frustrated.....
PolarBear
class mates to work on a group project for my excel class, who never
showed up and don't even call me to let me know that they are not
coming.
I hate group projects - I HATE T them. but even more so that I am the
leader and in charge of the project. I never was a good leader neither
do I want to. Now I am responsible for three people. If I screw up
everyones marks are screwed, what if I fail them? ---- sigh sigh and
there is this little devil in my head trying to convince me that I
just should go and smoke and I would calm down. NO, NO, NO I am not
going to smoke so here I am just typing away. - I just want to scream
and cry... but I can't I am at school. I hate feelings and smoking
allowed me to hide behind them. help......
Its not like I have a lot of time. I am damm tiered and insteadt of
wasting my time and working on the project I could have studied for my
test tomorrow and get some Math homework done, and finishthe asignment
du tomorrow. Oh well just means its going to be a long long night. I
don't even know what 8 hours sleep feel like anymore.
thanks for listening I just had to let it out. thanks for letting me
rant.
PolarBear
FlatIronMike
classmates than to read that you used that as excuse to go smoke. The
work would STILL not be done and you'd smell.... Keep your focus on
yourself and do what you can today and do take care to get some
sleep. Working without enough sleep can make enough mistakes that you
end up with a worse grade than sleeping and then working on the
project refreshed!
FlatironMike
Two years, nine months, one day, 17 hours, 27 minutes and 33 seconds.
20114 cigarettes not smoked, saving $6,034.36. Life saved: 9 weeks, 6
days, 20 hours, 10 minutes.
DavidL
Rant on!
Tihomir
>Its not like I have a lot of time. I am damm tiered and insteadt of
>wasting my time and working on the project I could have studied for my
>test tomorrow and get some Math homework done, and finishthe asignment
>du tomorrow. Oh well just means its going to be a long long night. I
>don't even know what 8 hours sleep feel like anymore.
>
>thanks for listening I just had to let it out. thanks for letting me
>rant.
Rant all you want PolarBear. I can totally relate.
Just don't smoke. Especially not because two fools did not show up.
--
Tihomir 2Y5M, Knin, HR 44�N 16�E
http://www.quitbuddies.org
Quote 4846 of 9162:
... An ounce of application is worth a ton of abstraction.
Gracenote
Carmen I hate them, too and we have one for every class. Usually I am
the one who does all the work. Amazing how lazy some folks are.
You will do a great job! Just from reading you here and on Facebook I
can tell how hard you work and how much you care. However :) like me I
think you want perfection and I used to get very depressed if I made
less than A. Now I can take a B without much drama because really
grades don't reflect on me, just on the mood the teacher was in when
she graded it.
I like what you said "I hate feelings" because I do too! I was
thinking today why can't I just feel happy or at least content? How
come all I seem able to feel is fear? Or sadness and sometimes anger.
We just have to keep moving forward.
Good luck with school! It's worth it.
Annette
Wayne Baker
4a151c...@j19g2000yqk.googlegroups.com:
That's why we're here. To rant every now and then and to read rants!
Glad you have a place to unload :-)
---
Wayne Baker
Smoke Free: 1m 2w 4d 9:46
Not Smoked: 1,410
$ Better Spent: $324.30
Karen
Sorry Carmen I didn't have time to reply when you posted as I was
running out for my bus home from work - I hope you are feeling better
now - you're not responsible for your two idiot classmates - I can
fully understand and empathise with how frustrating it is though.
Hope your feeling better now - this is a great place to rant - I
should be about all tomorrow evening (after 8pm) my hubby will be out
- so if your around on MSN I would love to chat
hugs
Karen xx
AZ
listening :)
eightpans
Try to keep things simple Carmen. let things slide a little until you
settle in to your quit ...Nice and easy lemon squeezey . Try breathing
deep I cannot for the life of me remember the name of it but....
breathe in for 10 seconds..... hold it for 10 seconds...... and
breathe out for 10 seconds... this helped me no end in chilling out
just something to hold on to ....hope it works for you
Chris
PolarBear
No Mike, this is not like that. I would not use my classmates as an
excuse for smoking. If I smoke that its becasue I chosed too. The
major problem I realize more and more for me running back into the
smoking habbit is my unability to relax or calm down fast enough so I
can think what to do.
as you probably know smoking has a calming effect (not the nicotine,
but I think the act of smoking) and thats what I used to do over so
many years, when things got emotional I would leave and go to smoke.
