A brief (?) return
chaos
Some may remember me from the mists of the forgotten past as the
ephemeral Knightmoon. :)
A brief update:
I am now a cancer survivor (Enough radiation to do in the Incredible
Hulk). A heart attack survivor. And living with Diabetes II. Along
with numerous other things.
I no longer live on the East coast; I am now residing for a while on
the west coast (Oregon) and even have a 2004 T-BIrd - oh this thing
is some kind of car!
There have been some changes as for those I have dealings with on a
personal level. I must be doing something wrong:
All of those I know out here are either gay or in prison or have been
in prison. Of those I know who are in prison, most are in for murder.
Such an unsavory bunch they are, yet they also can be quite
interesting. Indeed, even lovable. For instance:
Michelle. Such a wonderful woman. Incarcerated at age 15 for murder
committed while on drugs. She is now 35. Our relationship became very,
very close, but she has never grown internally and emotionally from
being a "messed up" and very abused 15 year old girl. We are not so
close now, though we were very, very close once. At one time she
wanted to parole to me as I wanted her to parole to me, but other
things got in the way.
JB (Sheryl): Another wonderful woman, incarcerated while in her 20s
for participating in a particularly gruesome torture/murder, and
Michelle's best friend. She testified against the others, having been
"forced" to participate. In for life (parole in a couple of years...)
and has served 16 years. Of the other participants, one received the
death penalty. This one has grown very much, having a lot of common
sense, very straightforward, and is without nuances. We have become
close; she wants only to be out, home, and able to just have dinner at
home, watch a movie, and only occasional trips out. Doesn't want to be
around crowds, wants to be alone and only with the one she is drawn
to, criying when the phones were down and she could not talk to me on
the phone one day. She has nowhere to parole to...except. And parole
requires outside support and a place to go that can be inspected; JB
and I have become close after the failure of the relationship with
Michelle.-
Suzanne. Physically and emotionally abused at home, depressed, and
more, intended to commit suicide with a hand gun. Abusing husband
berating her telling her to go ahead and do it, do it, do it, she was
worthless, etc. She turned the gun on him. In for life, and a very
nice person with a shadow on her expressions always, even when
smiling. A good person who loves the dogs she helps train. She will
probably never be paroled.
And more.
There are others:
Melissa. She was in for a non-violent substance (alcohol) abuse and
parole violation; currently in a treatment program in Portland. She
has nowhere to go after the program is completed except for... A
grandmother at age 35 and she would be on the street if left to
herself. Melissa and I are also close.
Lisa. Transferred from Oregon to Washington and a non-violent
offender, havuing served six years in Oregon with two to go in
Washington. Looking for clemency, wanting to return to Oregon to be
with her mother who has cancer and no longer remembers she even has
it. Her mother has not much longer. She has nowhere to go on being
released, but does not want to stay in Oregon after taking care of her
mother until the end. She wants to have someone to love and be loved
by for the only time in her life and not be abused anymore, and
hopefully get married. She is in her 40's now. 43, I think.
Bev. In Illinois. Accessory to murder as a young teenager ("lookout"
during robbery and clerk was murdered). She gets out in 2015. Rock
solid and a good person now having been in now for many years. Very,
very bright and no longer the child she was. A rock to lean on. Near
30 with family that supports her and visit her often. Constantly
working on her education as much as she can.
Brandy. In Georgia. A mother of two, in for 10 years for vehicular
assault; even the 'victim' said this was way to harsh and this was an
accident. She wants to leave Georgia when her sentence is complete in
a couple of years and...
Jennie. Nevada. Out of prison now, clean and sober. She is doing well
- a sucess.
Jackie. Georgia. In for theft, out now, clean, and working. Another
sucess.
Rachael. Drugs, out, back in, out, and have lost touch. I think a
failure. "Tired of going to prison, not tired of doing what gets me
put there."
Sad.
Tiffany. Drugs, a heroin addict and mother of a 14 year old. Just a
sad case.
An odd assortment above, yet these are not the terible people would
think.
And outside:
Marissah and Mariah, "The Twins". Teen agers, Gay and Michelle's
nieces. (Michelle accused me of being judgmental concerning them, and
accused me of being judgmental of her because of her past. That hurt!
She should have asked them first. And it is a bit late now. Her last
word was that she was glad we (The Twins and I) are friends.) They are
in a very dysfunctional family and have become very attached to me,
looking on me as a surrogate father figure: their uncle David. As
Marissah said and wrote: "We are not related by blood, we are related
by heart." This when their aunt Michelle was upset they and I have
become close thinking I had stolen her family and complained to them
about it even though I have always told them they need to have a
relationship with their aunt - and no one else seems to care for and
about them. They are good kids. I've even gotten them to tone down
their language, take them and friends out from time to time telling
them to at least act like they are human when in public. (Teenagers!)
and have been getting them to be more responsible. They are good kids,
coming over to my house frequently to get away from the 'drama' etc.;
here they clean house, do dishes, vacuum for me. These are good kids;
they are grateful they have a place to go where they can relax and not
hear all of the screaming and verbal abuse they constantly had to put
up with at home from their grandmother and other children there.
