Now that Dear One is Dead One...

[just me]

I find it hard to tolerate the unblemished memories of Dear One that I
am reading here and there. I believe that the mind set of Endeavor
Academy is poisoned by a delusion that Dear One was some sort of
enlightened being. I was there for many years and finally I just took
at look at what he was really doing and saying at it didn't sit right
with me at all. He was very often intentionally increasing fear in
his students and using this fear to generate loyalty. Anyone who
cannot see that this is what was going on was not looking. He had
flaws - I have flaws - we all do. I can forgive him but I cannot lie
to myself and pretend there is something special about him. There is
no love in specialness. And I love Dear One in spite if the
specialness he ascribed to himself. It is and was totally
meaningless. "I love you Dear One."