What is a Nigger?
Kevin B. Murphy
have souls... What other option do they have? Whites, on the other hand,
have the option of having a soul or of not having a soul.
--
Denial of Free Will makes the Knowledge of Order Absolute.
Zerkon
> What is a Nigger?
One who Nigs?
Sir Frederick
hair, has been having its own problems.
tooly
> It is a misspelling of 'ginger', which in the form of 'red'
> hair, has been having its own problems.
I think I'm going crazy.
NO really...
I don't want to speak on race anymore. The world is in deep
doodoo...and nothing I can do about it. People do need to be sobering
up though [on race].
I think I'm near the end of my life. I'm not afraid, even look
forward to it in some ways [though like anyone I'm 'deathly' afraid of
the dying [not the death itself]...especially the suffering that might
be involved].
I feel a certain peace come over me lately. It's hard to describe.
I'm remembering some things about who I was. I've seen some wonderful
things while alive here. But it is frustrating not to be able to
share such things. Everyone wants to subjegate everyone else
here...be the sage, the champion, the more intelligent, the leader,
the teacher, the superior, the whatever...all to reaffirm one's own
being. I suppose I have ego too.
Ok...fine...but I really do think I had something worthwhile. If
anyone experienced it like me...
ha...yea, right...they'd become the washed out loser I"ve
become...LOL.
Not being able to share...that has been the greatest suffering I've
endured while here. We are so so alone here...and I don't mean
without mate or whatever; I mean 'alone'...with only the barest degree
of continuity between ourselves. It is amazing the suffering that is
endured here on this planet...and yet, life remains a good thing for
the most part.
My thoughts now turn to death...and what it might be like. Of course,
I'll never know, will I, ha...cuz' I'll be dead. But my
inquisitiveness still tries to conjure up something that it might be
like in my imagination. I know it is not a darkness...but more a
void; a nothingness that I doubt we can understand. I picture all my
organs shutting down. Surely that takes some time...and I really
don't want to suffer.
What will be my last thought? Will there be terror, having realized
what is happening? Will I kick and struggle for every 'last' breath
even as I cannot alter what is taking place? Or might I come to some
point and become calm and accepting...embracing it even? God, how I
wish our medical science could make available the almost instantaneous
death that we afford convicted murderers. I'm really here and
experiencing all this...and I don't want to suffer. I'm not an
illusion. Pain makes it so.
But this calm...it is quite extraordinary you see. It is a withdrawal
from the world [even more so than I have been forced to with all the
marxists in town now, ha]. I feel something important is about to
happen...something extraordinary. A promise made true perhaps.
ha..probably just my untimely demise.
I have made this comment before, but it is such a wonderful thought to
me, I thought I'd repeat it; that what a perfect way to die, would be
to light the fires of the human heart one more time...that deep,
burning, all consuming sensation as the Christ perhaps once felt, and
an all encompassing love fill me so completely...so abundantly...that
it overwhelms me and bursts my heart.
I've felt love so intensely before in my life that I felt that were
almost possible. I'm not sure it would be my heart that would
explode, or perhaps it might just be my nervous system getting
fried...but whatever, it would be the most perfect way to die.
I'd be my own super nova. I hope others...many others...get to see
such love as I've experienced...and even much more...and
somehow...ha...whatever. It was she I did not understand; her
motives; how could 'she'? Perhaps it was mean to be though; ah
well...water over the dam, lives already gone. I sublimated well I
think.
Sir Frederick
supported by a finite physical structure (subject to 'life cycle'),
in a weird and phony context (the meaningless universe).
My sympathies. The putative gods suck.
Kevin B. Murphy
On 26-Dec-2009, "Kevin B. Murphy" <kmurp...@comcast.net> wrote:
> A nigger is a black man who has lost his soul... Blacks, of course, must
> have souls... What other option do they have? Whites, on the other hand,
> have the option of having a soul or of not having a soul.
You can just call me 'The Supreme Grand Master Soul Sucker'... (Sssst... so
many souls to suck... so little time.)