Howevver the good site of my quit is that I am aware of it so I will
try to find ways to reach out and find someone to talk to or just
write until I can think and function again.
HappyPolarBear
PolarBear
> the one who does all the work. Amazing how lazy some folks are.
yep, its hard to believe and I will never understand how people go to
class without having homework done, for me its just not possible to
do. sometimes I wished I could, sometimes I wished my mind would allow
me to do that too.
>
> You will do a great job! Just from reading you here and on Facebook I
> can tell how hard you work and how much you care. However :) like me I
> think you want perfection and I used to get very depressed if I made
> less than A. Now I can take a B without much drama because really
> grades don't reflect on me, just on the mood the teacher was in when
> she graded it.
yep, perfectionism is what gets me to stay up many nights and what
runs me very quickly into depression.
>
> I like what you said "I hate feelings" because I do too! I was
> thinking today why can't I just feel happy or at least content? How
> come all I seem able to feel is fear? Or sadness and sometimes anger.
>
I wonder that often too, that how come even when I feel happy that I
am worried to not be happy again. Fear is there always but I think if
I would allow it it would be easier to handle.
> We just have to keep moving forward.
>
> Good luck with school! It's worth it.
thanks Annette,
yep we will move on forward.
HappyPolarBear
>
PolarBear
>
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thanks Karen,
yep I am feeling much better now, not that those morans showed up but
I got my emotions back undr control and that means I am not going to
smoke.
HappyPolarBear
PolarBear
>
> - Show quoted text -
thanks AZ
PolarBear
>
> - Show quoted text -
I so agree with you Chris, breathing is what probably would work.
cause thats what we do when we smoke right? we just breath in and out,
so its not the nicotine calming me down.
HappyPolarBear
PolarBear
> Instead of taking 25 puffs of smoke, PolarBear spoketh upon us:
>
> >Its not like I have a lot of time. I am damm tiered and insteadt of
> >wasting my time and working on the project I could have studied for my
> >test tomorrow and get some Math homework done, and finishthe asignment
> >du tomorrow. Oh well just means its going to be a long long night. I
> >don't even know what 8 hours sleep feel like anymore.
>
> >thanks for listening I just had to let it out. thanks for letting me
> >rant.
>
> Rant all you want PolarBear. I can totally relate.
> Just don't smoke. Especially not because two fools did not show up.
>
> --
> http://www.quitbuddies.org
>
> Quote 4846 of 9162:
> ... An ounce of application is worth a ton of abstraction.
thanks Tihomir,
nice to see you.
PolarBear
>
> >Its not like I have a lot of time. I am damm tiered and insteadt of
> >wasting my time and working on the project I could have studied for my
> >test tomorrow and get some Math homework done, and finishthe asignment
> >du tomorrow. Oh well just means its going to be a long long night. I
> >don't even know what 8 hours sleep feel like anymore.
>
> >thanks for listening I just had to let it out. thanks for letting me
> >rant.
>
> Rant all you want PolarBear. I can totally relate.
> Just don't smoke. Especially not because two fools did not show up.
>
> --
> http://www.quitbuddies.org
>
> Quote 4846 of 9162:
> ... An ounce of application is worth a ton of abstraction.
thanks David,
I got through, I guess just having written it all out was part of me
getting through the urge of smoking as a calm down tool.
HappyPolarBear
PolarBear
> PolarBear <carme...@hotmail.com> wrote in news:e3d45065-249d-4a0f-80d8-
> 4a151c91c...@j19g2000yqk.googlegroups.com:
>
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me too, I am glad to have a place where I feel save.