Download ((FULL)) Maddie Zahm Fat Funny Friend
Irmela Caccavale
Looking back at photos of myself in high school where I thought I looked massive I see a girl who was bigger than the rest of the girls around her but was still an appropriate size. I can appreciate that now as I am the heaviest I have ever been in my life and I wish I could tell 16-year-old Rachel that she is still beautiful no matter her size. I am trying to break the habit of hating myself by learning how to accept the way I look because even if I do lose 100 pounds I would still find something to hate about my body. The mentality of being the fat funny friend will most likely never go away as Zahm sings I will still feel inferior.
This song proves that all girls who were or are fat funny friends are not alone. I have never related to a song more in my life than I relate to this. It has opened my eyes to see that we may have been the biggest in our friend group but outside of the small worlds we live in there are so many others like us.
The chorus highlights the internal conflict of wanting to be appreciated and valued, but also feeling like being the "fat funny friend" is her only option. She questions whether her friends keep her around as a way to mask their own insecurities or if they truly value her as a friend.
The bridge suggests a sense of resignation to her role and the ways in which others perceive her. She jokingly refers to herself as "funny" and leans into the role of the supportive friend, even though it may not always be what she truly desires.