Their step father is in prison for drugs, mother is struggling but
succeeding and is clean and sober now for 6 years.
Holly, the mother of The Twins mentioned above and sister in law of
Michelle.. A good person who is really struggling. She is very happy I
have been supportive of her daughters and trusts me absolutely and
completely with them; she is grateful I have given them a place to go
where they can get away from the verbal abuse, and so on. She is
unhappy with Michelle for the way I was discarded.
The L.D. (Lesbian Dike) Mafia. :) A small group of gay girls who are
friends of The Twins. They have problems at home also with
dysfunctional families, are looked down on, discriminated against, and
the rest. The also look on me as a kind of "uncle" who does care. All
have said I will not be permitted to leave Oregon; if I try they will
put sugar in my gas tank, slash my tires, lay down in front of my car,
and so on. :) They seem to want me to stay, being the only one who
cares about them, and to that end have also come over and helped
around the house. While here, they smile and have fun.
How is it the above are now my closest friends and acquaintences? They
mean no harm to anyone and only want to be accepted as good people;
they have suffered.
And I still create fractal art; some of my art is now floating around
in a couple of prisons. :) There is also a sampler at:
Renderosity.com (artist name: elder)
I may even be playing in a chess tournament in Reno March 1 - 2. :)
So...just an update.
:)
David
cry...@galt.com
I can't tell you how glad I am you made it through the health issues. Watch
your diet. You can live a full live with diabetes. My husband is type I.
Good luck with the chess tournament. Let us all know how it goes.
Hey, don't make the return too brief. Your friends here miss you.
"chaos" <Ch...@chaos.org> wrote in message
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colomoon
David, I'm so happy you checked in, sounds like you made a lot more changes
than just one coast to the other!
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colomoon
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"colomoon" <pame...@gci.net> wrote in message
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colomoon
bloom...its hard to tell sometimes!!
Actually, we're getting up into the 60s which is find with me - I don't like
it hot anymore!!
Things are actually going pretty well up here in the far north!
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colomoon
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You'll have to fill us all in on your exciting new life!
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up here - we've only had a few days in the 70s, which is fine with
me...Denver was up in the high 90s last week - I don't miss that at all...
With gas prices so high I'm not going out and about nearly as much as I have
in the past 2 years...but I'm glad I drove up here 2 years ago, and not this
year!
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colomoon
Today is a gift - that's why its called the Present
"Cry...@Gault.com" <cry...@galt.com> wrote
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chaos
A two year update :)
>Greets.
>
>Some may remember me from the mists of the forgotten past as the
>ephemeral Knightmoon. :)
If any cares to recall the previous update:
Michelle: Now married to, well...better him than me. She was rolled
for two. (Probation turned down, not eligble for another parole
hearing for two more years.) Not so wonderful after all. :)
>JB (Sheryl):
Rolled for 3. Sad. She should be released, I think.
<elissa seems to be making it.
>Lisa. Transferred from Oregon to Washington And now to work release.
>Bev. hanging in there still.
>Brandy. In Georgia. A mother of two,
Out and at a half way house. Think she will make it.
Kris - one not previously mentioned. Served 10 years for Manslaughter.
We lsot touch for 4 - 5 months while she was on parole, enough for her
to turn to her old "friends". She will get life without parole this
time, or maybe life with possible parole in 30. This is such a sad
case, and most of all for the victim.
>Rachael. No change - I think.
>Marissah and Mariah, "The Twins". Going to college now. :)
>
>Holly, the mother of The Twins Still struggling. A good person.
>And I still create fractal art; Of which I =was accepted into a juried art show in Lincoln City last year and have been invited back this year.
And I still play chess :)
FWIW Regards,
>David
David Tenner
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> On Fri, 22 Feb 2008 07:55:47 -0800, chaos <Ch...@chaos.org> wrote:
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> A two year update :)
>
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Nice to see you here again. Anyone else still here?
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David Tenner
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chaos
<dte...@ameritech.net> wrote:
>chaos <Ch...@chaos.org> wrote in
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>> On Fri, 22 Feb 2008 07:55:47 -0800, chaos <Ch...@chaos.org> wrote:
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>> A two year update :)
>>
>
>[snip]
>
>Nice to see you here again. Anyone else still here?
Don't know. Since moving west, along with a lot of other things going
on before I even moved, this has been one hectic 4 - 5 years or so.
Having been invited back to the Lincoln City Art Festival, I _may_
even get a chance to go. Kind of liked hearing comments such as, "The
colors dance!", "This is the most beautiful art I have ever seen!",
(These were really said last year :)) and similar comments. The
trouble is for what I have put into it, in time, what talents I may
possess, computer time, (weeks for one piece), material (printed
professionally on 16 x 20 canvas and framed), and so on - it is
expensive in a market not conducive to such extravagances. On the
other hand, since I still have most of it, I don't have to produce any
more if I want to go. :)
Anyone else that lives or lived around Western Oregon? I'm in Salem
now.