OR DO WE....? from Cassie
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Still Undefined
Aug 11, 2008, 3:55:52 PM8/11/08
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Once again I find myself incapacitated by unexpected health issues.
Once again I am dealing with the medical system that is woefully
inadequate.
Once again I am faced with the struggle of anger and fear towards
Babylon that is probably the root causes of my last years MRSA, then
cancer, and now a failed gall bladder which went unnoticed on last
years CT scan. Two years of misdiagnosed pain when they were
actually
gall bladder attacks. The pain is gone now since the emergency
surgery
removed the beyond repair diseased organ.
Should I be grateful to the system that stepped in and relieved me of
such pain?
It is a good chance that my gall bladder failed due to the high
cholesterol and sugar and processed diet I have been on since birth.
But how lucky am I to be staying 2 blocks from the national
headquarters of Whole Foods where I can buy non processed meats,
fruits and vegetables. But I notice only the rich and wealthy
shopping
there, some sipping on the wine or beer they can purchase there as
they shop. In the wine section, there is one brand of wine priced at
$999.00.
I wonder how they view me when I leave on my bicycle with my meager
$20 of non processed food, as they honk impatiently at me as I cross
on the crosswalk, delaying their busy schedule. I wonder if they
look
at the poor or the homeless, who cannot afford to buy healthy food,
as
threats to their existence. Or are they aware that healthy food and
water should be as free and available as the air we breathe? (I
think
I breathed in some healthy air up in Montana….everywhere else was
questionable)
Well, I digress towards what we are all aware of. Nothing new. So I
will not rehash what is wrong with things. We all know, don’t we?
OR
DO WE?
I faced death once again last week. The 5th time since March 1,
2007.
The last year has been a most brutal time, filled with unexpected
extreme physical and emotional pain and incapacitation. In 2006, I
was a healthy 53 yrs old.
I had one hour before surgery, after the angry surgeon warned that
there could be serious complications due to the massive scar tissue
from the cancer surgery last year.
So, as I laid in the same hospital that I almost died of MRSA last
Sept, overlooking the Capital of Texas building dome, as well as the
looming Frost Bank owl shaped building (rumored to be Illuminati
headquarters), I prepared for one of many possibilities….to die.
I quickly released any resentments or harbored grudges towards
family, friends or enemies. As I released the dark cloud of
judgments and that negative acceptance and expectations of
limitations, a new perspective emerged in my mind as I gazed at the
Austin skyline with its symbols of human and, possibly, non-human
control systems.
I, as a human being, was one of the elements in this representation
of
power in the skyline. And I saw that I was equal, on the same
level….with the same amount of influence towards the destiny of this
planet and Universe.
With an unexplainable desire to live, to experience this new
perspective, free of accusations and blame, new reasons to live in
these troubled times, flooded my mind. …to think with clarity, to go
within, to discover this new territory, of healing and new thought.
I was drug free at this moment, declining the morphine, since the
pain
had subsided to a tolerable level hours before. My mind was clear as
they wheeled me into surgery. As I lay there, watching the hustle
and
bustle of the technicians preparing my body for surgery, I actually
glimpsed a cellular level, where I saw my neurons and synapses,
spiking and connecting. I saw my “energy” then merge with the
technicians as well as with the surgeons, as well as, with the energy
of the Universe. We were all One, but individuals, different in many
ways.
As I recalled the white light I experienced last year, of the healing
experience from the MRSA while in the hospital, I now imagined it
spreading through this cellular matrix I was witnessing. I
envisioned
it, not only there in the operating room, but throughout the
hospital,
then all of Austin, then Texas, the USA, the whole Earth, out onto
the Universe…..just like last year.
The surgery was without complications as “feared”.
As I was being discharged the next day, my nurse, as she wheeled me
out, told me that I was the last patient on that floor. That they
suddenly had no more sick people on the floor and were shutting it
down.
H’mmmmmm……..
PS: I am extremely grateful to the Universe for this past year and
the unconditional love, acceptance, and healing energy sent my way.
Thank you family!
Once again I am dealing with the medical system that is woefully
inadequate.
Once again I am faced with the struggle of anger and fear towards
Babylon that is probably the root causes of my last years MRSA, then
cancer, and now a failed gall bladder which went unnoticed on last
years CT scan. Two years of misdiagnosed pain when they were
actually
gall bladder attacks. The pain is gone now since the emergency
surgery
removed the beyond repair diseased organ.
Should I be grateful to the system that stepped in and relieved me of
such pain?
It is a good chance that my gall bladder failed due to the high
cholesterol and sugar and processed diet I have been on since birth.
But how lucky am I to be staying 2 blocks from the national
headquarters of Whole Foods where I can buy non processed meats,
fruits and vegetables. But I notice only the rich and wealthy
shopping
there, some sipping on the wine or beer they can purchase there as
they shop. In the wine section, there is one brand of wine priced at
$999.00.
