I can't remember when I heard the song last (maybe before church on Sunday), but the song is going through my head over and over:
You are Awesome,
You are God,
You are an Awesome God.
Just a moment ago, I stood at my hotel window looking out over what I think is Orlando. I thought how beautiful it looks. There are some palm trees right in front of me and as I scan the horizon it looks like I'm on the edge of a forest of trees. And that song starts playing in my head.
I feel happy and content in this moment. Silently worshiping my creator.
As I think on how awesome God is I return to thoughts of how incomprehensible God is. Once I think about how God is everywhere in every time at the same time, there is a fuse in my brain that blows.
I remember Hymns from my youth that say that we'll understand when we get to heaven. I don't believe that I am capable of understanding God -- not even once I've been resurrected in my new body.
I think of the verse I Corinthians 13:12 -- KJV
"For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known"
When I stand before God, face to face, am I going to completely understand God. I don't see how. I will never be God's equal and I don't see anywhere in the Bible where it says I will be like God, all knowing ...
I think in the moment when I look into the face of God, I will be overwhelmed. This awesome God, creator of everything, loved me so much that he sent his son to die for me. This awesome God desperately loves me and wants me to have a relationship with him. I cannot see how I can do anything else but fall down and worship God (with tears in my eyes).
Maybe I will sing to him:
You are awesome
You are God
You are an awesome God...