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> This IS the truth - and he just owned up to it to Robert Hedley on
> alt.satanism. This IS the truth. Eat it.
>
> From: John H Shaw-(r) <js...@satanicsupplies.comical>
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> Subject: Honesty, Integrity, Frankness and Candor (Coming Clean)
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> Honesty, Integrity, Frankness and Candor (Coming Clean)
>
> This is my attempt at telling the truth about myself. I feel that many
> here have put up with it long enough and have earned an explanation.
> Today, of all days, I became sick of lying and defending myself from the
> onslaught for no damn reason, whatsoever. I was ashamed of the things I
> have done in the past and I wanted to, somehow, force my fantasies upon
> those that went against me, or something. I really have no excuse. I
> am just sick of it. There are too many things in my life happening for
> the good right now to be using my time keeping track of stories. It
> just wasn t fun anymore, really. I wanted to engage in convos about
> Satanic and/or interesting subjects when I first got here and that is
> what I would like to do now, as well. Here goes:
>
> My name is John Shaw. I have never been one to turn and face my
> problems. I have always pushed them away or hid them deeper inside to
> use when I was pounding
>
> someone s head in or lifting weights. Not anymore. Nobody likes
> their dirty laundry exposed for all to see, but in the time I have
> posted here, I learned very much. I don t care anymore about it.
> Most here are very smart people who I have learned much from, whether
> they know it or not. You will find NO LIES here.
>
> I have been a Satanist since I can remember. I picked up a copy of the
> Satanic Bible and like most, found the words to be all I ever thought
> of. It was amazing to me that one man could have put the words together
> to what I have been feeling all along. I learned that Satanism demands
> study, not worship, so I learn more and more, everyday. You know the
> story anyway, when I learned of the internet, I searched for Satanic
> items and found a very few. I ordered things from Hell s Kitchen,
> only to receive them 8 months later and damaged. I ordered things from
>
satannet.net, only to receive them 6 months later. No lie. So, I
> decided to start SatanicSupplies.com because I was told that I make an
> excellent wall plaque of Baphomet and make excellent candles. I made my
> own and friends I met locally and through the internet. They paid
> shipping and it was my gift to some, etc. Anyway, the suggestion came
> to me and I started it up from what I learned in school about coding
> websites.
>
> I am a High School graduate and I attended a local college for Computer
> Networking and graduated. There, I learned the aspects of networking
> computers and software, such as Win95/98 and Office products. I, then
> attended a University to attain my Bachelor s in Software Engineering.
> I did not complete the course, due to having children and various other
> reasons, not important to the point. I received no degree from that
> university, but I learned much about HTML and Javascript and graphic
> design, which I utilized on many websites I have done.
>
> I, originally, contacted Peter Gilmore with an opportunity for the CoS.
> We spoke on the phone a couple of times and traded much email pertaining
> to SatanicSupplies.com. Most of what he kept talking about was a 10% of
> sales for all Baphomet related items. Inside, I wanted to help the
> organization that the man I admired had founded, but I found Gilmore to
> be ugly about it. After all, the Baphomet was of my own design, which
> he said to have admired. So, I sent some items to Blanche Barton, per
> his request. Some time went by and in my lack of patience, I inquired
> as to what she thought about them, etc. I mean weeks and weeks went by.
> I was excited about starting SatanicSupplies.com, but didn t want to
> step on toes. Two days later, I received the items back, one of them
> broken in half and including a nasty letter from her saying that I said
> some wrongful things to her via email. I have never emailed her, spoke
> to her or even about her, ever before that. I didn t understand. So,
> in my anger and rage, I opened it up and starting selling many items. I
> couldn t believe the orders that came in. 100 s of orders a
> day no lie. I was working hard at filling orders by myself. I,
> regret to admit, that it got out of hand for me. I was busy with other
> companies I had started with friends. I started a sign shop and a knife
> shop. The sign shop went downhill, due to our lack of attention to it.
> We never went out and drummed up business for it. The knife shop
> continues to flourish today, really. Slow, but growing.
>
> Anyway, when I encountered alt.Satanism, I was thrown into the whirlpool
> of onslaughts of insults, etc. The only thing I could think of to do
> was retaliate with crazy stories in a vain attempt at looking important
> or something. That went over like a fart in church. I don t really
> remember anymore. I made up story after story and it got way out of
> hand. I should have just said hello first. I don t know what else to
> say, really. I just want it to stop. Here is a list of things I want
> to address:
>
> 1.. I have no degree or certs other than my degree from the first
> college in Computer Networking, as far as school goes.
> 2.. I never made it to my Bachelor s degree, but it was the program
> I signed up for.
> 3.. Al-Jilwah magazine is not published, yet, but I have 100 s of
> articles and pictures that were submitted for publication. I just
> don t have the funds to devote to the publishing of it, yet. I truly
> want to publish it and have the magazine. Coming soon, right?
