Just been watching.

[prosper...@gmail.com]

Hi my name is Roslyn, I'm 26, and was diagnoised bi-polar 1 or 2 depending on the doc. Since I was 21. I also have Adhd, and ptsd. I have been on every drug possible with the last being lithium. I took myself off the lithium after two years Due to the side effects and the fact that I was unable to feel anything. My b/f of four years broke up with me a month and a half ago because I was an emotionless wreak. We lived together and I am now having to find my own place... .I am totally devastated and at the sometime excited about the future. I have been crying a lot but it does not feel like depression and I do not feel the out of control mania For the first time since I was 15, I feel "normal" and I am not trying to sabotage it. As much as I loved my ex his breaking up with me was a makeup call that I was allowing myself to drift through life and not live life. It has forced me to deal with my codependent issues. I am scared I will slip into either depression or mania and have no one to depend on. Guess this is me trying to make healthy connections. I am looking forward to getting to know you all.

Roslyn

[ddmsp...@aol.com]

Hi Roslyn,

It looks to me like you have some good attitudes about how things are going  in your life right now and some healthy fears as well. Did I understand correctly that you are back on your meds? I think after years of wrong medications and diagnosis for me I have finally have reconcilled to the fact I will be on meds for the rest of my life and side effects be damned cause it is not worth the highs and lows of this disorder. The effects are totally deadly without meds is what I am trying to say. Well glad you are connecting to healthy relationships on here and glad to see you contributing. Get on those meds if you are not and keep writing. Donna

[ManicNutt42]

You and I are on the same ride right now. I'm still holding on
Really think if you give this place a real chance . you'll find
support, some constructive opinions, advice, understanding, the
realization you are not alone and I think you'll find great info about
meds, sights, It's here. i think all in all you'll find a safe place
to be truelly you and get understanding, honesty... You wont have to
hide what you;re going thro... It'll be like a second home... it is
mine! Nice to meet you, Roslyn. Give this a fair shake(2wks n you'll
be hooked) Manicnutt42 :)

On Oct 16, 9:43 am, "prosperpina2...@gmail.com"

[Michael Wiley]

Hi Roslyn,

My name is Michael and I was diasnosed about 2 years back and am currently on 4 meds but preparing to wean off of my antidepresent as stimulants are not good to be on when taking Lithium or other such meds when BP.  I'm so sorry to hear about your recent situation but what a blessing to be where you are right now and what a great attitude you carry...you can't buy that! 

I also have a 8 year old daughter who is BP and I believe I'm one of the few to still be married based on what I just heard at a conference w/ THE expert on bipolar children, Dr. Papolos.  I don't know how my wife and I have done it after 19 years but we have and I give thanks to God.  We are not out of the storm but we are riding a bit higher on the waves now. 

Reach out any time.  God bless. 

On Fri, Oct 16, 2009 at 9:43 AM, prosper...@gmail.com <prosper...@gmail.com> wrote:

Hi my name is Roslyn, I'm 26, and was diagnoised bi-polar 1 or 2 depending on the doc. Since I was 21. I also have Adhd, and ptsd. I have been on every drug possible with the last being lithium. I took myself off the lithium after two years Due to the side effects and the fact that I was unable to feel anything. My b/f of four years broke up with me a month and a half ago because I was an emotionless wreak. We lived together and I am now having to find my own place... .I am totally devastated and at the sometime excited about the future. I have been crying a lot but it does not feel like depression and I do not feel the out of control mania  For the first time since I was 15, I feel "normal" and I am not trying to sabotage it. As much as I loved my ex his breaking up with me was a makeup call that I was allowing myself to drift through life and not live life. It has forced me to deal with my codependent issues. I am scared I will slip into either depression or mania and have no one to depend on. Guess this is me trying to make healthy connections. I am looking forward to getting to know you all.

Roslyn

--

Michael Wiley-
- “Whatever we give our greatest time, our greatest energies, and our greatest resources to is a good indication of where our convictions lie.”

[sheoighie]

Hi Rosyln,

This is my first time on here, but like you I recently came out of a 4
year relationship. I was just drifting along with life and lucky for
me I had somewhere to live. Its a year now since break up and I'm
doing good. I knew that I could have stayed in relationship or take a
chance i'd never meet anyone again and just live my life alone. I am
still single but I spent the last year doing things I like and trying
to improve my life. Its a work in progress i am still doing that. I
recently started seeing a psychotherapist and that is really helping
me too.

I have started swimming every week and I feel this helps my mood as I
feel depressed alot. I'm fairly new to bipolar I was diagnosed about
5 years ago but didn't really accept I was bipolar till recently, I
just thought i was depressed. Its easier though to come to terms with
something when you accept it.

I don't take lithium but i'm on effexor xl 150mg and lamictal 100mg
twice daily. I don't seem to get many side effects except i'm
exhausted all the time.

Anyhow best of luck with your new journey you definitely are on the
right road.

