Slave that owns the Plantation.
RaidersF1976
stupidvisor when we're leaving and when we return from our "15 minute breaks."
Also, we're forced to take a lunch, so there goes my 30 minutes of overtime
every night. Madness continues with the fact that boxes are piled -everywhere-
and lots are everywhere. Instead of just doing one lot, we're doing about 5
different lots. Papers flying everywhere, I'm standing there trying to hear my
heart beat, my life melting away in a rage of slave labor.
Not to be rude, but damn, nearly ever single person besides us 3 in the back on
the standup machines, is an annoying, loud, nasty puertorican female. Now, I
leave well enough alone, but these girls just do NOT shut up. They're obviously
from the poor section of Allentown, have 4 or 5 kids each, and are just plain
annoying. We can't stand it anymore, them running their mouth, listening to the
damn spanish radio station so loud you can hear it in the next building. To
them, our slave wages must be *damn good.*
So while daydreaming at work, my blood boiling and my social consciousness
nearly going over the edge, I do what I do everyday... try to formulate a plan
to get the hell out of this mess. Way too much debt. I make way too little.
Overtime? Sure, but my pay would still be *garbage.* I've seen down times
before, but this is unreal. So my mind wanders about the existence of God. I
come to the same conclusion everyday -- God simply does not exist. Believing in
such would amount to "being a fool." I think back to all the circumstances and
decisions that have put me in my current lowly position. Some things were my
fault, some were handed to me, some just bad breaks. It's amazing the bad
things a person will do simply because they're lonely. And when it comes down
to it, all the bad things I've thought or done have been because I was lonely.
Hell, you'd hang with anybody just to hang with someone at all. But because of
that, i'm doomed. I am doomed to eternal garbage. I feel it, I breathe it, it
runs through my veins.
Death really changes things. We were left with nothing, and it was up to me to
make things better. But I'm a failure, kinda smart, yeah, but oh so _stupid_.
Some decisions just can't be changed. So when I decide and know in my heart
that I'm doomed, I think the the phrase "all men are created equal." The
fallacy of God is proven true by this very statement. All men are not created
equal, in any way. Am I equal to Kobe Bryant? If all people are created equal,
what about retarded people? If all people were created equal, why do some
develop diseases later in life unexplainably? All men are NOT created equal. In
fact, there is nothing "Godly" about this world at all. In our hearts, we're
all savages, like cavemen, trying to be better than everyone else, trying to
get our piece of the action, our piece of tight, juicy, unedited ass...
basically, we're all USERS. We're not nice to eachother for the sake of it.
We're nice to eachother because we want something from them, or because we want
them to feel a certain way about US. Like the "relationship game." It drives me
nuts when I see these couples, these stupid, stupid women who think their men
"love them." Hell, ANY decent or good looking woman can get a man -anytime.-
Probably a man that will help you pay your bills, give you a place to stay, if
you're lucky, you'll get pregnant and be able to take the man for HALF at some
point in the future. Because most marriages FAIL anyway, so you are most likely
to see SOME money.
The more I study it life, I realize that it's about a few things. #1 is
definitely the way you look. Check out models. Damn, they look so good (due to
genetics, something we can't control), lets give them a job getting their
picture taken and give them so much money! Life also comes down to #2 who your
family is and who they know. Look at any valedictorian or intelligent person.
Where did their intelligence come from? Their parents. The result of two
intelligent, genetically superior people having sex. #3 The amount of money you
have. Why do people go to school at all, go to college, try and start their own
business? Hell, to get MONEY. Why? So they can get high quality ASS! If you
have enough money, it doesn't matter how you look, you WILL GET ASS. But
combine looks, money, family... and other manifestations of power, like fame,
and you've got a successful life and someone that _believes in God_.