> 4.. New Church of Satan has approximately 42 members, no lie. I did
> it in a vain attempt to change what the current CoS was about. I never
> thought ANYONE would join, but those who helped found it. I really
> don t have the time or energy to continue it. I am not the only
> person who started it. The main reason that it wasn t opened up for
> the general public was because I was fighting it inside myself. I knew
> it was wrong to do, but did it anyway. No excuse. I was receiving
> flack for doing it and flack for not doing it. I ve decided, after
> two frickin years, to not do it.
> 5.. I DO have my 2nd degree Black Belt in Jeet Kune Do. That was not
> a lie. I spent most of my life working on my physical appearance and my
> self-defense skills. I attended Chinese Shaolin Kung Fu when I was 12
> years old for about 2 years. I attended Tae Kwon Do when I was 14 for
> about a year and a half. I studied Judo for about 6 months one year at
> the local Boys Club. I went to High School and met some pretty nice
> friends there who introduced me to Jeet Kune Do. I studied with my
> instructor privately, as well as group classes for close to 11 years and
> received my 2nd Degree Black. After that, I studied alone and practiced
> and taught some children and friends through the years. I had two
> friends from the Navy Seals teach me some dirty tricks time and again,
> which were wonderful to know.
> 6.. I never was going to fight in the UFC, although I would like to.
> The reason I made that up was because my friend here signed me up for
> Rage in the Cage. I didn t fight there, though. I always felt I
> needed a reason to hurt someone physically. You know, they had to do
> something to me or my loved ones first, so I may retaliate. I am
> muscular and some say, very intimidating in person, but I am not a
> raging lunatic about it. I work out for the therapy of it, mentally.
> The release. The fatigue. The results, physically, of course, but for
> me and my lady.
> 7.. I never appeared in Pitch Black 2. There was a rumor about me
> doing it, so I went with it. I am a client of one of the local agencies
> in Scottsdale. They blew smoke up my ass about sending my stuff to the
> film company on that movie. Those places don t really do much, though.
> They make you pay $90 and take pics of you and that s it. There was
> a picture of me from that agency on here once.
> 8.. I never posted here anonymously. I always used my computer and
> used my internet service, so my IP always showed it was me. I am aware
> of two instances, that I can remember, where someone spoofed an IP or
> something. I don t know how they did that.
> 9.. I never joined the CoS. I was never a member. I wanted to be a
> member at some time, but never actually sent them 100 skins. I heard
> too many rumors and stories about the goings-on and didn t want to
> lose $100 to an org that may not be in my best interest.
> 10.. We were robbed, but they were not CoS members. I was continuing
> my anger with the CoS, but my hissy fit is over. Done. Many things
> were stolen and broken, etc. That is the reason why we closed up for
> awhile. I have been trying to recover from that for some time. There
> was no insurance. No record with the police station because I was
> sharing the storage with someone that owned some illegal items, which I
> believe, personally, that they were after these items and found some
> Satanic-related things to destroy, in their wonderful christian duty.
> Anyway, we kept our stuff at a local run-o-the-mill storage facility.
> We felt the padlock was good enough not enough, I guess.
> 11.. I do not own my own home. One can only hope that I will in time.
> It s hard with two children and income only sourcing from me and my
> endeavors, however failing or thriving they may be. It never seems to
> be enough, though.
> 12.. I have been in various rock bands throughout my life. That was
> true. I played out in many places up and down the East Coast mostly
> New York and Connecticut. I started rapping when I was 17. I
> literally, have notebooks full of lyrics. Friends of mine say that I
> should make it and want to know why am I not doing anything with it. I
> really just want to sell my lyrics and not have to do any touring, etc.
> I never wanted to get caught up in that life.
> 13.. I sold drugs. I was arrested for selling drugs, yes. I never
> spent one minute in a jail cell or prison cell, though. It was my first
> offense and I had a wonderful lawyer. Drugs were not found on my person
> and I had a concealed weapons permit for my gun. I made many mistakes
> in life, yes, like most who live on this planet. I was never proud of
> doing it, but I knew many people and saw them buying all kinds of drugs,
> so I said to myself that they should be buying it from me, then. I made
> a lot of money doing it, but the party was over 9 years ago. Since
> then, I left my old neighborhood and supposed friends behind and moved
> here to start a new life. I, currently, do not use drugs and haven t
> for 9 years. I went to the colleges mentioned above and begat two
> beautiful daughters. My lady is my best friend. Yes, her name is
> Marlene. I made a website for a clinic that her father was a practicing
> physician at.
> Look, I m not proud of some things that I did in my life. We live and
> we learn. I am proud of many things in my life, as well. All this is
> for is to set the record straight. Now, we can go from there, instead
> of being caught in a stagnant conversation about the same story over and
> over, if anyone would like to. I deserve most of what I get from some
> people here, I guess.
>
> I apologize to certain people here that I may have wrongfully attacked.
