Re: yayaya ok uhuh and?

[Kandy]

On Wednesday, March 13, 2013 4:18:29 AM UTC-4, earthwat...@mail.com wrote:
> ok i am just cruisin the inter web when all of a sudden i see a group called, alt.suicide.recovery. their objective is supposedly "Recovery from having committed suicide." Can anyone explain how to recover after having committed suicide. How does one use the internet after having committed suicide? just curious :P

It is a confusing group name, isn't it! And the description doesn't help! Honestly, it should say, "Recovering From Attempting Suicide", or "Recovering From A Failed Suicide Attempt", which is also misleading. In my experience, the only way to recover from a failed suicide attempt is to try again! And again!

[Ashley D.]

I agree about the group description. I think Kandy nailed it though, it's about recovering from failed attempts. But do you really ever recover? To recover, to me, means you were found in time and rescued. In my case, my body was cut down while my heart was still beating, although it was nearly stopped! And it didn't happen once, or even twice! The first time I was hanged was when I was 12! I'm 18 now, and have, for the record, seven suicide attempts. Three were within the last two years! Then there were the months and even years of counselling. Counselling that didn't, AND HASN"T, helped. The thoughts remain, and even though I am on watch constantly, the possibility of a future attempt to kill myself isn't a case of "if", but rather "when". Then there is situations that make it even more possible. When I was 16, I dated a suicidal boyfriend. We dated for 15-months. His suicidal desires were just as strong as mine are, if not more. Three months into our relationship, we entered into a suicide pact. We both went to what we thought was a private place and hanged ourselves. As we both suffered extremely serious neck injuries, we both should have died that day. We were both unconscious when our bodies were cut down from tree branches we hanged from. We spent that summer (2011) in suicide recovery and counselling. Did it work? One year later, we both tried again! The results were the same. Only, that time, we both seriously damaged our necks, and while he was still alive when our bodies were cut down, he died within 30-minutes of when we were found. More recovery, and more counselling!

Now, I am dating again, but this time, it's a threesome! I have not one, but two wonderful boyfriends. They are both like me, as they too are Gay and transgendered. AND!!! They are both suicidal, and we openly talk about killing ourselves and have even thought about a pact. But, as I said, I'm on watch, and so are they. Will I try again? For sure! Will they? For sure! Is it possible we will enter into a pact and try together? That is a strong possibility! Only, next time, I hope I break my neck again so it will be fatal!