Death and Dying

[Abrigon]

INDEX:
Valley of Death
God is Dead
Dream Dead
Death and Dying
Dearest Lady
Dearest Kate
Dearest Everett
Dearest Christ
Dear Husband
Dead Eyes
Dead Dreams
Dead by Drunk
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P-Valley of Death - Humor

Hail Mary full of cum,
the sperm is in you.. darn..
blessed art thou,
your not a virgin,
blessed is the fruit
of my penis.. Jesus!
thou I walk thru the valley
of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
cause I am horny
and all know what
that means..
Here kitty kitty, yo evil,
where art though?
time to fuck..
time to stroke the pussy..

Mike
2004
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P-God is Dead
 
Hero, or villian
Saint or demon
God or Devil

Mike Adams
2009
not finished
 
(got some ideas but ... Just seen Watchman so ..)
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P-Dream Dead 2010
 
A man, a women
A dream, a child
born of both
shared together.
 
A dream or just
fantasy illusion.
 
Mike
2009
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P-Death and Dying

Dying yes, dead not yet
for with out life,
then you have death
or without hope
there is death
giving up before the
mark of death arrives
to soon to give up
to be given to the pile
or corpsed pying high
before hells door
given up to the disease
called dying, or cancer
or some other malody
that saps our strengths
and pulls us down
down to the ground and in
or to pyres high.
glory, is just an excuse
for dying better than
others dead.

Mike
2005
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P-Dearest Lady:

Dearest lady,
how to explain
of love and desire,
of love I know,
or of the love
of loving
to chase and have,
to know the delights
and desires
under cloths
and skin,
of flesh
and kisses
long and intense,
to know her intimately,
of soul and dreams
of pasts and cremes,
of smell and joys many,
how to explain
to her my desires
and wants, passions
and needs,
but first of hers,
what is her wants,
her needs,
for with out hers,
it is just teasing myself,
pleasing myself,
having myself,
enjoying myself,
and I can do that alone.

oh to hold her
vision and eyes,
to walk close,
each step an agony
for my muscles say RUN,
faster,
grab and take her now.
but no,
all in due time,
slow Mike,
be slow,
but how I ask myself,
when my heart races,
my pulse is exploding
one beat after another,
like kettle drugs..

how I wish to kiss her,
tease and please her,
to feel the curves
of her body mold
with mine,
to know the warmth
of her body,
to smell the scents
of her scent,
but most to just
hold her close,
and know her close..
to look in eyes
of love and know,
she loves me,
and I love her back,
all else is just illusions..

Mike
2005
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P-Dearest Kate 2020

Dearest Kate
I loved you then and I love you still
but congratuation on your recent nupiles
but why did I have to learn it from your dear john
letter to me while I was deployed and thought I
was to return to you and marry you myself.
Your ever loving
William S.

(Not one of mine I suspect?)


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02-10-93

Dearest Everett:

I ask why, and recieve no reply from him for he is dead and
beyond my questions! So I live on.. Why you who had some much
to live for have decided to end it all with such a permanent solution.

You more perfectly formed, better looking, better with the ladies,
more open, better dancer, better hunter, better worker, better
dressed, and better man than I, would end it so soon..
You in the spring of your life and I in my autumn.

I think of you in some of the things we did together. When I
wench, drink, dance and laugh I will think of you. When I
march, shoot, work and fly I will think of you, when I ride in
a SUSV or go to Stewart River I will think of you..
When I eat native food, muktuk/walrus liver and fish strips
I will think of you. When I talk of suicide with others I will
think of you. When I think of your brother Karl and how he is I
will think of you, for why did you leave us so soon, leave us in
such pain, rip a part of our hearts out like a bear ripping thru flesh..

Why did you leave us behind, to suffer at the loss. Were you so
selfish? I know we talked about things, of life and death, but I had hoped
it was passing, obviously not. I am stronger for knowing you and loosing you,
the hardest part about knowing someone is say good bye! I do not wish to say
good bye, but you have not given me a choice. I know you can't hear me
now, but I have to ask, what others have asked is why!!!
Some might say why do you hate us so, to leave us with out you,
but I don't think it was hate, you just did not think, you let
Nome get to you, the cold long nights, weather, and work get to you.
I know you were trying to quite a bad habit or two..

I know you were far from home, alone in many ways, not quite
sure who you were, of where you were coming from.
Caught between old and new, tradition and the modern.
Of both Yupik and Inupiaq parentage but modern of up bringing.
Part of multiple worlds, but maybe not quite comfortable in
either.
I am sorry I was such a slob when we lived together, I'm sorry
for making jokes about your last name, but now that you are gone
"I am dick less".

I know to not think of the "what ifs" but of the actual, the
now, and the future. The future without you is just a bit more
barren, a bit more lost with out you, so I march on without you,
you have fallen behind, but I will keep marching on to prove to
you and myself that I will not give up, I will not let things get
me down, and that I will not do what you have done, for I do not
wish to hurt anyone, as much as you have done to us, your family and
friends.

I say in passing, to all who think that life is not worth it,
that there is no hope, that death is an answer. I say no bloody
way, with life is hope, suicide is not the answer. It is a
permanent solution to a temporary problem.. If you need help there
are many who can and will help, don't be to proud to ask for help.
For in pride there is folly. If first you do not find help, try again!!

I say good bye now Everett P. Dick, rest in peace for I shall
not..

EVERETT P. DICK'S FRIENDS FOREVER...

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P-Dearest Christ
 
Please forgive them
for who they are
For they are what
they hate the most.
they ask for love,
and accept hate instead.
These beings call human
but far from humaine.
 
They blame God
for being cruel
and angry but they
often do it to
themselves.
 
Hurt, pain, manipulate,
and drama. Please
forgive them for just
being what they hate most
 
Human.

Mike
2006
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P-Dear Husband

Dear Husband,
here I am
in another bed,
looking for a lover,
a stranger,
a friend, carrying
not for our bonds
of marriage,
for you have
left them
far behind.  

Sleeping on me
with others,
friends and more,
cheating in mind,
soul and emotions,
all I have to go on
is that vision of you
and another to spur me
on to jump to another.

Mike
2005

Edit 2005
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P-Dead Eyes
 
Eyes stare back
they are dead
and black, no life
there, but memories
 
Memories of
the time I saw
them last.
 
And what we
was to do
and said
and dreamed.
 
They did it to
themselves, but
what of us
the survivors?
 
Those who live
past the moment
of their death
 
Be it accident
or stupidity
or suicide
 
Those eyes stare
back and I
forget all
and nothing.
 
So I cry
and other
as well for
memories gone
but remembered
 
but not up front
but behind
the mask
we put up
 
hope it will
stay there
but our
makeup runs
and the pain
comes through.
 
Dinner anyone?
 
Mike
2006
 
Wierd how the death of someone, will haunt you for years. For Eugene Dalilak, Everett Dick, Bon Tate, Karen, Karl and others I still find hard to remember, or name, or even remember their names, but one day the pain will back to the game, and we can deal with things.
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P-Dead Dreams

Step by step
another death
not of life, but
dreams, gone
but not forgotten

Mike
2005
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P-Dead by Drunk

A Man
A women
a child
A future
but whose?
Theirs
or others?
Who can tell
for gone
they are
dead by drunken
means driving

Mike Adams
2006

But did ya have to die on my shift Eugene? SSG Dalilek AK ARNG
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