I regret to report that I tested badly last night. Lack of focus, mistakes creeping up everywhere,
and just couldn't find my mind through out the entire test. Had to struggle through the whole
thing. Honestly I don't know what happened.
I doubt it was bad enough to fail. But in some ways I almost wish that I failed.
I am thinking about asking Sensei if it is okay for me to go back to the white belt class for a couple of months to relearn the fundamentals. It feels as if I lost the beginner's mind and am just mechanically doing the techniques.
yan