Ever feel like you're being kicked in the head?

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Life Stinks

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Sep 29, 2004, 3:05:59 AM9/29/04
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Me too


Nothing

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Sep 29, 2004, 3:49:46 AM9/29/04
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> Me too


Why? Did some (censored) (censored) dump you too?

Life Stinks

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Sep 30, 2004, 7:38:06 PM9/30/04
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"Nothing" <not...@nevermind.flesh> wrote in message
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>> Me too
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> Why? Did some (censored) (censored) dump you too?

No, not really. It never got that far.

The problem is I am a coward. I always have been. I was 30 years old before
I had my first date. 30 years old before I kissed a woman, 30 years old
before I had sex for the first time. 30 years old before I felt loved by a
woman.

It's not that I didn't like girls growing up, au contrare. I used to wonder
what it would be like to date, to kiss, to hold hands, to be in love. I used
to envy my friends (the few that I had). I was, and still am a coward.

I was always picked last to play baseball, I was the kid that everyone loved
to pick on. I wore glasses and my hands shook when I was nervous. I was the
butt of all jokes, and I never stood my ground. Never fought back, always
looked for a way out.

I can't count the nights that I would lay in my bed, thinking about how
things could be, wondering how things might have turned out, hoping against
hope that there was a chance, wondering if I was trying hard enough, or if I
was trying too hard, crying myself to sleep.

Yet I never had the guts to tell her how I really felt about her. I never
could tell her that I really loved her.. We would talk about her boyfirends,
and I would wish her the best of luck, but deep inside I was envious. Hoping
against hope that somehow, some way, things might change.

I am a coward, but I am still human. I want to be in love, want to be loved.
I want to be happy, spending the rest of my life with someone I love, and
someone who loves me. I want a family, but I fear it is too late for that. I
envy my sister and her three children and the life she has with them and her
husband.

I guess I got what I deserved.

Nothing

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Oct 1, 2004, 2:10:23 AM10/1/04
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Everyone feels that way.
The one thing that life has taught me.. is everything ends. It really
makes it seem like dreaming about and getting any of that stuff .. is
pretty worthless .. after time or in the end. The end sucks.

I want a family, but I fear it is too late for that. I
> envy my sister and her three children and the life she has with them and her
> husband.

Everyone feels that way .. some people are just too stupid or stuck up
to realize or admit it.

Also .. other people and time ruin dreams.. :(

> I guess I got what I deserved.

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Captain Crane

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Oct 1, 2004, 5:38:08 AM10/1/04
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awwww wahhhhhh whaaaaaaaa see a psychiatrist and take some prozac ...
Talk about your problems to a gay man as they love to listen to your
crap.... and after they have listen to your whinning crap - ITS FUDGE
PACKING TIME !!!!!

ITS GOOD TO BE THE KING - MEL BROOKS.....

Life Stinks

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Oct 1, 2004, 7:26:10 PM10/1/04
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"Captain Crane" <SeaVi...@webtv.net> wrote in message
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Thanks for the encouragement. I think I'll slit my wrists and be done with
it.


Nothing

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Oct 2, 2004, 5:37:25 AM10/2/04
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> > awwww wahhhhhh whaaaaaaaa see a psychiatrist and take some prozac ...
> > Talk about your problems to a gay man as they love to listen to your
> > crap.... and after they have listen to your whinning crap - ITS FUDGE
> > PACKING TIME !!!!!
> >
> > ITS GOOD TO BE THE KING - MEL BROOKS.....
>
> Thanks for the encouragement. I think I'll slit my wrists and be done with
> it.


Naw.. think positive. Things will look up sooner than later .. and
then hopefully someone will slice Captain Stupid in half.

That's win/win!!

Captain Crane

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Oct 3, 2004, 5:07:51 PM10/3/04
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Nothing here is your chance too " Slice me in half" Like you said....
Let both of us meet at DisneyLAnd - Seaview and Nothing and anyone else
on the NET. We could meet and Discuss our differences in line on the
Indiana Jones Ride... Who knows we may turn out to be friends. Think
about it nothing... Dont be scared ... You name the Date , Time and
Place and I and people on the NET can join us and we can discuss any
problems while waiting in line... Let us all know Nothing.
Nothing Vs Seaview in Line on the Indiana Jones Ride - Be there !!!!

Captain Crane

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Oct 9, 2004, 4:38:04 PM10/9/04
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NOTHING has not reponded because he is a Chicken.... Let's me NOTHING
Face to FACE.... THE GOOD ... THE BAD.... and the UGLY....

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