Siobhan

On Oct 17, 5:34 pm, Michael Wiley <1wilecoy...@gmail.com> wrote:
> Hi Roslyn,
>
> My name is Michael and I was diasnosed about 2 years back and am currently
> on 4 meds but preparing to wean off of my antidepresent as stimulants are
> not good to be on when taking Lithium or other such meds when BP.  I'm so
> sorry to hear about your recent situation but what a blessing to be where
> you are right now and what a great attitude you carry...you can't buy that!
>
> I also have a 8 year old daughter who is BP and I believe I'm one of the few
> to still be married based on what I just heard at a conference w/ THE expert
> on bipolar children, Dr. Papolos.  I don't know how my wife and I have done
> it after 19 years but we have and I give thanks to God.  We are not out of
> the storm but we are riding a bit higher on the waves now.
>
> Reach out any time.  God bless.
>

> On Fri, Oct 16, 2009 at 9:43 AM, prosperpina2...@gmail.com <

[Rozzy]

I needed a medication break... Sometimes it's hard to gague where you
are at mentally when you have a lot of medications clouding your
judgement. I am doing well off my meds, and I know that if I start
slipping I can go back any try something else. It's been 10 years of
different medications and I just needed sometime to test out my coping
skills. So far so good. I still can't get a handle on my money, but at
least I am able to feel something about it and not just ignrore it
like I did while on medication.

Roslyn

On Oct 16, 3:53 pm, ddmsprin...@aol.com wrote:
> Hi Roslyn,
>
> It looks to me like you have some good attitudes about how things are going  in your life right now and some healthy fears as well. Did I understand correctly that you are back on your meds? I think after years of wrong medications and diagnosis for me I have finally have reconcilled to the fact I will be on meds for the rest of my life and side effects be damned cause it is not worth the highs and lows of this disorder. The effects are totally deadly without meds is what I am trying to say. Well glad you are connecting to healthy relationships on here and glad to see you contributing. Get on those meds if you are not and keep writing. Donna
>
>
>
> -----Original Message-----
> From: prosperpina2...@gmail.com <prosperpina2...@gmail.com>
> To: bipolar-...@googlegroups.com
> Sent: Fri, Oct 16, 2009 9:43 am
> Subject: [Bipolar Disorder] Just been watching.
>

> i my name is Roslyn, I'm 26, and was diagnoised bi-polar 1 or 2 depending on

> he doc. Since I was 21. I also have Adhd, and ptsd. I have been on every drug

> ossible with the last being lithium. I took myself off the lithium after two

> ears Due to the side effects and the fact that I was unable to feel anything.

> y b/f of four years broke up with me a month and a half ago because I was an

> motionless wreak. We lived together and I am now having to find my own place...

> I am totally devastated and at the sometime excited about the future. I have

> een crying a lot but it does not feel like depression and I do not feel the out

> f control mania  For the first time since I was 15, I feel "normal" and I am

> ot trying to sabotage it. As much as I loved my ex his breaking up with me was

>  makeup call that I was allowing myself to drift through life and not live

> ife. It has forced me to deal with my codependent issues. I am scared I will

> lip into either depression or mania and have no one to depend on. Guess this is

> e trying to make healthy connections. I am looking forward to getting to know

> ou all.
> Roslyn  
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[Rozzy]

Thanks Mani, it's always nice to know your not alone.

Roslyn

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[Rozzy]

I am so happy to hear that people are able to have healthy longterm
relationships while dealing with being bipolar. It gives me hope.
Thanks Michael.

Roslyn

On Oct 17, 11:34 am, Michael Wiley <1wilecoy...@gmail.com> wrote:
> Hi Roslyn,
>
> My name is Michael and I was diasnosed about 2 years back and am currently
> on 4 meds but preparing to wean off of my antidepresent as stimulants are
> not good to be on when taking Lithium or other such meds when BP.  I'm so
> sorry to hear about your recent situation but what a blessing to be where
> you are right now and what a great attitude you carry...you can't buy that!
>
> I also have a 8 year old daughter who is BP and I believe I'm one of the few
> to still be married based on what I just heard at a conference w/ THE expert
> on bipolar children, Dr. Papolos.  I don't know how my wife and I have done
> it after 19 years but we have and I give thanks to God.  We are not out of
> the storm but we are riding a bit higher on the waves now.
>
> Reach out any time.  God bless.
>

> On Fri, Oct 16, 2009 at 9:43 AM, prosperpina2...@gmail.com <

>
>
>
>
>
> prosperpina2...@gmail.com> wrote:
>
> > Hi my name is Roslyn, I'm 26, and was diagnoised bi-polar 1 or 2 depending
> > on the doc. Since I was 21. I also have Adhd, and ptsd. I have been on every
> > drug possible with the last being lithium. I took myself off the lithium
> > after two years Due to the side effects and the fact that I was unable to
> > feel anything. My b/f of four years broke up with me a month and a half ago
> > because I was an emotionless wreak. We lived together and I am now having to
> > find my own place... .I am totally devastated and at the sometime excited
> > about the future. I have been crying a lot but it does not feel like
> > depression and I do not feel the out of control mania  For the first time
> > since I was 15, I feel "normal" and I am not trying to sabotage it. As much
> > as I loved my ex his breaking up with me was a makeup call that I was
> > allowing myself to drift through life and not live life. It has forced me to
> > deal with my codependent issues. I am scared I will slip into either
> > depression or mania and have no one to depend on. Guess this is me trying to
> > make healthy connections. I am looking forward to getting to know you all.
>
> > Roslyn
>
> --
>
> Michael Wiley-
> - “Whatever we give our greatest time, our greatest energies, and our

> greatest resources to is a good indication of where our convictions lie.”- Hide quoted text -

[Rozzy]

Siobhan, thank you for your thoughts. I know that I will be ok and
knowing it's not the end of the world has helped. As for the
medications I've been there done that. I figure I'll find the right
comb one day.

Roslyn