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A distinct, well-formed desire to not be touched or interacted with in any form
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hjj....@gmail.com
Mar 16, 2015, 12:42:24 AM3/16/15
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Regarding a distinct, well-formed desire to not be touched or interacted with in any form:
Today more so than most other days, I am depleted of social energy.
Why is it socially appropriate to apologize for my inclination to limit the amount of time I spend with humans when I do not want to spend time with humans? I wish to retreat and feel no remorse for that. However, there exists the knowledge that it is expected and normal to experience guilt for frustrating the desires of another by asserting my own desires. Because of this knowledge rather than guilt itself, I comply with other people's demands for time and attention.
As a shitty fucking schizoid, my habits and tendencies are inimical to the long-term maintenance of any kind of intimate relationship.
Why am I in a situation where I cannot effortlessly exist at a distance apart from others as I please?
Today more so than most other days, I am depleted of social energy.
Why is it socially appropriate to apologize for my inclination to limit the amount of time I spend with humans when I do not want to spend time with humans? I wish to retreat and feel no remorse for that. However, there exists the knowledge that it is expected and normal to experience guilt for frustrating the desires of another by asserting my own desires. Because of this knowledge rather than guilt itself, I comply with other people's demands for time and attention.
As a shitty fucking schizoid, my habits and tendencies are inimical to the long-term maintenance of any kind of intimate relationship.
Why am I in a situation where I cannot effortlessly exist at a distance apart from others as I please?
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