GOING THROUGH CHANGES(PLEASE READ NEED HELP/ADVICE)
Taylor
live in middle GA. I'm going to give a brief summary of what has been
happening to me starting from the beginning. As a child i have always
been so fascinated by psychics, UFOs, phenomenons of all sorts. I was/
am big into animals, saving them, nurturing them. I wasn't afraid of
any animal. I would pick rattlesnakes up and give them to my mother at
the age of 7. I always felt as if the animals knew i wouldn't hurt
them. When i was 15 was went into a critical coma. It was so bad that
my family and the doctors thought it was best to pull the plug on me
since both of my brain hemispheres were severely damage with water and
swelling and my liver was the size of a half dollar they thought there
was no way i could even be alive let alone recover and be any where
near okay. But the day they were suppose to say goodbye to me the
doctors checked me and it was as if i completely did a 360 degree turn
around. My liver had regrew itself and my brain swelling went down
tremendously. That all happened over night and about 3 days later i
was starting to wake up. I am truly a miracle. I have recovered fully
but since then i have had about 3 or 4 "visions" of things before they
happen. And also in the coma i remember seeing nothing but white light
and hearing people telling me it was okay and that it is not my time
yet and that I need to take care of some people. I also saw wind/fire/
ice/water and pretty much what I interpreted it as the earth ending i
guess i would say. I am now about to be 19 years old and about 4
months ago i dropped 10-13 pounds in weight for no reason. After the
weight issues came inflammation of the gums(gingivitis) along with
irregular menstrual cycles, rashes/bumps in my scalp, loss if
appetite, nasuea, shortness of breath and increased heart rate, bad
lower bad pains but mostly importantly really bad hair loss some days
more than others. I really thought i had hyperthyroidism but got
tested and I was negative. Well about one month ago maybe a little
more i started seeing hawks everywhere. I mean everywhere. They flew
so close above me one almost hit my head. They circle around my house.
If I'm traveling on the road i will look up and one will be there. One
time i was in the passenger seat of my friend SUV and i saw a hawk on
a fence it flew off and flew along beside my window. Then i new
something was up. This is not there normal behavior. I identified them
as Red Tailed Hawks. I now know that they are what i think my guardian
angel/spirit guide. I feel like they are trying to tell me something
or relay a message to me. (My grandmother also saw hawks too mostly
before something bad was going to happen.) Also pretty much as long as
i can remember i have always especially at night felt like someone or
something or eyes are watching me. A couple of weeks ago i had a dream
that didn't feel like a dream of 4 skinny black shadowy(i don't think
they were the color black just a shadow of them) 2 on the side of my
bed and 2 at the foot. I was scared at first then they told me but
never actually spoke that things are okay don't be scared and then i
felt my body being lifted and i was stuck together floating about a
foot over my bed. I remember seeing my partner in the corner of my eye
still asleep it was almost as if time froze. I asked them to take me
because for some reason i feel a strong strong connection to them but
they said they couldn't because of my partner. I never understood that
part. And then i woke up wide awake for some reason questioning if
that was really a dream. I have read this site over and over and i
tried to stay calm last night because i could feel their presence but
i never saw them i did wake up in the middle of the night 2 times
within 3 hours of them selves. I have trouble sleeping at night and i
have trouble remember lots of things. I am in tuned to my "higher-
self" i do talk to "them" and i use a personal Psychic board. But for
some reason i feel like i am on a mission and that i will soon figure
out what that mission is. Sometimes i feel like it is forbidden to
talk about UFOs or things relating to other terrestrials. I feel like
i need to tell people to be more aware of the earth and what we are
doing to it. I hear a humming noise in my ears sometimes only in one.
But i don't feel as if i was ever hurt by star people or "aliens" i
feel as if i have a family sense connection to them i guess i would
say. But the main thing is i feel like i don't belong here on earth
but with them. I was just wondering if anyone has any advice to give
me to help me understand a little better. After what you've read if
you have had something similar please respond to me. I would really
like to hear. I'm going to try the mediation and other advice that is
on this site. But like i said if you have anything you think would be
beneficial for me to hear please respond to me or email me.
Thanks.
Taylor
bonniejeanmitchell
Welcome to the forum. You have had an interesting life so far, but
just wait! We are all going through a transformation going into 2012.
People are starting to wake up to who they really are, and when we
wake up, we finally have the opportunity to take complete control over
our lives. We are literally using our thoughts to make things happen.
