balancing ocd

[dr x]

i'm removing some of my traditions. i have gone
through perfecting the inside of my house from the
contagions of other humans - especially those i
do not like - as far as is possible without super
powers. i have purified my mind as far as it is
possible at this time and without being a saint.
particular mental states, thoughts, actions, and
physical states i will not tolerate in myself or
in others, but it is time to allow balance back in.
my negative thoughts themselves have become the
thing i am now allergic to, at the level they can be.
it becomes the same old story. the mind is so consumed
with ridding the world of evil that it becomes just
full of evil itself. i am more trusting of some,
and more trusting of myself, and feel it can work.
except for you. there is always a beast in the way.

now beyond this inner reflection in practice, i have
allowed somebody to pour me a drink and i used the
glass that he brought to me and i don't feel to bad.

of course i'm drinking honey refined bourbon whiskey.

[dr x]

what i am doing more of is in the middle of
situations that i feel awful in i will focus
on a positive element and allow myself to
enjoy it even in the middle of the the mess.

a calm state of mind descending for instance.

[dr x]

and there is nothing wrong with it...

the self mutilating mind and all the enemies
in the world do not really effect everything &
the process of completing a ritual reaction is
not vital to this essentially happy mind state.

[dr x]

dr x wrote:
> i'm removing some of my traditions. i have gone
> through perfecting the inside of my house from the
> contagions of other humans - especially those i
> do not like - as far as is possible without super
> powers.

that's a figure of speech. i do have super powers.