Look at our friend Mr. Prince. Mr. Prince is rich, so he can "call people out"
saying money isn't important. Sure, Mr. Prince. I'm sure having Paisley Park,
enough money to never have to work, and the fact that you've never had a REAL
job in your lfe doesn't matter. Why don't you take _my job_ for a month and see
if you believe in God? That Rainbow Children shit does not work in the _real
world._ Fortunately for you, you don't have to deal with the real world. You
are the slave that owns the Plantation! Then again, Prince says don't get
involved in that "paper chase" yet complains he'll see no money (a lie) from
the "Very Best of Prince" album. I'm SURE he'll see more money than i'd make in
TEN YEARS at my current job. Fuck you, Prince. Oh, I'll still subscribe to next
month's NPGMC though, but fuck you, anyway.
What else is left for tonight's whining... well, the only way i'll probably get
rich is if I actually finish a few scripts and get them sold. A nice, fat
100,000 check would be nice, then I could live in a nice place away from the
real world, and have a few high quality hookers that are at my every command.
That, plus playing some Sega. Shit, that ain't a bad life. Or, I could do like
the main character said in "Office Space." He said "If I was rich, I wouldn't
do a thing!" Well hell, me either. I'd sit around, bang whores, play Sega. You
know what? I've also decided that being a nice guy doesn't get you anywhere.
I'm doomed, and death is ringing my doorbell, but if it wasn't, I'd change a
few things. I'd try and *TAKE WHAT I WANT.* I wouldn't let people ignore me or
push me around. I'd ask a girl out, and if she gave me some line like "you're
not my type," or "you're too short," I would punch her in the face. Because
fuck her, what does she know? I worked damn hard to get to the hell where I'm
at now. I think that deserves respect and understanding. Oh, but you still have
acne! Yeah? Tell me something I don't already know? It's not _my fault_. It's
genetics. Why don't you base your lousy opinion on something that I can
control? I'm tired of being played, and lied to. I feel myself splitting up in
around seven different people. Too many experiences, way too many bad ones, a
lack of understanding, death and bad decisions have been the death of me. And
that is it. Hopefully I can finish this damn worthless script and sell it
before I get the urge to kill myself again. But like Angelina Jolie said, "the
guilt that comes with suicide... people thinking they could have done something
to stop it" would be too much. I pray to have resolution or die quickly... but
the sad fact is that i'll be exposed to a slow, ultra-sensitive, painful death.
Ever so slow. And maybe I do deserve that... I am nothing.
peace
L.
hippocrocamoose
charge rent and save a bit of money, or is it posible that you could move
back in with your parents? keep getting the local papers and looking for
another job, it'll take time but something will show up. don't buy dremcast
games, get them copied (sure it's illegal and all that but if you are
strapped for cash then it'll save you money)
try and organise some nights out with the people you work with, getting to
know people you work with outside of work, you'll probably find them more
tolerable to work with.
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there is no right or wrong - only opinion.
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The Doctor
"hippocrocamoose" <Ric...@townsley.freeserve.co.uk> wrote in message
news:9krj0v$nl4$1...@news5.svr.pol.co.uk...
> lou, how big is your appartment? why not advertise for a room mate? you
can
> charge rent and save a bit of money, or is it posible that you could move
> back in with your parents? keep getting the local papers and looking for
> another job, it'll take time but something will show up. don't buy
dremcast
> games, get them copied (sure it's illegal and all that but if you are
> strapped for cash then it'll save you money)
> try and organise some nights out with the people you work with, getting to
> know people you work with outside of work, you'll probably find them more
> tolerable to work with.
would you live with lou?.
his personality is one that would need for him to be alone 24/7..i doubt he
gets along with people at all,and the funny thing is..he probably blames
everyone else but himself for his problems.
if he dosent have a girlfriend or a good job then there is no one else to
blame but himself.
its easy for lou to blame others and transfere all his anger and
frustrations at invisible other`s online.
he can spew stuff about being ugly and what not,but these are only excuse`s.
if lou has problems then lou should be looking within himself for the
answer`s,instead of boring the group with his immature "observations" on how
terrible his life is.perhaps it is time lou point those sharp eyed
obversations at himself.
also,his stories are telling,what a self abosorbed person he is,perhaps he
should use to sharp eyes and observe that he is very far from having the
terrible life that he thinks he has.
he only see`s what he wants to see,he observe`s couple`s in malls,people
going about their daily lives and he only see`s this because he thinks that
this is what he wants out of life.