My husband John and I are doing this every day -- we focus on what we
need, give it some thought, and it soon comes to pass. And now that we
are in the transformation process of spiritual ascension, manifesting
your thoughts becomes easier and faster. So be aware of your thoughts.
We are also experiencing a lot of varied aches and pains due to many
things, but mostly due to the transformation of our DNA and the move
into our light bodies. There's a real good chance the problems you are
having are only temporary and will subside as you progress and heal
yourself. This won't take long now. All you have to do is be happy and
your vibrational frequency will naturally attune itself to the new
Earth frequencies and higher consciousness.
I also recognize the hawk as a messenger.The hawk is telling you to
pay close attention to what is going on around you. Maybe you should
meditate and focus on being more aware. Pay close attention to
details. John and I see the red-tailed hawks all the time, they're so
beautiful.
It is not forbidden to talk about UFO's, in fact, we encourage that
kind of talk around here! However, I know what you mean -- that
feeling you get of not wanting to go too deep and not push the
boundary too far. And, yes, you might feel like the aliens don't want
you to tell anyone because it's some kind of secret. Well, it's not a
secret anymore, everyone's talking about alien abduction now. So don't
be afraid. :-)
What kind of personal psychic board are you using? You need to put up
some very strong protections around yourself to be doing that, at this
time especially. There are many lower level entities that love to suck
people's energy out of them and sometimes latch on for a while, so
please use precaution.
Please feel free to post anything you'd like here.
Many Blessings, Bonnie
OmegaFox09
"Visitors". Like Angels, Guides, Higher Spirits, etc, the ETs have
many ways of contacting an individual. I myself am still waiting for
that day alas :''(. So i take my search in another approach...but
is...questionable. Ask them what their purpose is the next time you
"feel" their presence. Whether it be visual, energy, physical
telepathy or such. Ask anyways.
As for your connection, you're not alone. I feel that my Soul is not
"human". Am i certain 100%, no...but it's just what i feel. If you
want to be 'taken' to some place, ask them to do it astrally. That way
your body is resting on our realm. But make sure you are UNDISTURBED!
Nothing worse than a partner finding a cold body next to you. Your
partner may not be ready to accept such an experience if it may help.
If you feel this was a dream, it sure was/is a powerful one. What do
YOU feel though? Listen to your intuition.
Do you protect yourself when using a spirit board? If so, do you close
the "portal" properly?
Also, you're not the only one who feels they are on a "mission" of
some sorts. I feel like i'm on a mission myself, but not by any
instruction from anyone. Although that would be kinda cool i guess
(you can read some of my posts). As people adamantly tell me...be
patient.
In regards to finding like-minded people...I am VERY..erm cautious
when talking to hum---er people. Feel the energy around that person. I
call it "scanning". To scan the energy of an individual to see if i
can trust them with my own information of my"Personal Mission of the
Stars". Although i have a MASSIVE psychic block...i can do what i can
do for now. However, try to figure out a way that's not too direct or
too vague. Tell them something like: "Be aware of what lies beyond our
own world for their are forces we don't want to know but most
certainly exist", or something like this direct quote from Hamlet:
"There are more things in heaven and earth, <enter name>,
Than are dreamt of in your philosophy." The mind is limted to
receiving but the soul can know no boundries. Although in my personal
opinion, we could use a lot more contactees standing up and actually
do something. The earth's physical changes are coming soon and i feel
humans are progressing MUCH too slowly. It's soon going to be too
late. *shrugs*
A family connection huh? Well, i feel like i'm starting to
(re)discover this feeling myself. Recently i just can't bring myself
to connect to my own family as of now...I've tried to find help, but i
feel as if no one will listen (properly) or if they do, they would
rather "fix" me and tell me everything's ok...I don't need to be
fixed...i need to be understood. Sure the earth is a great place in
terms of fauna and flora...but the humans...i'm feel like i'm
balancing on top of a sword. I want to help, but i have no one to turn
to. Help is truly rare for me, but for some reason i keep on looking.
