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Recovery Period Over?
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Need2Die
Nov 1, 2015, 6:31:28 AM11/1/15
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I was searching through some of the topics about suicide attempt recovery, as few as they are. Two years ago (gee, it seems like a long time ago!), a friend found my dangling body, and cut the rope to lower me down. A couple of weeks later, I regained consciousness. Yes, I was angry with her. But, during my recovery, the counsellor who was treating me, made me promise not to attempt suicide again for two years, to give me a chance to recover enough to hopefully alleviate my desires to end my life. Well, as of Friday evening, the second anniversary of the last time I tipped the stool over to kill myself, that two-year promise has concluded. Guess what? The treatment didn't work! I still have suicidal desires, and they are stronger than ever!
Too, about five-weeks ago, the 18-year-old son of an acquaintance of mine was found dangling by his neck in the garage. The boy hanged himself. It was the boy's fourth suicide attempt, but the first since he was 16! Ironically, just a few blocks way, his best friend was found hanged in his parent's basement! I saw the dangling body of my acquaintance's son just before he was cut down! The boy had been dead for at least an hour when his mother found his body! Seeing that boy's body, as he hanged so still and limp, looking somewhat angelic, made me start to think about my last suicide attempt, and that my two-year promise was about to expire.
I am of the mindset that I need to just give in and do it! And I think I will!
But, to ask, has anyone else, when they were found before it was too late, been forced to promise not to try and kill themselves, to give recovery a chance? Did it work, or were you like me, found it to be a total waste of time that only prolonged the inevitable?
Too, about five-weeks ago, the 18-year-old son of an acquaintance of mine was found dangling by his neck in the garage. The boy hanged himself. It was the boy's fourth suicide attempt, but the first since he was 16! Ironically, just a few blocks way, his best friend was found hanged in his parent's basement! I saw the dangling body of my acquaintance's son just before he was cut down! The boy had been dead for at least an hour when his mother found his body! Seeing that boy's body, as he hanged so still and limp, looking somewhat angelic, made me start to think about my last suicide attempt, and that my two-year promise was about to expire.
I am of the mindset that I need to just give in and do it! And I think I will!
But, to ask, has anyone else, when they were found before it was too late, been forced to promise not to try and kill themselves, to give recovery a chance? Did it work, or were you like me, found it to be a total waste of time that only prolonged the inevitable?
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