Re: 18 year old girl looking for romantic suicide partner/pact in US

[I want to die]

The teen years have go to be the worst years! When I was 13, I tried twice within a 48-hour period to hang myself. The first attempt failed when the rope slipped from around the beam, while the second attempt failed when my poorly constructed noose slipped from around my neck. One year later though, when I was 14, my body had to be cut down and I spent the summer in a juvenile suicide recovery ward at a local hospital. I made several more attempts in my teens to hang myself, including twice where a friend and I tried to go together. I almost made it the second time, when I was 17, and when our bodies were found. My friend was cut down and was revived when the people who found us realized that there were two boys' bodies dangling from tree branches. My friend was hanged for maybe two minutes, while I was hanged for five! Three months later, he finally succeeded, hanging himself and dying on his 18th birthday! I would try three more times, once when I was 18, again one year later when I was 19, and once more when I was 21. My last suicide attempt was on October 30th, 2013, the day before my 59th birthday!

Suicide pacts do work sometimes. Both pacts I was involved in when I was a teenager failed due to poor timing. I had three packs later, once in my late 20's, again when I was 42, and again when I was 55, where my partners backed out at the last second, leaving me hanged for a few minutes each time.

This is not encouraging, and do not take it that way, but, good luck in finding what you're looking for.

[Queer]

I read the original title line, "18 year old girl looking for romantic suicide partner/pact in US", and it made me think, 'here is an 18-year-old girl wanting to kill herself!', and all I thought was, "Wow!" Then I remembered my own history. I was very suicidal in my teen years. And I had suicidal friends. My then-boyfriend committed suicide on his 16th birthday, and three days later, almost four months away from my own 16th birthday, I made my first "real" suicide attempt. I made my second suicide attempt almost one year later to the day, and I landed in an adolescent psych ward with my neck wrapped in a hard cervical collar for six weeks. I lost two more friends to suicide in high school. When I was 18, I made my third suicide attempt. So, to be 18 and wanting to die, while sad, really isn't unusual. Teen suicide was a big problem back in the early 70s, and it's an even bigger problem now.

[Ashley Jordan]

What gets me is the phony image television presents hat the teen years are the best years. If so, why is the highest rates of suicide is males aged 15-to-24-years-old. The last stat I read about a year ago said that a male in that age group has a one chance in five of attempting suicide, and one chance in seven of succeeding. Add in the variable of that boy being Gay (like I am), and the chance of attempting suicide drops to one chance in two, while succeeding drops to one chance in three. Half of all teenaged Gay boys will try to kill themselves, and one-third will succeed. For teenaged girls, the stats are a little better, with one chance in eight will try to kill themselves and it's a one chance in twelve they'll succeed. Why do more boys succeed at suicide than girls?

There is one other bizarre stat that sort of slews the suicide totals for boys, and this only applies to boys. A lot of boys are dabbling in a game called "The Choking Game", or as I know it, auto-erotic asphyxia. What this entails is that too many boys are playing this dangerous game, and far too many are being killed by it. The most common death is by strangulation, and, to the extreme, hanging. Death by strangulation, whether it occurs because the boy wrapped a ligature around his neck, or whether he hanged himself, accounts for over 95% of the deaths from playing "The Choking Game", and many of those deaths are covered up as suicide.

My teen years were horrible! Because I struggled so much with my sexuality (as I said, I'm Gay), three times from when I was 16 until I was 19, I tried to hang myself, twice landing for an extended stay in the hospital. My last suicide attempt (again, by hanging) was 15-years ago, when I was 22-years-old. What I am saying is what you said, it's sad to think that, here we have an 18-year-old girl who wants to kill herself, yet, it really isn't all that out of the ordinary.

🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈 Ashley J. 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