Hope all of you are well . If you allow me, I would like to share a few thoughts from my recent visit to Italy. Also to fill in those who couldn't attend the programs, it might be nice to still feel connected as a family in this wicked world of distractions.
I personally had the time of my life to meet all the godbrothers and godsisters, catch up with the old friends and meet new ones, distribute lots of books and be in the proximity of Guru Maharaj. Meeting Maharaj and the devotees in Italy has always enlivened me in the past and this time was no exception. Devotees showered Maharaj with messages, letters and loving concerns (and please know that he reads all of the letters with utmost care and attention) and Maharaj showered the devotees with lots of love. The sun, the warmth, the devotees, Maharaj, wonderful prasadam and italian mood was truly a soothing balm, a treat for me, a real holy-day, highlight of my life. I would like to express my deepest gratitude to all of you who were there and helped to make this experience so special for me.
There is one serious thing though, which is heavy on my heart. And that is Maharaj's health. He has not been feeling well physically, even though he tried his best to connect with each and very disciple/devotee. He loves the devotees.... but his health deteriorated severely after he gave initiations to many new disciples. His breathing was not good and he was in a lot of pain,even though he didn't express it to anyone. Everyone could see the discomfort he was going through. He took a lot of rest afterwards which was good. But all this made me truly feel, how important it is for all of us, his initiated disciples, to stay very much committed and serious in our devotional practices. The Guru takes the karma of all his disciples at the time of initiations. And he sometimes has to suffer the consequences of that fact. Many times this comes out in the form of illnesses and diseases.
So it is our utmost priority to stay vigilant in our fight with maya and stay very much connected to the purificatory process of devotional service. I am preaching here to myself, but I am sure every one of us goes sometimes through different circumstances where we are tested in our determination, our faith, our convictions and our dedication to our promises and vows that we have given to Guru Maharaj at the time of initiation. Those vows are not always easy to uphold and not always easy to follow, I totally understand that. Maya is very powerful and tricky. She is a total magician as she sometimes presents things in front of us seemingly as devotional service, but slowly she traps us in her coils and in no time we have been distanced from the association of devotees, stopped regularly chanting and hearing and you name it ....... you all know the story of Putana, how beautifully she looked when she came to the house of Nanda Maharaj and wanting to feed Krishna some milk, smeared with poison.
We sometimes willingly drink that poisonous milk, but we are not strong enough to suck out her life-air as Krishna did. We don't even recognize that this milk is poisonous. Only by being truthful to our vows and commitments, which we gave to Guru Maharaj at the time of initiation, can we inch forward in our devotional lives. My dear friends, let's support each other to our best abilities and protect each other's vows and let's help our Guru Maharaj to stay around for many more years so that we can help him to do something truly wonderful in the mission of Srila Prabhupada. He has a lot more to offer to him and to each and everyone of us.
Please forgive me for making it so long, and maybe emotional, but I felt the need to express this to you all. Hope you don't mind and can tolerate me for that.
I remain your always aspiring servant
Laksmipriya dd