I wonder how they view me when I leave on my bicycle with my meager
$20 of non processed food, as they honk impatiently at me as I cross
on the crosswalk, delaying their busy schedule. I wonder if they
look
at the poor or the homeless, who cannot afford to buy healthy food,
as
threats to their existence. Or are they aware that healthy food and
water should be as free and available as the air we breathe? (I
think
I breathed in some healthy air up in Montana….everywhere else was
questionable)
Well, I digress towards what we are all aware of. Nothing new. So I
will not rehash what is wrong with things. We all know, don’t we?
OR
DO WE?
I faced death once again last week. The 5th time since March 1,
2007.
The last year has been a most brutal time, filled with unexpected
extreme physical and emotional pain and incapacitation. In 2006, I
was a healthy 53 yrs old.
I had one hour before surgery, after the angry surgeon warned that
there could be serious complications due to the massive scar tissue
from the cancer surgery last year.
So, as I laid in the same hospital that I almost died of MRSA last
Sept, overlooking the Capital of Texas building dome, as well as the
looming Frost Bank owl shaped building (rumored to be Illuminati
headquarters), I prepared for one of many possibilities….to die.
I quickly released any resentments or harbored grudges towards
family, friends or enemies. As I released the dark cloud of
judgments and that negative acceptance and expectations of
limitations, a new perspective emerged in my mind as I gazed at the
Austin skyline with its symbols of human and, possibly, non-human
control systems.
I, as a human being, was one of the elements in this representation
of
power in the skyline. And I saw that I was equal, on the same
level….with the same amount of influence towards the destiny of this
planet and Universe.
With an unexplainable desire to live, to experience this new
perspective, free of accusations and blame, new reasons to live in
these troubled times, flooded my mind. …to think with clarity, to go
within, to discover this new territory, of healing and new thought.
I was drug free at this moment, declining the morphine, since the
pain
had subsided to a tolerable level hours before. My mind was clear as
they wheeled me into surgery. As I lay there, watching the hustle
and
bustle of the technicians preparing my body for surgery, I actually
glimpsed a cellular level, where I saw my neurons and synapses,
spiking and connecting. I saw my “energy” then merge with the
technicians as well as with the surgeons, as well as, with the energy
of the Universe. We were all One, but individuals, different in many
ways.
As I recalled the white light I experienced last year, of the healing
experience from the MRSA while in the hospital, I now imagined it
spreading through this cellular matrix I was witnessing. I
envisioned
it, not only there in the operating room, but throughout the
hospital,
then all of Austin, then Texas, the USA, the whole Earth, out onto
the Universe…..just like last year.
The surgery was without complications as “feared”.
As I was being discharged the next day, my nurse, as she wheeled me
out, told me that I was the last patient on that floor. That they
suddenly had no more sick people on the floor and were shutting it
down.
H’mmmmmm……..
PS: I am extremely grateful to the Universe for this past year and
the unconditional love, acceptance, and healing energy sent my way.
Thank you family!
Stephen
Aug 11, 2008, 11:34:27 PM8/11/08
to Texas-Rainbo...@googlegroups.com, Still Undefined
They ran out of sick people in Austin?
No one needs to be hospitalized - not that hospitalization is the solution to much, but damn - sounds a lot like a dream to me-
Stephen
"Let the truth be known and let no one hide what it is that is truly in their heart or where they are coming from in this time, now. Let all the People Know who we are and that we are sincere in our walk of Peace. We will not be denied the Peace and Love on this planet that is our destiny, it is coming to pass and all we need to do is accept this truth as the greatest truth of all." Coyote
"They made us many promises, more than I can remember, but
they never kept but one; They promised to take our land,
and they took it." --Red Cloud
"This is not the time to be giving up our rights. Once they are gone there is no getting them back." Helen Thomas White House Correspondent 5-28-02
--- On Mon, 8/11/08, Still Undefined <twothu...@aol.com> wrote:
> From: Still Undefined <twothu...@aol.com>
> Subject: OR DO WE....? from Cassie
> To: "Texas Rainbow chat group" <Texas-Rainbo...@googlegroups.com>
> Date: Monday, August 11, 2008, 12:55 PM
> Once again I find myself incapacitated by unexpected health
> issues.
> Once again I am dealing with the medical system that is
> woefully
> inadequate.
>
Still Undefined
Aug 12, 2008, 10:51:29 AM8/12/08
to Texas Rainbow chat group
> > As I was being discharged the next day, my nurse, as she
> > wheeled me
> > out, told me that I was the last patient on that floor.
> > That they
> > suddenly had no more sick people on the floor and were
> > shutting it
in....not all of Austin....really!
I am sure of what I experienced (I have been paying attention lately!)
and my interpretation of it shared is full of my own personal
symbolism from my very own life experiences, not others.
In the past, I have been an avid student of others history and their
"quotes", mainly because I had only shame, mistrust and disrespect
towards my own.
However, my own personal experience is the only history that I now
choose to investigate and honor. ...as I am sure that those of the
past had to do also.
This realization started after my first climb on Bear Butte, S.
Dakota, many years ago.
I found out later that Bear Butte is the Sacred Place where Crazy
Horse, Sitting Bull, and others recieved their visions. Where they
struggled with love and hate and the frustration of not having the
whole picture.
Should I honor their past experience, as being my battle or journey or
honor my own thoughts and experience?
Perhaps that is the journey. In honoring mine, I honor theirs.
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