> Most were right about me in some ways.
>
> This is not an attempt to sweep it under the rug if anyone wants to
> address anything I ve said, that s fine, by all means, please do.
> I m not running off somewhere I ll be right here, where I always
> was. I just wanted to be in touch with other Satanists and engage in
> some intelligent conversations. That blew up in my face like a
> cardhouse in the wind! I m not playing a victim, either. All that
> has happened to me was because I allowed it to happen to me. The fault
> is mine. My friends here were putting me up to a lot of the things I
> said here. They thought it to be a big joke and it was all supposed to
> be here, but got out of hand and the only one suffering was me, not
> them. No more of that crap. Yes, Jason Shank is a real person who used
> to reside next door to me, but no longer lives here and I no longer have
> contact with him, since he moved. His real name is Jason Shannon. I
> attended the University mentioned above with him and told him about the
> low-priced apartment complex in Scottsdale. That may have been a
> mistake, as he did not pay his last month s rent before he left. I
> nick-named him Shank in school because of his pencil. It was made of
> steel.
>
> Anyway, I only hope that people here can forgive me for being such an
> ass the past two years here. If not, I fully understand. I am simply
> happy that I do not have to lie or exaggerate any longer. The weight is
> lifted!
>
> John Shaw
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> news:VA.000011c...@earthlink.net...
> > In article <Bt2Zc.3726$
w%6....@newsread1.news.pas.earthlink.net>, Peachy
> > > news:VA.000011b...@earthlink.net...
> >
> > > Nothing I have done is unMasonic.
> >
> > I see. So the profanity and all you just consider to be.... what?
> >
> > A good example for those seeking to learn about the fraternity perhaps?
> >
> > > > > > > Also, I am not "playing with my little friends" in alt.s,
kiddo.
> I
> > > > > > > am retorting to lies spread about me by jealous and
> troublemaking
> > > > > > > children with no lives.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > And acting JUST LIKE them, I'd note. (Any _real_ Masons
disagree?)
> > > > >
> > > > > Yes, me.
> > > >
> > > > I've yet to see any REAL Masons disagree, Mr. Shaw.
> > >
> > > I am a real Mason and trust me, many disagree.
> >
> > Strange. Where have they posted that disagreement?
> >
> > I've seen several here AGREEING that your behavior is infantile and
> > inappropriate but NONE (I'll repeat: NONE!) come to your defense.
> >
> > Is there some post I've missed perhaps?
> >
> > Would you like to create a pseudonym to post on your team perhaps?
> >
> > > > > > > By the looks of your website,. it would seem that you know
> EXACTLY
> > > > > > > what I mean.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Oh, and I also have a page about "Our Black Sheep" which seems
> like a
> > > > > > PERFECT fit for you, Mr. Shaw.
> > > > >
> > > > > Of course it does. Anytime anyone disagrees with you , you act
like
> a
> > > > > child and bitch and moan about them on your little website.
> > > >
> > > > Again, more adult behavior exhibited.
> > >
> > > ditto.
> >
> > As above....
> >
> > <snip>
> >
> > > > > Now, get back to your little website, so when I see my name on it,
I
> > > > > can TAKE IT DOWN.
> > > >
> > > > WOW! Orders and threats too. VERY impressive.
> > >
> > > That's not a threat. That is a promise. If I see my name on your
> website
> > > without my permission, I will most definitely have the whole site
taken
> > > down, while under investigation.
> >
> > Oh, really. And just exactly how do you propose to do THAT?
> >
> > > > Just so I can be sure that I have the correct information, perhaps
you
> > > > would like to verify a few facts:
> > > > 1) You are/were a Satanist? From when to when?
> > >
> > > Never.
> >
> > Some amplification is needed here:
> >
> > Have you ever *claimed* that you were a Satanist?
> >
> > > > 2) You own/owned a store selling satanic supplies? From when to
> when?
> > >
> > > From 1999-2001
> >
> > But you don't own it now?
> >
> > Why do you have a website that deals with Satanism then?
> >
> > > > 3) You joined Freemasonry when?
> > >
> > > I was Raised in 2004.
> >
> > So when you told us how all of your "Brothers" and all of the Grand
Lodge
> > officers there in Arizona were so very familiar with you and this whole
> > situation, this all has occurred in the past eight months?
> >
> > > > Here's your chance to 'set the record straight' as you so frequently
> whine
> > > > about wanting to do. Please set forth ALL of the "facts" so that all
> can
> > > > make an intelligent judgement on this.
> > >
> > > You tend to whine, yourself, so...
> >
> > Your opinion is duly noted. However, I'm attempting to sort out the
> > information relating to YOU, Mr. Shaw.
> >
> > Feel free to start a separate discussion about my whining if it pleases
> you.
> >
> > Ed King
> >
> >
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> >
> > Internet newsgroup posting. Copyright 2004. All rights reserved.
> >
> >
>
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