20/03/05 - AGORAPHOBIA REPORT - Martial arts classes...
mruk4u
I've been going out to a lot more martial arts classes, recently. For
years I recall thinking about it...but, just never finding the guts to
go nowhere?! Then, I used to attend like maybe 1 or 2 lessons per year.
Later, I went to 1 lesson per quarter(every 3 months). Gradually, I
worked up to doing around 1 or 2 lessons per month. And, now-a-days,
it's more like 1 lesson per week(although, I have in fact signed up to
do, at least, 3 lessons per week...; but, I will usually find some
excuse to miss out on doing 2 of the 3 lessons per week). Although, I
admit it's nowhere near my ultimate aim of going to martial arts,
daily...; still it's -very slowly- getting there.
MON - Aikido (Japanese, empty hands)
TUE - Tai Chi (Chinese, empty hands)
WED - Iaido (Japanese, sword drawing)
Thursday, I know they are doing Ju Jitsu. I always wanted to go try it.
But, so far, no, I've not found the guts?! Still thinking about it...;
not sure I'm tough enough to be able to handle it, I guess???
One Friday I dropped in on a class that was doing, Boxercise...but,
found it was all females...that is, apart from the teacher who was
male. I wanted to join in...as the teacher was good, obviously.
However, it's been 2/3 weeks, now, and, I still haven't joined in with
them. All those girls - and, with me being the only guy - I keep
thinking it will make me feel far too deeply self-concious?!
Saturday, I should have gone back to BJJ/Brazillian Ju Jitsu. I went
there only, once...; and, trained. Each Saturday comes along...and, I
think, I should return...but, didn't!
Sunday, there is a class called: Fue Loon; again, I've attended there,
once...; never been back yet.
Most places I only go there, once, never to return. One day I got to
find a way to get over all these fears about not fitting in/or, looking
bad/feeling deeply self-concious/-etc. As, basically, it's holding me
back from doing all I want to in life.
Anyway, at 41+, I still haven't completely given up, yet. I still dream
of becoming a master one day(even if it takes me, quite simply,
forevermore)??? So, I'm still going for it...
Bye4now!/BEST wishes, always!/-Paul(UK/London)
PS: Have a NICE day!
;-)
Graffnoir
On 20 Mar 2005 08:29:14 -0800, "mruk4u" <mru...@aol.com> wrote:
>Hi ALL,
>
>I've been going out to a lot more martial arts classes, recently. For
>years I recall thinking about it...but, just never finding the guts to
>go nowhere?! Then, I used to attend like maybe 1 or 2 lessons per year.
>Later, I went to 1 lesson per quarter(every 3 months). Gradually, I
>worked up to doing around 1 or 2 lessons per month. And, now-a-days,
>it's more like 1 lesson per week(although, I have in fact signed up to
>do, at least, 3 lessons per week...; but, I will usually find some
>excuse to miss out on doing 2 of the 3 lessons per week). Although, I
>admit it's nowhere near my ultimate aim of going to martial arts,
>daily...; still it's -very slowly- getting there.
It sounds like your doing extremely well (((-(((Paul)))-))). You have
the fire that drives you to these classes and I'm very proud of you
for doing so well.
>MON - Aikido (Japanese, empty hands)
>TUE - Tai Chi (Chinese, empty hands)
>WED - Iaido (Japanese, sword drawing)
>
>Thursday, I know they are doing Ju Jitsu. I always wanted to go try it.
>But, so far, no, I've not found the guts?! Still thinking about it...;
>not sure I'm tough enough to be able to handle it, I guess???
I believe you will take it in your stride and become very good at it
indeed (((Paul))).
>One Friday I dropped in on a class that was doing, Boxercise...but,
>found it was all females...that is, apart from the teacher who was
>male. I wanted to join in...as the teacher was good, obviously.
>However, it's been 2/3 weeks, now, and, I still haven't joined in with
>them. All those girls - and, with me being the only guy - I keep
>thinking it will make me feel far too deeply self-concious?!
Personally I say go for it. You have nothing to loose and much to
gain....anyway the ladies might find the extra person in the group of
great interest....a nice change from all the other ladies anyway :).
>Saturday, I should have gone back to BJJ/Brazillian Ju Jitsu. I went
>there only, once...; and, trained. Each Saturday comes along...and, I
>think, I should return...but, didn't!
Just give it time and I'm sure you will feel the urge to go again :).
>Sunday, there is a class called: Fue Loon; again, I've attended there,
>once...; never been back yet.
As I say if you feel the urge then go and enjoy guy :)
>Most places I only go there, once, never to return. One day I got to
>find a way to get over all these fears about not fitting in/or, looking
>bad/feeling deeply self-concious/-etc. As, basically, it's holding me
>back from doing all I want to in life.
