Taking My Meds

[ddmsp...@aol.com]

I just got back from walking. The Autumn leaves though not as bright as in my mania, nor were they left unseen as  when I lay in deep depressions.

As I was walking I was thinking  about my family. I was realizing maybe even for the first time just how much I was showing Love for my Family and friends when I take my med's and go to therapy. I never fully realized just how much I scared my kids and husband as I sped around in mania and raged and screamed as I accused them of everything under the sun.  I can tell my kids especially my Daughter is afraid that one day I will kill myself. She has seen me stay in bed for three months straight in such a severe depression that if I would of had the energy I know I would not be here. (never thought I would say I am grateful for not having energy) hehe But anyway, my kids know I am Bipolar now and not just "crazy". They are old enough to get alot of the knowledge the Internet has on Bipolar and the scary suicide aspect. So my point being with this letter is that it is so important and such a assurance to my family to see me taking my med's, seeing how much they help me, and doing other positive healthy things as well..I am being selfless as well as self serving by doing this. That's a good feeling that gives back so much. So that's all folks  <smile> Love, Peace and Joy, Donna

[zipper]

That's really good to hear, Donna. shawn

[Michael Wiley]

Amen Donna.  I recently "played" w/ my meds and regret it.  My wife now worries she can't trust me to take my meds as ordered and I don't blame her.  Its hard b/c once I'm leveled out, I feel the meds may not be working or I hate taking 4 different meds but it all comes down to quality of life v. quantity.  I'll take my meds thank you.

On Thu, Oct 29, 2009 at 1:42 PM, <ddmsp...@aol.com> wrote:

I just got back from walking. The Autumn leaves though not as bright as in my mania, nor were they left unseen as  when I lay in deep depressions.

As I was walking I was thinking  about my family. I was realizing maybe even for the first time just how much I was showing Love for my Family and friends when I take my med's and go to therapy. I never fully realized just how much I scared my kids and husband as I sped around in mania and raged and screamed as I accused them of everything under the sun.  I can tell my kids especially my Daughter is afraid that one day I will kill myself. She has seen me stay in bed for three months straight in such a severe depression that if I would of had the energy I know I would not be here. (never thought I would say I am grateful for not having energy) hehe But anyway, my kids know I am Bipolar now and not just "crazy". They are old enough to get alot of the knowledge the Internet has on Bipolar and the scary suicide aspect. So my point being with this letter is that it is so important and such a assurance to my family to see me taking my med's, seeing how much they help me, and doing other positive healthy things as well..I am being selfless as well as self serving by doing this. That's a good feeling that gives back so much. So that's all folks  <smile> Love, Peace and Joy, Donna

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Michael Wiley-
- “Whatever we give our greatest time, our greatest energies, and our greatest resources to is a good indication of where our convictions lie.”