Bhakti vikArAs

[krishnarao]

Bhakti vikArAs

pUjya SrI gaNapathyji,
crying, laughing, rolling on the ground etc., vikArAs
need not be accepted as the symptoms of Bhakti. Any real sAdhaka`s
mind should always be very calm and tranquil without any agitation and
without loosing ones self possession. That Bakti BhAva may be common
in the devotees of chaitanya cult, but not for SrIvidya upAsaakAs.
" samudrAd arNavAd adhi samvatharO~jAyata"
samudra means having stillness without any disturbence by any waves of
wind.
This is Siva avastha
"arNava" means the agitated ocean with full of heavy waves..This has
occured when the first throb of "ah" in the Siva avastha (aham), Then
the whole of the false universe manifested along with the time in the
form of day and night differentiation, sun, moon, dhAtA etc., etc.,
This is all Sakti avastha. Sakti is after all "Siva gnAna pradAyini".
Our ultimate goal is to acheive that Siva avastha.
Tanmaya avastha is to remain ourselves of the deity (not one with
deity).
The vikArAs of laughing, weeping etc., will appear only when one looks
at the deity as different from him. One will not have any feelings
when he looks his own image in a mirror.
But vikArAs arise only when he looks the image of another person only.
We dont want
that type of different image and any such vikArAs. We remain as we
are. We dont find any abnormality even when the fire flames downwards
or moon becoming hot or the sun becoming cold. We dont want the deity
to put us in surprises and BhrAntis showing us her or his mahat
(greatness), but be inside of us and do any thing what will be good
for us.
The mahat of god is only for those who believe god is greater than us.
But we cant bear if god is a liittle bit greater than us, as we could
not reach that part of him; and also if he is a little bit smaller to
us because that extra part without him in us will become unbearable.
We strongly believe that after all the mantra, the dEvata, and even
the guru are only the extensions of myself and not different at all.
Any of these should not be greater or lesser to me.
My gurunatha used to reject any further initiation for those who
exibit any such vikArAs like 'tanmayam' or weeping, laughing etc.while
taking any mantra initiation. He was saying that they are all symptoms
of Hysteria and mental and nervous weakness. Srividya is not for every
tom and dick. It is different
and such weak minded persons do not deserve SrIvidya initiation.at
all.
prEma or 'rAga' is the outcome of mAya and avidya. No where in our old
sriptures
we find any mention of this ' prEma tattwa' which always purge vikArAs
out.
Please excuse me if I have exeeded any limits
--
krishnarao