Gosh was it something I said??

[ddmsp...@aol.com]

I know no ones asking but I believe in being kind and compassionate. I know what it is like to hurt so bad I want to die and for that reason I don't want to inflict pain on anyone if I can help it. Some may say I am in the "Mother Teresa" stage of my disorder right now...I say I am a caring person and even though I am not a gifted writer or talented artist, or of superior intellect, I think my gift is my willingness to reach out and try to be understanding and helpful to others. I can see where a forum such as this best interest lies in telling a person to take thier meds or don't complain  but in that situation or any other why not be courteous with one another. I do not agree on someone biting someone's head off in here. Don't we already have enough tuff stuff to deal with without fearing that too? Anyway that is what I wanted to say and I've said it... I am new to this group and I in no way saying I own it .. I only hope I can continue being nice and this note not come up to bite me in the but!    hahahaha  wink  Hope everyone is enjoying their  Friday night ..Donna

[ManicNutt42]

Friskie?

[ddmsp...@aol.com]

I guess you could say that.....I am kind of anxious over my way, The Doc is still helping me fine tune my meds. I do like reading what others say on here. Maybe I should hush for a while but I probably won't. Rats,  Donna

[- darkman® -]

On Oct 16, 9:15 pm, ddmsprin...@aol.com with kindness and wisdom
beyound her year shared a thought that might have hurt had I thought
it may have been waiting for me.

Pretty smug of me to say eh? Ego. Laffin..yes I have ego, not false
pride. I have some knowledge but I make some mistakes mostly from
reading too fast unless I am on a mission of seek and destroy...which
I will do for the good on behalf of the BP group before I depart. If
this truly wasn't directed to me, I would probably type and try to
make some salient and not caustic points.

> I know no ones asking but I believe in being kind and compassionate. I know what it is like to hurt so bad I want to die and for that reason I don't want to inflict pain on anyone if I can help it.

Generally, I fall into the Father Theresa category as well..and I know
that ya'all are laughing but no matter to me..Remember i have no more
false pride...remarkably all of that most all of everything has been
taken away from me. All that considered can you still believe who I
am?

Those that irk me, challenge my knowledge base and experiences both
book learned and life learned with the intention not to learn but to
mock; those that may take advantage of the less wary here will always
catch my wrath as you look I do see. It is a undesired character
defect but using it many have been sparred the rigors of fools,
harpies and lechers. I despise lechers. In fact we have one here among
us now. I will deal with him later and not by email.

Some may say I am in the "Mother Teresa" stage of my disorder right
now...I say I am a caring person and even though I am not a gifted
writer or talented artist, or of superior intellect, I think my gift
is my willingness to reach out and try to be understanding and helpful
to others.

Each of us has our role to play depending upon the cards we've been
dealt, our xperience, our constitution and level of compassion.

I can see where a forum such as this best interest lies in telling a
person to take thier meds or don't complain  but in that situation or
any other why not be courteous with one another.

In my opinion Donna, it is not in the groups better interest that I be
the greeter at the door. I did that for two years on ASDM
(alt.support.depression.manic) with good results and it is a
compassionate pursuit. However, it seems that for other than a few
favorites, I am more effective in helping, or better than that,
teaching folks to try to educate themselves relative to the illness.
After all love, who was here before me and Frederick, the owner and my
personal nemisis (the rat was the one who suckered me to come out of
retirement to help) before I showed up on the scene. Fully I am and
sometimes with great regret not a holder of hands. However as you
might have suggested, we all have a job to do. As for me, it is
education and to the best of my ability protection from the bad,
mostly men...go figure....

Take it from a half assed poet..me (funny how my mind works n rhymes
when I write romantically (never could figure that out) supervised by
some many more experienced than me, who kicked my ass till Sunday
until I truly understood what it was I was here to do. Then after I
learned from them, there were 5. The bastards left me, went into
retirement and told me to survive. Some of them are dead. Others still
write and laugh at me as they still survive but none of them would
ever challenge me as all I learned was from them who left me to decide
who, deserved insults based upon such, who deserved knowlege based
upon my own sense of compassion and who shall be sought out and
exposed for their crimes of seduction with bad intent...and all of
this came from the beginning. It has now been 14 years since they last
kicked my ass. It is not that I canno9t contact them; it is if I do,
they reply, Oh for god's sakes we taught you that long long ago. My
teachers are very smart as its the founder of this group but they are
all rats ..laffing...

I do not agree on someone biting someone's head off in here.

What would yo do if someone came along to steal your daughter's mind
and body? Or if someone gave the masses the absolute wrong information
and she died because of it. Do you still hold me in disregard as I do
my best to educate? As far as biting one's head. I have recently made
mistakes with Caro for which I shall publicly apologize. The
forgivable error ( hope I can be forgiven) was on my part and I do
which your sisters would be caused by...I have reasons but no excuses.
Mea Culpa Mea Culpa Mea Maxima Culpa and I say that from my heart
Caro.

Don't we already have enough tuff stuff to deal with without fearing
that too?

Yes in fact we have much to face D. However we are strengthened by
posts like yours. You are, in a child like fashion, and I mean that
with the greatest of love and respect, one of the few that tell the
honest truth with truth over flowing. Your gifts of compassion are
matched by none that I read. That is your gift to share love, that is
your gift to impart. As I do, for a short time more what it is and
most all hate me for my candor and lack of patience for fools, your
heart will be ever lasting as your eyes grow more and more into seeing
than looking at what lay before you.

> Anyway that is what I wanted to say and I've said it... I am new to this group and I in no way saying I own it .. I >only hope I can continue being nice and this note not come up to bite me in the but!    hahahaha  wink  Hope > >everyone is enjoying their  Friday night ..Donna

Yes D, hope doth run eternal. It is my hope that you understand that I
am you with a bit more knowledge to warn the masses here, the
knowledge to see it from afar and a sword to cut those bastards that
might try to hut us.

I am pretty tired and have to borrow a little cable TV <smiling> So
now, I leave you to ponder your continued good health and kisses from
your children. Please do reply. It is Sunday and I bless you.

Most sincerely,

Richard

xo