I never did understand what it meant when someone said, 'you got a
chip on your shoulder'. I orginally thought it was equated with a
sense of persecution or being burdened by something that was too great
to bear. I then thought it was a term to describe all those that went
around as if they were mad with the world. You know who I mean, youve
seen them. Those who look as if they want to fight with you, misplaced
anger: angry black men who wnat to fight the world. Im not going to
pretend that its all the states fault, or that of the child. But black
children can be very disruptive, but then thats no reason to vilify
all black children. I remember having a maths teacher who if the class
was the least bit disruptive when he came, he put some sums ont he
board, and sit and smoke his cigar for the whole lesson. I remember
when I left primary school and the teacher had to give me the
'colouring book and pens', she siad: if SF had have been hear you
would not have got them'. I have not put the person names as thats not
important, but surely I deserved some praise coming out top of the
school. The same teacher blamed me when she realised that noone had
taught me how to do any maths in the previous 3 years three years of
primary school, like it was my fault! I dont remember ever getting
praise for anything at school except music. surprise surpise. The
system is institutionally racist but then there are plenty of black
children out they happy to reinforce the status quo rather than prove
the state wrong. I like proving racists wrong..it gives me a great
sense of pleasure.....