for the abstract

[Jeremy H. Donovan]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lyux-sEdlbg

I hear the drizzle of the rain
It's falling from my window
And in the corners of my mind
I hope that I'll get to see you again

I hear the colors in the flowers
Just like the candle snuffed at dawn
You're here, you're near, you're there
and then you're gone

Suffering in sinking sand
All the hurt
See, I'm really lost, baby
We suffered a rare, rare blue
So much hurt
On this earth
But you loved me
And I really dared to love you, too
Perhaps what I mean to say is
Is that it's amazing that your love was mine

Oh, Maker, tell me did you know
This love would burn so yellow?
Becoming orange and, in its time
Explode from grey to black then bloody wine

Oh, Maker, have you ever loved
Or known just what it was?
I can't imagine the bitter end
Of all the beauty that we're living in

Suffering in sinking sand
All the hurt
See, I'm really lost, baby
We suffered a rare, rare blue
So much hurt
On this earth
But you loved me
And I really dared to love you, too
Perhaps what I mean to say is
Is that it's amazing that your love was mine

Lost inside a lonely world where lovers pay the price
Barely get the sound of music to love and go dance to
Now it's time for us to go and no one ever has to know
Your love's in my pocket and your eyes, eyes are in my...
Eyes in my soul, no one will know it but me

.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cPmuuo7G0l0

Inflation. Of a need, a life, a cosmos?

.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XRs1GES7LcM

An epic journey.* Final thanks to all who came along.
.
.
.

Great Circus


The dirty canvas is arriving
The great human circus
With the clown's hunger
And the crazy ballerina
Let's celebrate
The rib that will break
On the trapeze is nonsense
The little misery

Right in the middle of this arena
it's going to happen -
death, glory
and surprises at the end
Silver and moon. bread and circus
a smile will be drawn
In the bitterness of this party -
along with this party

Up and down the mountain
The great human circus
On your back, on your thin shoulder
carrying, silver and moonlight
The mystery that will show itself
On the balance wire, on the rising sun
Dream awaits the great human circus -
a broken heart, a human circus
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

* "Gran Circo," by Milton Nascimento, delves into the themes of the human condition, poverty, and the allure of entertainment in the face of struggle. The song paints a vivid picture of a circus, both literal and metaphorical, showcasing the various characters and emotions within.

The opening lines describe the arrival of a worn-out circus, symbolizing the hardships and struggles of humanity. The "palhaço" (clown) embodies the hunger and desperation often hidden behind a mask of laughter, while the "bailarina louca" (crazy ballerina) represents a sense of chaos and unpredictability. Despite these challenges, there is a call to celebrate and embrace the impending spectacle.

The chorus highlights the significance of "Pão e circo" (bread and circus), a phrase derived from ancient Rome, which suggests that people can be distracted and pacified through entertainment and material benefits, even in the midst of suffering. The combination of "prata e lua" (silver and moon) implies the allure and glamour associated with the circus, creating a momentary escape from the bitter realities of life.

The lyrics speak of the circus as a platform for intense emotions and experiences, with the promise of both glory and death. The line "Coração partido circo humano" (A broken heart, a human circus) conveys the idea that the circus is a microcosm of human existence, filled with both joy and sorrow.

Furthermore, the references to the trapeze and tight-rope walking symbolize the fragile balance between success and failure, and the precariousness of life itself. The "sonho" (dream) that waits for the human circus suggests that hope and aspirations endure even in the face of adversity.

"Gran Circo" ultimately reflects on the complex relationship between entertainment, poverty, and the spirit. It reminds us that even amidst hardship, there is a desire for escape, celebration, and the fleeting moments of joy found within the grand spectacle of life.

This meaning interpretation was written by AI.

LOL. A little lost in translation?

Adios adc

.

[slider]

### - how odd, both you & crsds drop farewell notices on the same day??

his post only showing up on google so am unable to reply directly...

the answers are, however, the same in both instances:

"you can check-out any time ya like
but you(s) can never leave" ;)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=egMWlD3fLJ8

"head out on the highway..."

[Jeremy H. Donovan]

I had wondered if anyone would respond.
I'm not sure when they're cutting off posting,
except that it was announced as "February 22".
(Why Chris and I said bye on the same day.)

