This is ALSO a "40th anniversary" of sorts, but of a much darker nature. This is the day when, 40 years ago (Friday, in 1981) I was talking with Gina over the phone (rather than in person, BIG mistake!!) and rather than "picking up and improving" from the evening of the 15th, instead she said, "I want you to forget it," which absolutely CRUSHED me nearly to the point of suicide. My way OUT of that dark spiral was to figure: [rather than kill myself, why not make her THINK I'm killing myself, and THEN see how she feels about me.] So my "buddy" (Larry) and I worked together on a scheme (of my devising. He actually asked me, "Are you SURE you want to do this?") that used the phone (which back in those days had NO caller ID nor call return) to give her the impression that I was suffering horribly somewhere.
Her concern was evident at that point, but like a mind-twisting bully, I sent Larry to check up on her, to make sure she didn't jump out her 7th floor window or anything. Seriously, I could NOT have been more stupid and cruel than I was back then. She ended up bonding with him over this, and I ended up feeling as bad as a human ever could. Trying to recover from that night is what cost me 40 years of emotional and spiritual re-education of myself. SUCH a long road of recovery! I'll know that path has come to its conclusion once she and I are married in Holy Wedlock (after all, "..with God, ALL things are possible." Matthew 19:26.) Meanwhile, I sent her a "Happy Anniversary" card via her entire city, which you can see half-way down the page on the right-hand side at: https://tinyurl.com/TorontoStar-40th
—— which may explain at least ONE of the dreams I had last night....
The dreamer was aware of a "tense" / "suspenseful" / situation, in something akin to a bedroom or possibly utility room OR office, with an adjacent hallway, but not much was “seen” as the dreamer’s gaze was *downward* by about 45°— this dream had that “split time” feeling, as if scene A took place from perspective 1, while scene B took place as if at the same location, but either in a different “time stream” OR from a different person’s perspective. If you think this is confusing from a reader’s perspective, just try to imagine what it was like for the dreamer!
In “scene A,” the dreamer *felt* like he was carrying a knife, about the size and shape of a Chef’s knife, typically the largest knife in a kitchen other than the slightly longer, much narrower bread knife (webstaurantstore.com/guide/538/types-of-knives.html
). There was a “threat” in the air, so to speak (one typically has no feeling of “air” in a dream, but it was “sensed” overall) one of “kill or be killed” and the dreamer made some type of forward, right-hand / arm motion and quickly drew his arm / hand back to his body as THAT scene immediately reset into “scene B,” wherein the dreamer in THIS case felt much more “feminine” in nature. Let’s say “less strong, definitely on the timid side,” and cautious. “She” (?) proceeded in the SAME DIRECTION the previous dreamer had been moving, from inside the room, toward the hallway, observing that there were 3 or 4 drops of blood on the floor. They were perfectly round (“gravitational”?) with no indication of inertia— they weren’t “spilling forward” in the direction of someone running. The dreamer was just about to make it out of the room into the hallway, when a feeling of “What IF?” (like, “what IF the killer was just outside?” but not fully articulated as a coherent thought) nearly “swamped” the “feeling” of the dream, and the dream ended. I (personally) awoke with a feeling of terror running through my “soul” (my body was still coming to from having been asleep) but I quickly “countered” it with the thought / mantra / key of “love thine enemies,” which restored a sense of pure calm and “grace” if you will. (Love is Love, and #OnlyLoveCreatesUnity, whereas grace reflects duality, such that grace is something “extended” from A to B.) Tinyurl.com/itta-topic-Ud gives a bit more explanation to the “Unity/duality” (unary/binary) nature of the Universe.
This would’ve been clarity 9+++ except for the dim lighting and lack of details regarding the room and hallway, bringing it all down to around 8-, however, that feeling of terror was *unmistakable*! Historical note: this COULD (and may *well* likely) have been a consequence of the rising knife jihad that’s been spreading all over the world, notably in Britain, where a beloved minister was killed (knifed / martyred) at a “meet & greet”:
British Conservative "Sir David Amess : Tory MP killed in murder 'linked to Islamist extremism',after he was stabbed 'more than a dozen' times. Arrest of British Muslim of Somali descent, 25. : Amess backed Black Lives Matter movement in America in 2020 amid widespread rioting and demanded Britain not provide any riot gear to help our police.whom he said committed "murder" in the death of George Floyd.
The world will likely see an increase in knife jihad up through and until around July of 2024, when / where Armageddon is scheduled to break out. (Read your Bible, last Book, “The Revelation of Saint John”.)
Another historical note as of today:
Oct 02, 2021 -
Oct 08, 2021
Suicide Blasts 2
"Islamic terrorists have carried out more than 40,226 Deadly Terror Attacks since 9/11" (thereligionofpeace.com
In another dream, there appeared to be at least 3 somewhat larger houses. Not the small boxes you may see while traveling down an urban street, but more like something along a rural setting, possibly coastal, where homes are practically the size of a hardware / general store. My home’s original footprint (IRL) is *roughly* 28’ wide (I just stepped it off outdoors) with around ~1700 square feet. The houses in these dreams were easily twice the size (around 60’ x ?) and two stories. The distinguishing feature of all 3 of them was that they were “flipped over” so that each building’s “footprint” (bottom edge, typically that which sets upon the foundation of a home) was showing, theoretically, in some manner designed to attract buyers. (Size as a selling attribute, perhaps?) No clue. Clarity somewhere around 7+, as it *may* have simply been some kind of “quantum, alternate universe” where people really *could* flip homes over as advertising. OR it could have been a veiled reference to “flipping homes,” in which case it could get into the clarity 8 classification.
In something of an unusual dream, the dreamer was viewing (although it feels like participating!) in a scene wherein someone (a guy? The dreamer?) was in a boat similar to a canoe. The bow (front end) of the boat seemed to be of a type of fluted shape with a hole beneath it. (As I type this, a particular, somewhat unpleasant phallic variation comes to mind.) There was some kind of “shifting” of this boat from a south-to-north orientation of about 45°—80° to the west (left, nearly a full quarter-turn.) There was some type of objective involving some type of [pet fish] as if the fish had gotten loose and was in the water to the left, and the boat / canoe was structured so that when it lowered back upon the water (it had lifted up above the water’s surface in order to turn) the fish was taken back within the hole on the bottom of the canoe. How, exactly, this hole allowed the fish IN but did NOT cause the canoe to sink was not immediately apparent within the dream, but IF this is a “spiritual dream” with analogies to “capturing a fish” as much like “picking a soul” to incarnate upon the earth (through procreation) then this whole thing makes a LOT more sense. Clarity 9-, as the “understanding” of what it COULD represent only became apparent during the transcription process of writing it down. Otherwise, it was likely 7 (symbolic) or 8- (meaning unclear, yet somewhat “in color.”)