I know this might sound bad but there is an answer but it takes a
while to learn.....Its called the F**k It attitude.....no
really.....Turn up and do what makes you feel good and if some one
doesn't like it then refer to the attitude answer.......Don't let
others put you off or for that matter feel anything but enjoyment when
you go out to a class. I hope you are able to give this a go and can
let us know how you get on.
>Anyway, at 41+, I still haven't completely given up, yet. I still dream
>of becoming a master one day(even if it takes me, quite simply,
>forevermore)??? So, I'm still going for it...
This is the attitude I'm very happy to hear.....Hope comes in small
packages but as long as you hide a little package of hope away where
no one can get to it you will always have hope.....and hope
grows....even in dark places (((-(((Paul)))-))).
>Bye4now!/BEST wishes, always!/-Paul(UK/London)
>
>PS: Have a NICE day!
>;-)
(((Mellow Gentle Squishes))) to you and all whom you Love :)
On The Sea Of Infinite Tranquility
Sail On
V~anessa
haven't heard from you in quite a while and looks like you've been busy
enjoying life. Just a quick post to say how proud I am of you... sorry for
top posting BTW. Step by step is the ideal way to reach small goals and
ultimately you will be able to achieve the big dream goal... a Master. 41 is
very young (i'm nearly that age myself).
I want so much to try Aikido again, but way too busy so am proud of what
you've done.
Keep up the great work. Focus on your positives :)
Vanessa :)
"mruk4u" <mru...@aol.com> wrote in message
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mruk4u
Thanks for all of the positive encouragements and kind works. I very
deeply appreciate it./;-)
I hope to develop some of that 'fuck-it!' attitude as much as I
possibly can./LOL
Actually, seriously, I wish I was a lot more rude/fierce...; as I find
that through being overly polite people tend to take loads of unfair
advantage of you...simply, because you are far too afraid to say, no!
GOOD LUCK
-Paul
mruk4u
>>>
41 is
very young (i'm nearly that age myself).
I want so much to try Aikido again, but way too busy so am proud of
what
you've done.
<<<
Excuses, excuses! You say you are younger than me...therefore, if I can
do it - so can you, too. It's just merely a case of you choosing to go
make your mind up.
Though, actually, what works for me, sometimes, is to actually turning
thinking off. Just say, STOP...to all of the negative thoughts...and,
absolutely endless "what if's?!" Then, just go out there and do it.../9
times out of 10 you come away feeling so muc the better!
GOOD LUCK
-Paul
Graffnoir
On 21 Mar 2005 07:36:11 -0800, "mruk4u" <mru...@aol.com> wrote:
>Hi Graf,
>
>Thanks for all of the positive encouragements and kind works. I very
>deeply appreciate it./;-)
No Problem (((Paul))).
>I hope to develop some of that 'fuck-it!' attitude as much as I
>possibly can./LOL
:).
>Actually, seriously, I wish I was a lot more rude/fierce...; as I find
>that through being overly polite people tend to take loads of unfair
>advantage of you...simply, because you are far too afraid to say, no!
You are right that a lot of people take advantage of those who they
think will take it and not complain.
>GOOD LUCK
>-Paul
V~anessa
I have the motivation just don't have enough time with 4 kids. But you're
right I'm making excuses so I'll let you know when I start some
lessons...just got to do some research first.
Geno Centofanti
V~anessa
"Geno Centofanti" <hey...@webtv.net> wrote in message
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>
> shoot, I am 53 and I dont want to do ANY self def. classes ! : )
>
> I was doing great a year ago...relapsed ,,and on my way back up again.
> AND I am only taking 5m of Lexapro and totally off Buspar. One of the
> best things I've done is go on Trazadone. I was sleep deprived for 8
> years.
>
> I will be moving to the country this summer ? ( tough to do but MANY bad
> triggers where I live now.....)
>
> Hope you are fine Vanessa !
> Geno
Hi Geno,
how have you been? I haven't seen a post from you in a while. Great that
you're getting better sleep and that you're on your way up again. I'm doing
really well, almost normal. I'm able to go to work with hardly any anxiety.
Vanessa :)
mruk4u
Hope everything is going far better for you than ever before...; and,
also, will keep on improving, too./;-)
Country life sounds like it might be able to help you move around more.
Personally, whenever I go countryside with the wide open spaces, and,
far less people...then, I feel a lot less intimidated(I'm Social
Phobic)...and, go walking/running/exploring seeing everywhere.
I remember you said you liked arts a lot. Well, lately, I went to the
RAOA-Royal Academy Of Arts in London's Piccadilly to see the Matisse
exebition. Believe me, it was really impressive! So much better seeing
Matisse's work 'in real life', and, 'life-size'.../as opposed to seeing
merely 'small size' often 'black and white' reproductions of it inside
of books.
GOOD LUCK
-Paul