.
Oh, not my body!
I sometimes despair over my
body ...
The wrinkles, the baggy
eyes, and the sagging butt.
And often I am taken aback
by that old person that lives in my mirror,
But I don't agonize over
those things for long.
I would never trade my
amazing friends,
My wonderful life,
My loving family for less
gray hair or a flatter belly.
As I've aged, I've become
more kind to myself,
And less critical of
myself.
I've become my own friend.
I don't chide myself for
eating that extra cookie,
Or for not making my bed,
Or for buying that silly
cement gecko that I didn't need,
But looks so avant-garde on
my patio.
I am entitled to overeat, to
be messy, to be extravagant.
I have seen too many dear
friends leave this world too soon;
Before they understood the
great freedom that comes with aging.
Whose business is it if I
choose to read or play
On the computer until 4
a.m., and sleep until noon?
I will dance with myself to
those wonderful tunes of the 60's,
And if I, at the same time,
wish to weep over a lost love...
I
will.
I will walk the beach in a
swim suit
That is stretched over a
bulging body,
And will dive into the waves
with abandon if I choose to,
Despite the pitying glances
from the bikini set.
They, too, will get
old.
I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there again, some of
life is just as well forgotten ...
And I eventually remember
the important things.
Sure, over the years, my heart has been broken. How can your heart not break
when you lose a loved one,
Or when a child suffers,
Or even when a beloved pet
gets hit by a car?
Broken hearts are what give
us strength
And understanding and
compassion.
A heart never broken is
pristine and sterile
And will never know the joy
of being imperfect.
I am so blessed to have
lived long enough
To have my hair turn gray,
And to have my youthful
laughs be forever etched
Into deep grooves on my
face.
So many have never laughed,
And so many have died before
their hair could turn silver.
I can say "no", and mean
it.
I can say "yes", and mean
it.
As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You care less about what
other people think.
I don't question myself
anymore.
I've even earned the right
to be wrong.
So, to answer your question,
I like being old.
It has set me free.
I like the person I have
become.
I am not going to live
forever, but while I am still here,
I will not waste time
lamenting what could have been,
Or worrying about what will
be.
And I shall eat MY
ICECREAM every single day.
~Unknown.
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