I cut last night
lisa in mass.
to the crisis line, which is the final step on my safety
contract, and I knew I'd never sleep last night because of all
the cutting urges. It worked; I got some sleep. My husband
probably guessed it though, since I slept the night in the
sweatshirt I'd been wearing.
Oh well. At this point I only care because it would upset him.
Not much of a reason.
-lisa
Emily
about it. It sounds like it wasn't a serious session, and you were able
to get sleep from it. That is a plus, I guess. Hopefully you can get
into partial soon, and maybe that will help.
Emily
lisa in mass.
The only real problem is that it worked so well that I know
I'll do it again. Already thinking about it, though it's not
the hounding urges that were with me for the previous 4 weeks.
I have no doubt it will get there, though, unless I cut again
first.
-lisa
Emily
>
> The only real problem is that it worked so well that I know
> I'll do it again. Already thinking about it, though it's not
> the hounding urges that were with me for the previous 4 weeks.
> I have no doubt it will get there, though, unless I cut again
> first.
>
> -lisa
Hey. I know how that goes. I wouldn't have cut for so long if it didn't
do anything for me. And, I know all about the small amount of relief,
that gives you just enough time to plan when/how you will do it
again--to get more relief. Hang in there.
Emily
lisa in mass.
Thanks. I can't believe you're answering my posts when you're
going through all this stuff yourself! Take care of you, ok?
lisa in mass.
I didn't mean that I don't appreciate it, I'm just really
concerned about what's happening to you right now.
Emily
Thanks. When I'm not asleep, I'm mostly o.k., I guess. Emotionally, I'm
actually doing fairly well--I think the physical stuff is taking my mind
off of the rest of it for now. It's time for more benadryl, so then I'll
be asleep for a while again. I'm just debating whether or not to call
the p-doc back before taking benadryl and going to sleep....
Emily