Lost in Space

[ManicNutt42]

Okay sorry bout that. I'm alive and still me with all the baggage. I
do need to lighten it a bit. I'm just too old to carry all this crap.
And most of it is crap. Funny you can look at things ONE way most of
your life and then at of the blue you look at it differently. Don't
know why, but it changes your Whole outlook and possibly memories. I'm
rechecking myself. Not sure who I am. That's a darn lie.. I haven't
know who I am well, never! I have no hobbies, talents, gifts... I'm
not educated, I've not traveled. There's not a lot to me. It's sad!
I'm a Mother and Grandmother and I'm not or have I been good at that.
The most depressing time of the year is creeping in on me and with
already nothing to do, bored to death, I'm affraid I wont make it thru
the winter. So many things have changed for me in the last three
years. Mostly negative. I'm scared to even pretend to want to go to a
halloween party, after that all bets are off. Stupid winter!

[- darkman® -]

Sweet Chucki, with charm and grace totally unimaginal as shewrote:

Hi Skinny,

I am ever so glad to have you back. Do let me kmow via email thee next
time you go out and spash inj the puddles of the Mid East. I've missed
you.

~smoooooch

Richard

PS. I'll reply to your post ASAP. In the meantime remember, there is
nothing that you could ever do to lose me ;P

~Me for you always sweetie

[ManicNutt42]

Now what makes you think I'm Skinny?

[- darkman® -]

On Oct 15, 2:19 pm, ManicNutt42 <chuck...@gmail.com> wrote:
> Now what makes you think I'm Skinny?
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> On Oct 15, 2:16 pm, - darkman® - <sgi....@gmail.com> wrote:
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>
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> > Sweet Chucki, with charm and grace totally unimaginal as shewrote:
>

Snip~

I saw your picure on a milk carton :)

- darkman® - the all seeing milkman lafffin

[ManicNutt42]

You shit OOps You silly thing Damn Now I'm the one smiling. Donna can
you snip snip for me? Are you smiling yet Donna?

[ddmsp...@aol.com]

Hi Manic,

Glad you are back !! me and darkman were worried because you were not quilling for awhile. I said a prayer just for you yesterday and look here you are today! See prayers work for us crazy's too!!! LOL  No but seriously I am glad you are back on here because you are a help to me and I am Happy to know you are alive and kicking up the dirt and knocking down the cactus along with us out here in the battle field!  Oh, and about you not being a good mother or grandma?  I get hung up in that one too...I am just taking it one day at a time and everyday most importantly for them is I keep living, and  if I can only muster to do one thing like listen to them or make waffles,  I am not a total crap Mom now am I? For all those super moms and grandmas that do everything perfect? , nope thats just in our head...  Even though I know my kids have suffered some from my bipolar, decisions at times etc...just showing up makes all the differance in the world for them. Know what I mean butterbean????We can do this.  Love, Donna

[ddmsp...@aol.com]

ManicNutt, (Shawna?)

Oh another thing I have done with my kids is when they were raging with me because of all they have gone through with my mental illness<yes and let us remember just like cancer it is a illness not some crazy lifestyle we chosse to screw with people> I digressed uumm yeah ok...my kids would in no way listen to me etc...even when I was doing alot better because of meds and therapy,,,I wrote them letters because I could more carefully say what I needed to say and I knew they would read that even if they were to hurt, scared and angry to let me talk to them...I wrote both my kids many letters,,,apologizing, that this was iin no way there fault, acknowleging how I wasn't there for them and just trying to get them to know all the stuff they have been through and I realize it....Well many letters later I think my kids and I have never got along better also because my meds help me not to react too quickly etc....So I hope that helps in some small way Manic. And is Matamoras and Tiajuana Mexico traveling???? thats mine LOL oh and I drive a 96 mini van and I have my GED so there!!!!!!  Donna

-----Original Message-----
From: ddmsp...@aol.com
To: bipolar-...@googlegroups.com
Sent: Thu, Oct 15, 2009 3:44 pm
Subject: [Bipolar Disorder] Re: Lost in Space

[- darkman® -]

On Oct 15, 4:05 pm, ddmsprin...@aol.com wrote:
> ManicNutt, (Shawna?)
>
Snipp~

And is Matamoras and Tiajuana Mexico traveling???? thats mine LOL oh
and I drive a 96 mini van and I have my GED so there!!!!!!  Donna

Want tp trade that GED for a GPS <smiling>

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> -----Original Message-----
> From: ddmsprin...@aol.com
> To: bipolar-...@googlegroups.com
> Sent: Thu, Oct 15, 2009 3:44 pm
> Subject: [Bipolar Disorder] Re: Lost in Space
>
> Hi Manic,
>
> Glad you are back !! me and darkman were worried because you were not quilling for awhile. I said a prayer just for you yesterday and look here you are today! See prayers work for us crazy's too!!! LOL  No but seriously I am glad you are back on here because you are a help to me and I am Happy to know you are alive and kicking up the dirt and knocking down the cactus along with us out here in the battle field!  Oh, and about you not being a good mother or grandma?  I get hung up in that one too...I am just taking it one day at a time and everyday most importantly for them is I keep living, and  if I can only muster to do one thing like listen to them or make waffles,  I am not a total crap Mom now am I? For all those super moms and grandmas that do everything perfect? , nope thats just in our head...  Even though I know my kids have suffered some from my bipolar, decisions at times etc...just showing up makes all the differance in the world for them. Know what I mean butterbean????We can do this.  Love, Donna
>
> -----Original Message-----
> From: ManicNutt42 <chuck...@gmail.com>
> To: Bipolar Disorder <bipolar-...@googlegroups.com>
> Sent: Thu, Oct 15, 2009 2:27 pm
> Subject: [Bipolar Disorder] Re: Lost in Space
>

> ou shit OOps You silly thing Damn Now I'm the one smiling.  Donna can

> ou snip snip for me? Are you smiling yet Donna?
> On Oct 15, 2:22 pm, - darkman® - <sgi....@gmail.com> wrote:
>  On Oct 15, 2:19 pm, ManicNutt42 <chuck...@gmail.com> wrote:> Now what makes

> ou think I'm Skinny?
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>  > On Oct 15, 2:16 pm, - darkman® - <sgi....@gmail.com> wrote:
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>  > > Sweet Chucki, with charm and grace totally unimaginal as shewrote:
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>  Snip~
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>  I saw your picure on a milk carton :)
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