Likewise, amiga! I have to admit, though I knew it was coming, it's a lot harder than I thought it would be. I think that's what this is, but with the election at almost the same time, there's a certain inability to tease out which psychic nerve is torturing me the most. It's still early days, though. I hope the fog will start to lift a little. I've been going over old things . . letters, photographs, emails. It helps a bit to remember some great times.
Your life sounds very similar to mine. Quiet and mostly satisfying. I still have the house in Portland where the rent never goes up. It's like a pair of golden handcuffs : ) Pretty happy at my job, too. It's a lot easier to feel good when all you need is a little sunshine. I remember Los Angeles as being more like a siege of sunshine. An unrelenting glare. Ha ha!
I've ALWAYS wanted to see New Mexico. A long walk and hot spring sound delicious. Maybe I can get my act together one of these days and head out your way!