I have never been contacted by a real ET or any physical contact. I
think i may have been checked out by a Gray once astrally, but
again...was it a real gray just a wee bit curious? I've had about 3
dreams involving grays and felt no fear...well except for one. But
again...no real validation to satisfy ego and spirit. Anyways, back to
family...this is a recent new emotion i cannot explain. But i can say
this much, am I purposely disconnecting w/ my family or do i truly
feel like I need to be with another family that's not of this earthly
realm? I could go one but i'd rather not....yet anyways. I call out to
the universe whenever i can, but am i heard? I don't know...i've never
had a call back. About a year ago, i thought i had, but was tricked in
a way (long story). Heh...now i'm just rambling on :-P. Well, i hope
you find solace soon. I sure need it as hell.....and SOON.
~Omega
john stratton
There's many hawks around my home when I'm out also not so close though . I never gave that any thought . I've never had any NDE but many strange experiences since a child and many craft sightings since the 90s . I feel I was more tuned in a bit ago but have since gotten off track a bit . Hope this makes some sense I just thought I needed to tell you .
John
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Taylor
As for the hawks yes i do think they are trying to tell me to be
more
aware because sometimes i hear them cry. and I am under the
impression
that when you hear a hawk cry it is telling you to be more aware.
I am
tryin my best to be more aware and to be more open but i just
don't
exactly know if I'm doing it 100% correctly. And as for the board
thats how i become a little more open to my spirit guides and
guardian
angels. Yes I use LOTS of protection. i make that a MUST! Anyone
who
wants to use a psychic board should make sure that they use it
correctly and with 100% protection. I know what it can do/lead to.
I
call upon for protection and i visualize a white circle
surrounding me
and the board and nothing but good and positive energy can go
through
me and the board. And i always pray that anything/anyone that is
trying to give me guidance or communicate with me is only through
the
name of God. I don't let no negative come through. I stay positive
and
focused on stayin positive the whole time. I use a board called
the
Psychic Cycle I got it at Books-A-Million in the New Age section.
It
has a book inside of it telling you instructions and FIRMLY
telling
you to use protection and has protection prayers. Its has really
helped me. But yes you are right when it comes to using things
like
that, you need true positive protection. But you have experienced
more
than me and you know better than me when it comes to dealing with
star
people or things related to that category. So if you think it is
best
for me to not use it at this time then maybe i shouldn't. As for
staying calm and positive my partner does not even want me to talk
about things like this. He calls it "humbo-jumbo-BS" and tells me
constantly I'm always "off in space" and that "I have 100% changed
and
I'm not the woman he once knew/fell in love with and we are
drifting
apart." Maybe I am changing. Because pretty much 75% of my time
has
gone to wanting to be outside all the time, researching, on your
website, and using my board. And he doesn't want any part of that.
I
would like to include him but he would never. And when it comes to
him
i fell like i am falling out of love almost or maybe i should say
slowly being driven away. I know i love him but i don't feel like
he
is my "soul mate" anymore. I feel like here on earth i am meant to
love him and he is meant to love me but when we go elsewhere he
wont
be there or something like that. It is almost as if i woke up one
day
and was 100% changed or completely different. So we are having
some
problems. So this weekend i am goin to who i call my sister's
house in
Athens GA to a field of 50 acres and I'm goin to use your
mediation
method and devote my time to mediation. I feel like something is
calling me to do that. I have always felt like a "outsider" in my
family and i need to be around someone who understands me and wont
judge me and that is my sister. She remembers being abducted when
she
was pregnant with her boy. And she and her now 11 year old boy
hears
the same humming i do. so I think this will be good for me to do.
And
when i asked my board or my guides why I all of a sudden feel this
way
about my partner it told that i was going to be taken far to new
and
spelled out P, L, A, N, E, T with new other Mars. I was really
shocked
because the more i am using it the more it is saying and the more
clearer my message is. I then asked if Mars meant male and it said
yes
and i then asked what is my connection to this male and it went to
cupids heart which you can guess means love,marriage,and sometime
sex.
I then asked if I was going to love "him" and its said Yes. So
that
message has thrown me for a loop.. lol. Thats the first time some
message like that was sent to me. I dont know if it is 100%
accurate
because in the past i have asked some questions before and they
came
out unclear not necessarily wrong just unclear. So I hope i have
made
things a little clearer and answered some of your questions
becaused
you answered alot of mine. And i wanted to say Thank You to you
and
everyone on here for being so welcoming to me. Thank Yall. And
Bless
It Be.
Love Always,
Taylor
On Mar 11, 11:04 pm, bonniejeanmitchell <Bonnie_and_J...@yahoo.com>
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