Of course you're still the WILD guy.
And I do like that Steppenwolf song!
Yet it's not quite my favorite.
Since I'm still the DILD guy. :)

In 1969, I was attending junior high school, and after school
I often went to a local pizza joint run by a real Italian family.
I'd go in by myself and order the cheapest thing they had -
a small cheese pizza - and I'd sit in the very back, smoking,
but before the pizza was ready, I'd go over to the jukebox,
put in a dime, and play my favorite - this song:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HPE9a_epmWw

What feels weird is how I must have done that, I don't know,
like 15 times or more, and yet now I can't ever do it again.
Unless at the fourth gate of dreaming I was to dream
that same little Italian pizza joint and jukebox. LOL.
I'm pretty sure I won't ever do that either.

So maybe we can't leave, Slider,
but we can't come back either.

"I like to dream..."

.

I think I still have time to type some more, so I'm going to tell
one more story - a story I only learned the ending to... today.

For many years, I had been proud of the fact that I had never in
my entire life been sued by anyone, nor had I ever sued another.
Even my divorce in 1995 was fully uncontested, for I had once
worked in a quickie divorce office where you can get paperwork
done for $68 plus a $35 filing fee, and that's just how we did it.
No lawyers, full amicable agreement on all terms. Cost: $103.

Anyway, I had long been proud of having never been sued.

Then last year, an 'atmospheric river' storm came through LA,
with a great deal of rain and high winds, and it blew over one of
our huge beautiful old trees, and the tree fell on the fence between
our house and a neighbor's house, also barely grazing part of our
neighbor's roof. We don't actually own the property we live on,
so we contacted the management company and put in a ticket in
to have the tree removed and the fence repaired. The same storm
even blew over the little picket fence around our immediate yard,
and our company agreed to rebuild that fence for us as well.

Our neighbor kept texting back and forth with my partner about it.
My partner setup tickets for them in the company system and was
very responsive, and yet the company hired a contractor to inspect
our neighbor's roof that was NOT responsive. And within four days
this guy, who we already knew was a jerk, threatened to sue US.
We'd told him we didn't even own the tree (it really barely did any
damage to his roof that I could see). But he kept swearing he was
going to take us to court, and a few months later the guy put
an unstamped letter in our mailbox requesting payment of $2500.
He even sat in his car on the street a couple of times watching
while I came down and got the mail, I guess so he'd know I got
the little letters he was sending? He had gone to the trouble of
having some of them drawn up by a lawyer that was his friend.
My partner called this lawyer and tried to talk sense into him,
but no dice. He insisted that unless we paid we'd all go to court.

Meanwhile, our management company, which fully repaired the
fence between us, and fully cleaned up all the trees bordering
our properties, also submitted the guy's roof bill to their insurance.
But their insurance said they would not pay for our neighbor's roof
because the tree falling was 'an act of God' and THEIR insurance
should cover that part of it. Of course that made jerkyboy furious.

The thing hung in the wind for months, and then the guy started
trying to have us served to appear in court. Our place is kind of
insular so they never succeeded in serving anyone here, but there
had been a court date set. Our management company tried to
get the court to drop the case, but couldn't do it and so eventually
we all had to go to court, a lady from our management company,
and both of us. But when we got there we found that the guy
had at the last minute requested a postponement for a month.
So we all went to the courthouse for nothing, and the thing
was held over our heads for yet another month.

We finally went to small claims court and made our arguments.
The guy ranted and raved in a highly speculative way about how
we supposedly hadn't cared for the trees properly, but our company
had records of every time they'd trimmed the big trees, and my
partner had a record of all the texts showing how cooperative
she'd been and what a dick he'd been. (He had addressed me
in his attempts to collect by a name that isn't even my real name,
which was really a joke name my partner had put on a magazine
subscription, which proved that he got my name by going through
our mailbox, which is illegal.) And we submitted evidence proving
the tree fell the very day of the big LA atmospheric river storm.
It turned out he'd sued our company using the wrong name too.

But only today did we finally hear the verdict of the silly case.
It was ruled that our jerky neighbor gets... nothing. So this dude
had sweat this dumb thing for a solid year, paid to file the case,
paid money to try to have us served three times, and before she
cut him off had ranted and raved rudely in texts to my partner.
I had simply ignored him completely the whole time. We had
never spoken a word in all the years we'd been neighbors.
Still haven't, and probably never will. Knock on wood.

