On Sunday, November 15, 2020 at 4:31:45 PM UTC-5, hopetodie wrote:
> looking for a good way to end my life
I tried to hang myself. The last time, I thought I had finally made it! I stepped off a stool, tipping it over as I did. When the rope snapped tight and delivered a good, strong jolt to my neck, the pain was excruciating! It made me think I had finally managed to break my neck. I lost consciousness in about 10 seconds. Alas! I was only hanged for a few minutes before someone cut my body down and cut the noose from around my neck. I spent eight weeks in suicide recovery, and I was kept in because they weren't 100% sure I had actually dislocated my neck, and somehow, as it started to separate at the base of the C3, the joint slipped back in. I was so close to breaking my neck! The only thing is, since then, I've gotten back into auto erotic asphyxia. Maybe I'll have an accident and strangle myself to death!