co-consciousness
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co-presence seems to be most unusual trait that i developed outside of
therapy. it just came down to the host being so disabled by time loss that
we all entered an agreement to let her watch/know what was happening while
we were out.okay not all of us agreed.kelly
hi i only got agreements from my others who were out and definately
strong. the rest that i didn't even know all of agreed for the most part.
my children were uncomfortable with my awareness of their actions they
felt like it was too much like abuser watching over their shoulders for
them to make a mistake. so for most of my littles at first there was no co
presence with them. now a year later some of them have relaxed and or
don't care. they just enjoy coming out and not having to hide when we are
at home.(sometimes they come out in public especially in the D.I.D.
dreaded cereal isle) teri
we understand scary feelings but no one disapears or gets absorbed or dies
or ich(intagrathing word). and we reserve the right to block others from
harmful events or memories so it becomes more of a continuous system for
us.Teri is rarely out and we have to field a lot for her so to have her
terrified about the time loss was very difficult to say the least .this
copresence is hard to explain to someone who hasn't experienced it but it
really isn't that big a deal in the long run.(teri's best friend didn't
like it at first cause she felt she never got to see teri anymore but she
didn't realize that she really never did in crisises we are just very
practiced at imitating teri. sorry too long winded about ourselves. just
hope this helps a little feel free to write us with more questions. Kelly
Internet Arena
our therp. is working toward all of us becoming co-conscious. several of
the insiders think that it is a good idea but are really afraid. as i
understand it, the adults are afraid because they individually think that
they will become responsible for everybody's functioning or lack there of.
the little ones are afraid...but they are afraid of nearly everything (not
trying to diminish their fear...stating a fact) but even they want to be
connected to each other.
there is at least one (probably more) who is actively trying to prevent any
attempt at connecting us. she won't say what her name is but she will stop
at nothing to interfere/interrupt or wreak havoc on our system. no one
even knows if "she" is a she.
one of the littles named her Cruella.
some of the things she has done is self-harm, left therapy early, etc.
our therp. says that she gets her energy from fear.
anyway i was wondering if anyone has any comments/suggestions about this
process or understanding for me or the others
taylor
Michaela Bach
Samstag, 16 November 1996, Internet Arena writes to All:
IA> our therp. is working toward all of us becoming co-conscious. several of
IA> the insiders think that it is a good idea but are really afraid. as i
IA> understand it, the adults are afraid because they individually think that
IA> they will become responsible for everybody's functioning or lack there of.
IA>
IA> the little ones are afraid...but they are afraid of nearly everything (not
IA> trying to diminish their fear...stating a fact) but even they want to be
IA> connected to each other.
IA>
IA> there is at least one (probably more) who is actively trying to prevent
IA> any attempt at connecting us. she won't say what her name is but she will
IA> stop at nothing to interfere/interrupt or wreak havoc on our system. no
IA> one even knows if "she" is a she. one of the littles named her
IA> Cruella. some of the things she has done is self-harm, left therapy early,
IA> etc. our therp. says that she gets her energy from fear. anyway i was
IA> wondering if anyone has any comments/suggestions about this process or
IA> understanding for me or the others taylor
As we have been basically co-conscious almost all the time, I can't offer you
advice or anything about the process of becoming co-conscious as such.
But I have some comments which might clear up things a bit ... hopefully.
First of all, being co-conscious to *me* doesn't mean I always feel/see/know
what *all* the others inside/outside do/think/feel etc. It means that apart
from emergency situations or triggered responses I will stay present even if
somebody else takes over. Meaning I can still perceive what's going on outside
but I can't really influence what we are doing in the oustide world. Sometimes
I go back inside even a little further (like when somebody else is working with
the therapist), but when I come back to the front, I'll get some kind of
briefing on what's been going on - like some very foggy memory, without my own
emotions attached.
So I think becoming co-conscious doesn't need to be feared in terms of "Oh
sh*t, now I have to know everything and deal with anything". At least, this is
not what things are like for us. And I think while clearly everbody is
responsible for the actions of the body/the collective (like if one of us
steals a car and gets caught, we all will end up in jail, no matter whether we
knew about the whole thing right away or not). On the other hand, I'm not
responsible for say, Fletcher's flashbacks, still I feel pretty much obliged to
try and avoid situations which might trigger such a response from him or
retraumatise our little one. (But, again, this for me got nothing whatsoever to
do with co-consciousness, it's only linked to our understanding of co-operation
in this system).
Second, right now, we're all trying to be more co-conscious. Like I try to stay
present when Vampyre deals with some aggressive/limits/nos requiring situation.
And Fletcher tries to stay present with me during everdaylife stuff to get some
more normal experiences. And Vampyre tries to learn about 'normal'
relationships and interactions with others this way. etc. So obviously, for us
being co-conscious isn't a general situation which is always the same, but some
kind of link between us as well as to the outside world everybody can use to
his or her needs and abilities. Meaning, nobody is really forced by this to
participate or just perceive some situation which would go beyond his or her
strength.
I don't know if this makes any sense to you. If not, please feel free to ask
more (maybe more specific) questions.
Mischa & co.