But he broke the 'record' I was so proud of, dammit.
I got sued because a tree in my yard fell down.
Pride went before a fall, I'd have to observe.
It's amazing the useless things people do that
go on and on forever. Remind you of anything? :)

Well, this is the last useless thing I'll ever do here.

"Not Guilty"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=84MOwegIxT0

.

[slider]

Jeremy wrote...

>> > Adios adc

>> ### - how odd, both you & crsds drop farewell notices on the same day??
>>
>> his post only showing up on google so am unable to reply directly...
>>
>> the answers are, however, the same in both instances:
>>
>> "you can check-out any time ya like
>> but you(s) can never leave" ;)
>>
>> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=egMWlD3fLJ8
>>
>> "head out on the highway..."
>
> I had wondered if anyone would respond.
> I'm not sure when they're cutting off posting,
> except that it was announced as "February 22".
> (Why Chris and I said bye on the same day.)
>
> Of course you're still the WILD guy.
> And I do like that Steppenwolf song!
> Yet it's not quite my favorite.
> Since I'm still the DILD guy. :)

### - didn't you 'ever' try it? peeps is raving about it if the feedback's
anything to go by...

https://www.thewildway.com/files/reviews.htm

even chriso finally cracked it and he's as indolent as shit lol, as you'll
see on there

> In 1969, I was attending junior high school, and after school
> I often went to a local pizza joint run by a real Italian family.
> I'd go in by myself and order the cheapest thing they had -
> a small cheese pizza - and I'd sit in the very back, smoking,
> but before the pizza was ready, I'd go over to the jukebox,
> put in a dime, and play my favorite - this song:
>
> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HPE9a_epmWw
>
> What feels weird is how I must have done that, I don't know,
> like 15 times or more, and yet now I can't ever do it again.
> Unless at the fourth gate of dreaming I was to dream
> that same little Italian pizza joint and jukebox. LOL.
> I'm pretty sure I won't ever do that either.

### - via a wild you 'could' actually call-up that whole pizza scene
exactly as it then was, people, jukebox and all, and actually revisit it
again, even old dreams can be re-called/revisited this way, not that you'd
prolly want to, am just sayin', and no 4th gate required :)

> So maybe we can't leave, Slider,
> but we can't come back either.

### - and am tellin' ya nada's actually changed except access via google :)

### - well maybe 'that' will teach ya to go around being/feeling 'proud'
about stuff huh, but not all is lost there, his case didn't succeed and
was thrown out, your record remaining unblemished (it bounced-off, cool,
you're a teflon-don already)

and coz it's only google that's stopping people posting to groups from the
22nd, the newsgroups themselves will still all be here after today,
including adc...

so now don't you (and mr chips both) perhaps feel a little silly?

remind you of anything?? (really laffing haha, things haven't changed)

meaning: all ya's need would be some sorta free mail/news-reader client
instead of coming through google...

e.g., borrowed this next passage from alt-magick just now rather than type
it all out:

"It is only the Google Groups portal to this newsgroup that
is getting shut down, which will mean less spam. You
can still access this newsgroup via a newsreader such
as Agent on Windows, Hogwasher on Mac, Pan on Linux,
or the free Thunderbird (even if you don’t also use it for
email) on all three, accessing a free newsserver such
as Eternal September or Solani, or, if you want binary
access, a paid newsserver such as Giganews."

***

e.g., 'Eternal september' is what have been personally using as a
newsserver (only requires a genuine email address which isn't revealed
when posting, and a minimum usage of say once per month to remain active)
and a free 'Opera Mail' as a news-client, although i also have a free
'Thunderbird Mail client' too as backup...

smile, so it looks like the universe/infinity whatever is just having its
little joke with you, dragging you's both back here under false pretenses
to say goodbye when nada but google access is changing haha

it's really quite funny don't you think? it forced your hand...

i mean, whoever said the universe is without any humour huh :)

anyhoo, am kinda glad you ain't dead anyway (i did wonder a couple times)

ain't been a lot happening there being so few of us, but the gang's still
here

and it got you here didn't it, so welcome back lol :)

(for effect slider gently twangs jeremy's big rubber band that's
apparently still attached)

haha :)