i get a grilfriend,i will be happy...what utter nonsense.
having a relationship will not solve lou`s problems,nor will a better paying
job.
the only thing that will is for lou to accept himself for who he is and stop
trying to live upto what he perceive`s as making one`s self a fully
functioning part of society.
lou has to learn to be comfortable with himself,learn to stop worring about
what other people think of him and what society belive`s he should be.
learn to be happy lou...be happy in yourself..after that,things will fall
into place.
failing that..go have a look around at all the suffering around you,homeless
people,ill people etc.
otherwise you will make sure that you will die alone and miserable.
hippocrocamoose
> if he dosent have a girlfriend or a good job then there is no one else to
> blame but himself.
thats not exactly a fair thing to say
if he sorts out his money problems, then he can go out more to places where
he might meet people.
i dont thing he's like the way he is on amp in real life. but he does sound
like he's got some serious depression, and thats not a nice place to be
believe me.
lib
> "The Doctor" <libera...@hotmail.com> wrote in message
> > if he dosent have a girlfriend or a good job then there is no one else
to
> > blame but himself.
>
> thats not exactly a fair thing to say
>
> if he sorts out his money problems, then he can go out more to places
where
> he might meet people.
>
> i dont thing he's like the way he is on amp in real life. but he does
sound
> like he's got some serious depression, and thats not a nice place to be
> believe me.
i actually think he is,even more so.
i think i was refering to lou`s attitude to things,his ways of thinking are
not the norm.
it is a combination of depression and having a form of personality
disorder,one if not kept in check could lead to him acting out.
i.e. in such a way as cause some physical violence toward someone.
even if he had money,that will not change the way he thinks and percive`s
things,he must re-educate his mind into a different way of thinking.
it`s all negative and poor me,people pick up on that..when you hear people
taking about projecting,it`s very true.
if you have a negative attitude and way of thinking people will avoid you.
i am no psychological expert or anything,but i did study at college this
subject for a year before i found my true calling.
lou`s his own worst enemy.
hippocrocamoose
"lib" <libera...@hotmail.com> wrote in > i actually think he is,even
more so.
> i think i was refering to lou`s attitude to things,his ways of thinking
are
> not the norm.
>
> it is a combination of depression and having a form of personality
> disorder,one if not kept in check could lead to him acting out.
> i.e. in such a way as cause some physical violence toward someone.
i don't think he's got it in him, he just feels like he can be a different
person on the net
> even if he had money,that will not change the way he thinks and percive`s
> things,he must re-educate his mind into a different way of thinking.
true, but it's easier to do if you don't have to worry about other stuff,
such as rent, bills, and other debt
lib
>
> "lib" <libera...@hotmail.com> wrote in > i actually think he is,even
> more so.
> > i think i was refering to lou`s attitude to things,his ways of thinking
> are
> > not the norm.
> >
> > it is a combination of depression and having a form of personality
> > disorder,one if not kept in check could lead to him acting out.
> > i.e. in such a way as cause some physical violence toward someone.
>
> i don't think he's got it in him, he just feels like he can be a
different
> person on the net
everyone is capable of violence,everyone.
combined with "issue`s" these tendencies are hightened.
hippocrocamoose
> everyone is capable of violence,everyone.
> combined with "issue`s" these tendencies are hightened.
i know, but i think that in lous case it was more of an attention thing...of
course i don't know him, but it's just what i get from what he's said.
he sounded like he was going to do something to himself more than to anyone
else
lib
> "lib" <libera...@hotmail.com> wrote in message
> > everyone is capable of violence,everyone.
> > combined with "issue`s" these tendencies are hightened.
>
> i know, but i think that in lous case it was more of an attention
thing...of
> course i don't know him, but it's just what i get from what he's said.
> he sounded like he was going to do something to himself more than to
anyone
> else
yes..lou`s threatened to,thus attention seeking,as is most of what he say`s.
if he wanted to kill himself he would just do it and no one would even know
it happened,we would just not see any posts from him again.
lou won`t kill himself,maybe attention seeking attempts at,so he can get
some negative attention from whomever takes him to hospital.
using up resource`s that could be used to treat people who really need it.